Alone. Still with you.

I retire alone on the bed that could be yours too
Yet, not alone, I feel, as your thoughts sit up and watch me sleep
I wake up to an emptiness brimming with emotions
That you've left me with, to keep me company
I sit by the window, hapless, tired, in tears
For those memories barge into my space
I sprint down a pathway, smiling like an idiot
As many more memories surface
Sometimes I catch myself humming tunes
To songs I never knew of, before you
Sometimes I notice my habits
That have changed, under the influence of you
Voice notes have filled my music library
Sped up heart beats, my empty spaces
New revelations, my mind, light crimson, my cheeks
You've opened doors to a room I didn't know existed
You've taught me things I'd have to unlearn
And relearn what you made me forget
If you're not coming back
If I have to keep walking without you.
But no, I'm not complaining
I thank you, my love
For you've left me with so much
So much yearning, for you...

She danced in the downpour
Her feet enthused, but eyes were sore
Her head spinning with thoughts galore
Blood rushing away from her core
Trying to erase thoughts that tore
Only to fill up the mind with more

In an attempt of distraction, aloud she sang
And swayed, tapped, increased tempo, whoosh whoosh, bang bang
A swing of hand...crackle...clink, clang clang
A gasp, pause, and an "oh dang!"

Picking pieces, knowing they won't amend
She realized, it was wasting time trying to mend
So instead, she chose to fix what she can tend
In the face of fate, determined, not to bend

The glass nothings she'd picked, threw back the little lot
"For some things can't be fixed", she thought
"And some things can", she fought
And just like that, she found courage, previously unsought
Scattered pieces, gathered thoughts

I fell, hapless, when our souls first met
Just how it happened, oh I will never forget

That wicked one, he worked his charm
Barging into my life, without an alarm

Returned to my senses, when broke, that spell
Trapped as guinea pig, I was, I could tell

His everlasting embrace, it chained my soul
Battered, shattered, half from whole

He left me all alone, but he left me strong
Oh wait, I left him; to say he did, would be wrong

He was but a voice, a frail one, in my head
But I was so affected by all that he said

"You try, you fail, you'll never be good enough
You love, you're hurt, life will always be this rough"

But then I heard my soul so meek
"May I?", he hesitated; I enthused, "sure, speak!"

"You feel like you're dead inside, but look how alive
you sound as you respond with zeal, like you're only about five"

And there released a giggle, a tear
'I found her again, but will I lose her?' I feared

"No, woman, no! The little girl will always be alive"
He said with such credence, "I know she will survive!"

I was falling again, this time, to rise
I turned around to say goodbye, to the one I despise

That voice in my head, refuses to leave
But now, his balderdash, I refuse to believe

He talks, he jabbers, often on mute
I'm lost in sweet spiels, of this new beaut

Now listen, carefully, my stranger friend
If that spiteful voice finds you, shift the trend

Rush out, reach out, to YOU, your soul
protect it from him, maintain your whole

Arduous, it may be, but that voice, do seek to find
For that's true love, not the demeaning voice in your mind

You've been away, a while
I didn't miss you
You promised to stay
But I didn't kiss you

You held my hand
and my neck too
Hello again, you return every while
Why do you?

After all the lows
You've put me through
You still think you'll win
You have no clue!

I listen to my heart
But to my mind too
I listen to my soul
To ME, not to you

You think you're special
Special, you are, my dear
Look in the mirror,
You're one in a million
You have two eyes, a nose
Oh, and a mouth too
That spits venomous fire
Onto every soul that disregards
The beauty of your mind
The logic they cannot find
In your thoughts and your speech
But, oh, how you mind
Everything that makes sense to you, is beautiful
And all that fails to, non-sensical
Of course, you're one in a million
A copy-paste of a different kind

Their eyes met, as her key united with the lock
Cajoled by his gaze, she changed course
And as she followed command, two pairs of lips
Curved, his demeanour turned coarse


As the door banged shut, unease flooded her mind
But from her heart, these clouds did glide
That thundered lustful thoughts
Which she failed to hide


He pulled her high, onto her toes
Bent to draw some passion, from her lips
Surrender she did, with her heart and soul
And followed course, her arms and hips


Sandwiched between his chest and the wall
Her heart surpassed a tempo she had not known
He hushed her gasps with his pursing lips
Causing a rhyme of moans


But just then, the mind resurfaced
Unable to stand, but had to run
Kissed goodbye, headed to the window
"See you soon, you were fun!"