i didn't cry when my father
said he wasn't sure he loved
me anymore and i didn't cry
when my mother let him hit
me so hard i passed out
i didn't cry when my first ever
boyfriend broke my heart and
went after my best friend and i
didn't cry when they lasted so
much longer
i didn't cry when the cancer
stole my grandfather from me
and i didn't cry at the funeral
when everybody was asking
me how i felt
i didn't cry after all of those
boys took advantage of my
inability to fight back and i
didn't cry when they all told
everyone about it
but ******* it i could't stop
the tears fast enough when you
said you didn't love me anymore

I’m never alright

So I’ll take my life

With this sharpened knife

I cry every night

It blurs my sight

So the crooked cuts

Along my skin

Have just begun

As the night begins

It’s unstoppable

And the addiction wins

Though the pain is lost

I’ll soon be forgotten

I’m left to rot

In this pit of pills

I’ll eat my way out

Swallow them all

By the time I reach ground

I’m already gone.

Im not mad at you.
Im mad at me.
Im mad that i get so attached
When you obviously arent
I just dont know what to do with myself anymore
Im so tired of being sad
Im tired of not feeling like im enough
Maybe it would be easier if we just stopped
Because i cant keep falling if theres nothing there to catch me