Tracing the patterns of dust shining creatures in the night sky
Wishing that every sparkle will equal to
a day without trying
a day without crying
a day without denying
that I am as good as you imagined me to be.
I spent many, many years
finding
fixing
completing
the broken pieces I have, ever since the day I felt like I am torn
but
Still, after years
I am still the lost girl in the crowd
I do not know where I belong
I do not know where I will fit in
I do not know who I truly am
I kept on guessing
maybe I am a geek
maybe I love reading books
maybe I am part of the White Girls who drinks Starbucks everyday
or
maybe I am sporty and manly like all the boys in my class
or
maybe I am just a piece of work who is worth to be kept in the shelves for years
I asked myself for thousand and thousand of times
Who am I?
Then, a voice whispered to me and it opened my heart fully
He said
"Darling, you do not need any more or any less.
You are my creation, a masterpiece, therefore
you are my Princess and I am your King.
You are my child and I your Father.
You do not need to find yourself underneath every person's shoe, because you are MY CREATION, A MASTERPIECE and I love you for you."
Right there and then
I found myself
I fixed myself
and I know who I am
I am His child,
He is my Father
Although I am not as good as you think I am
His judgment is all that matters.
Therefore,
I am the kind of girl
who you'll see outside
thinking and staring
at the dust shining creatures in the night sky
wishing that every sparkle will equal to
A new blessing
and
A voice from my Father
who resides in the heavens.
That is who I am
and I'll be forever grateful.
Right after science homework
I opened my account and started typing.