I wonder if anyone cares about me as much as I care about you.

I had a dream we were in the ocean
You were holding me close and looking me in the eyes
But I wasn't looking back
It was like I was watching us from a distance near by
You said "I love you" and began to push my head under water
I woke up terrified and I knew
It wasn't because you tried to drown me
But because I said I love you too

I know I'm setting myself up for disaster
I still can't help but always answer

Good girl gone bad
The tears in my eyes are because it's true everything he said
I  just "take what I can get"

He asks me why I look so sad

It's because he's right
All along I've accepted what I should regret

Despite everything

All the ******* and lies

Hoping that anything

Could fill this void inside

When its 6am and he's on your mind
It must be love

When you drive over a thousand miles and he's the first person you need to see
It must be love

When you can feel yourself smiling inside when he kisses you... Really...
It must be love

When you hear a song and you know he'll love it
It must be love

When you've been waiting all day long to see his face, cause it's him you've been missing...
It     must    be      love

If it's not
It must be... something

I feel so broken here
Laying in this bed
Where I've given you so much of myself


I don't know why I thought what we had was special
Despite what everyone told me, I thought I saw your potential

Broken pieces of everything we used to be

These memories haunting me continuously

You say you can't say sorry for the things you've done intentionally
Deep down, I always knew you'd do this eventually

Lost hearts
Always seem to find each other

Lately I'm so lonely

Truth is, I left my heart in New Jersey


It's winter in Florida
And I feel like a foreigner
But the warm breeze
Reminds me of simpler times
How could there be
So much beauty to see
But nothing more beautiful than his smile

Over a thousand miles away
And even more things I wish
I had the strength to say

The sun sets
And the sun rises
I fell for you somewhere in between

You made me feel everything, so deeply
When I was so used to feeling nothing

There's no amount of rinses or cycles to wash away the memories in these sheets

There's this quote I remember..

"If the good die young, we're gonna ******* live forever"

I used to believe that was true
I never thought I'd be here without you

I remember feeling invincible
Drinking beers
Popping different colored pills
Never paying attention to the time
Talking until the sunrise

Just a bunch of misfits wanting to belong

Showing eachother sides of ourselves no one else knew

Those days are gone
And somewhere along the line we lost you too

So I guess it's true
God only takes the good

We always thought we would live forever

I remember
And now that's all I can do

I think it's cute when you cry
But I'd do anything to see you smile

You see it's all just a disguise

The pain isn't gone
It's just pushed deeper inside

You don't see how much it kills me when you treat me like I'm nothing.

Isn't it interesting to think
There's people who have saved us
That have no idea

The miles feel longer
When you've lost yourself loving another

Sometimes I just want to hide
But he sees me..
Even when no one else does

the war between remembering and forgetting

I learned at an early age
There's things in life that happen you can't explain

I still remember waking up that morning in June
There was pain in my parent's eyes when they broke me the news

They said there had been an accident
And Amanda was badly hurt

I remember the feeling in the air
Because we all didn't know what to do

So we prayed,
I kept thinking in my head she'd be okay

And in the hospital
It hurt us all so bad to see her that way
I have to live with that memory each day

Machines the only thing making her breath
Her hair still curled from the sweet sixteen
Where she spent her last hours dancing and being free

I try so hard to forget her laying there bruised and swollen
Such a beautiful life prematurely stolen

I'm alone in my room writing silly poems
Just a useless pile of bones


I wonder what you do alone
Do you think of me?
Of course you don't

But I think of you
And each night you made feel special

I love everything you do
It's like dancing with the devil

Dangerous
But beautiful
A sinner so perfectly flawed
Your eyes shimmer
Like a enchanting god

So good
So evil

Everything I want

They say timing is everything

So I guess the world just isn't spinning in my direction
Because I always feel like something is missing

So I'm stuck searching
Re-Learning these lessons I've already been taught

Realizing what I need isn't what I want