Emma S: Favorites

Apr 2015 Emma S

J M Surgent

When you walked,
it looked as if
you were dancing under the stars.

Little feet have
a soft-stepping cadence
when they explore small town streets,
and yours were no exception.

You danced the ballet vino,
each sway a dive
ready to be caught
in the movement of
the music you paced.

You stumbled,
I caught you,
and we laughed
like we had
Many times before.

It was cool and misty,
the burnt smell of fallen leaves
was in the air.

It was October,
the world was painted autumn,
and we were in love.

#love #memories #fall #town #nostalgia #autumn #feet #small #little #streets

Apr 2015 Emma S

trigger

Apr 2015 Emma S

Taylor

trigger

i have seen scarred wrists and burns and bruises marring the bodies of beautiful girls, countable ribs and thigh gaps and jutting hip bones.

boys destroying themselves in puffs of smoke and empty pill bottles, dry coughs coming from ruined lungs.

but nothing triggers me like you do.

You bring out the absolute worst in me and throw me so far off the edge I can't even see the sun

#pain #selfharm #triggers

Apr 2015 Emma S

trigger

Apr 2015 Emma S

Amanda

trigger

The scars are fading
the razors gone
but the feelings are back again
they haunt you even in dreams
a sadness you can't escape
if all i think about is cutting,
am i really even recovering?

Apr 2015 Emma S

Trigger

Apr 2015 Emma S

Emma Kolditz Jensen

Trigger

... and my skin is begging to be touched,
by the shiny piece of metal,
that takes all the pain away.

(e.k.j.)

self harm tw.

#self #harm #me #tw #personal #warning #trigger #injury

Apr 2015 Emma S

Musings 06

Apr 2015 Emma S

ellie

Musings 06

I have made a home,
a nest deep in the hollow of my own sadness,
a space so vast it could be considered a black hole,
infinitely large and consuming all that surrounds it.

I am settled beneath my own ribcage,
in the pit of my stomach where that dead feeling resignates from,
caught with chains and locked with a padlock but my eyes have grown accustomed to the darkness of this internal prison,
when I try to look out, to seek escape, to find freedom,
the light hurts my eyes and I shrink back, retreat into what I know,
my comfort zone,
the void inside me that I like to call home.

I feel so numb most of the time

#suicide #sad #depression #sadness #death #depressed #numb #void

Apr 2015 Emma S

Singing Waves

Apr 2015 Emma S

Kayden Fittini

Singing Waves

Towards the surface remain my concerns.
The sun will shine on all my problems.
Entering my mind in a state of stillness.
As powerful as that might be.
Will it set my fidgeting free.
It's time to leave that all behind.
Searching to find the wondrous grape vine.
To eat with the acknowledgment of peace and happiness.
The water is in harmony to the song of the whales.
To sink deep naturally without any fails.
I wish I could hug it even though it flows around me.
From the cosmos I must shine through my enlightened chi.
Lifted from all the negativity.
I've found what rescues and saves.
The voices travel with the wind and aids the singing waves.

#meditation #ocean #waves #transcendentalmeditation

Apr 2015 Emma S

THANK YOU, ALL OF YOU

Apr 2015 Emma S

Del Maximo

THANK YOU, ALL OF YOU

still down but uplifted
fortified by friends, family
and friends of family
touching my heart with their prayers
with hands clasped
or palms up in supplication
or fingers tapping keyboards
spoken or unspoken
your words to God's ears
my frustrations alleviated
through your kind thoughtfulness
my spirit roused by your intentions
as I lay in bed this morning
moved by your kindness
I lifted my hands in praise and thanks
they tingled with grace and vibes
a manifestation of your love
good feelings overcame my moodiness
my mind reset on healing's path

(C) 01/27/15