It's almost like
I close my eyes and you're gone
I don't feel you anymore
Like I used to
It's been too long
I reach out but all I see
Is darkness
Surrounding me
A void of which I can't control
You were all I had
I gave it all
Heart and soul
Only to close my eyes and have you go
Just like that, it's crazy
You know
To think
Once was there like the loudest drum
Only to murmur now
The slightest hum
It beats for you no more
You see
It's ok, I'll be right
I can breathe
I'll open my eyes for all to see
In hope that someone
Is reaching back
for me
x

you were everything my parents warned me about.
you were the person only existing in my nightmares,
never in my dreams.
a beautiful mess of motorcycle rides,
tattoos,
leather jackets, and lit cigar.

you screamed trouble
you screamed danger
you screamed bad news.

but i was hooked the second your lips and mine moulded into one.
you were like a drug i couldn't get enough of.
but
the comfort i once found in the warmth of your skin turned to flames i couldn't put out
and i was hurt.

i should have known.

after all, if you play fire with fire
you are bound to get burned.

i just miss you