Mom, I think I broke myself

It's hard to accept that the person who mocks you,
is the same person you used to cheer.

it's the thought that maybe just maybe he has a special way of looking at you
that sometime in the past
you really had it
that there's the connection you've been looking for
it's the wasted chances
the time that could have been for the two of you but didnt
it's the illusion you created which you believed as the reality
that you didnt see it coming
your head betrayed you and you cant accept it

I said I love you, you said you loved me.

I've met people
without arms
or feet
or eyes
or teeth
but then i met you
and saw something worse.
i never would have thought
you'd be someone,
without a heart

as the wound deepens
vision gets clearer
that the future of us
is nonexistent

if you can keep up with my mind games
then maybe we can do the love game

soon you'll be buried forever,
and i'll be the one who'll dig the hole

i know you hate me
i know you you dont love me anymore
i know you think i betrayed you
and i know i've hurt you

we were both in agony
we were both mad
we both fell out of love
and it's hard

but somewhere along those lines
along those times, those days we were together
im still the girl you fell in love with
the girl you kissed under the pouring rain
the girl who made you laugh with her silly jokes
the girl you made memories with
the girl you spent your cold nights with

our feelings may have changed
but the fact that we've been a part of each other's life
and that we were once the couple who give strength to each other,
wont change.

i've forgiven you,
and i'm sorry,
if i can turn back time,
i'd do the same thing over and over again
i don't regret the moments we're together,
the fights we fought,
the words that pierced through our hearts,
the scars, the marks we left each other,
the beauty of what we thought will be forever,
the kisses, the hugs, the comfort and the love,
it was worth it
it's what made us now
what made us better
and i thank you for that.

i loved you
im sorry
thank you
goodbye

you reminds me of my flaws,
and one thing i learned, is that,
you shouldn't be with someone,
who makes you constantly feel like a mistake.

Asking for you to come back is like begging death for a kiss

i made a special place for you in my heart,
but you broke your way out,
like it was nothing.
you left my broken heart behind,
falling into pieces,
craving for your presence.

Two more months and it's 2015,
but it feels like i'm stuck in 2012.

There's a war in my head,
and i'm losing

I lost the stories I have yet to tell,
the poems I have yet to write,
the tunes I have yet to sing,
'cause I have lost everything when,
i lost..
you.

I like how you twist your words,
thinking i can do the same with your neck.

I'm afraid that
one day
I'll wake up
still in my bed
knowing
that others have gone
living in another year
while I'm stuck
in the past
left behind
with my fears and regrets