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Dianali Aug 2021
All that love flowing through my veins
got me sick to my stomach
I’m disgusted by how much
I loved you.
Dianali Feb 2022
Mid-youth crisis,
   Lovely pictures of your exes

.. getting married.

You are wrecked,
Aren’t you?

25’s birthday eve
I thought back then
You’d be here
Dianali Aug 2021
He was just a draft,
Yes, a really good one,
But still, a draft.
What can I say?
I want the real thing,
I wasn’t settling for that.
Dianali Aug 2021
I’m done playing this game
Against myself
It’s about time I meet
A worthy rival
Dianali Aug 2021
You can’t break me,
there’s always a dream
I’m chasing
Dianali Dec 8
I wanted to cry
As I saw my mom’s mug—
Broken.

She was so sad,
So she fixed it.
It was a mug from Italy,
I brought it to her
as a souvenir once.  

She was so sad,
As if she brought it
herself,
She lingered.

I wanted to cry
As  I realised—
She got to see
Some places
Only through my eyes.

I wished,
I hoped,
Someday I can
Carry her with me
To every place she ever dreams.
Dianali Nov 4
We could never be.

You had a malice in you,
I couldn’t recognise in me.

We could never be.

The roots of your envy,
Started to grow stagnant,
In the depths of my being.

We could never be.

I had to understand.
I couldn’t change this fate.
I had to let go of my faith.

We could never be.

The endearing love,
The Christmas parties,
The summers to come.
It was for the better
Dianali Feb 2022
I linger..
I’d love to remain
in the happiest minute of life,
yet I know..
Being afraid won’t take you far
Dianali Feb 2021
As years go by,  I can only recall,
the same feeling of longing has always been in my bones.
Dianali Aug 22
I’ve got a Time Machine.
But I have to warn you,
It’s a painful ride,
going to the past.
Dianali Dec 2021
To reminisce of the past—
what a luxury,
Of  those
In the future
Dianali Oct 2021
You were lucky enough
To be in my sight
When the stars alligned
When my heart was warm
Dianali Sep 2021
My mind is full with conversations,
Yet it’s all so quiet
Dianali May 2021
It sickens me
How it occupied a part of my reason
The way I detailed a map of your heart
In exchange of
A sugarcoated rusty knife in my back
Dianali Jun 2021
I want nothing to do with you
I am comfortable in the memories
safe, knowing I made it through
aware of the outcome
Dealing with the consequences
Of the bittersweet experience,
The terrible rollercoaster
Of your intermittent affection
Dianali Oct 5
Sometimes I crave you.

Even though you just
took
And took
and left me..   bare,
Useless; body and soul.

I don’t know what it was..
..what it is..
Why part of me
                        …lingered.
Maybe it was hope.
To be seen..
To be loved..
like before.

A part of me will always feel this.

unwanted,
unwelcome,
uninvited.
Dianali Mar 2021
I’ll imagine
I’m sending you a song
That I know
You’d love.
And in my head
we are dancing
to the rhythm
Of our once treasured
Now forgotten, bitter,
Love.
My favourite playlist, your soul
Dianali Nov 16
It’s in my soul—
Like flesh pierced
By the glass-shaped pain
Sharp and raw.

Nobody knows how to help

I try to remove them,
the shattered memories
Each sharp shard
Lacerating my insides,
Tearing my spirit,
Pain echoing in flesh.

A ****** mess, I get more hurt.

Same old same,
Everything I touch,
stained—
with overflowing emotions,
Red, heavy, thick
Intense—  

It’s a deeper wound.
Larger than myself.
It keeps cutting.
It keeps tearing.
My Faith.
Dianali Dec 2021
“So you are into words” he said
“That doesn’t make you interesting, I’ll cut the chase”
I think of that for every poem I write
For every lyric of every song that gets to my heart

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