Loneliness is the feeling
That, even when there are
Many people around
You still feel
So alone

Like
The world is going on
All around you
And you
Just
Aren’t a part
Of it

Alone
Like you don’t belong
Anywhere
And no matter what happens
You still feel
Like you're
All alone

I should have written this down long time ago
When it all made sense
When I cared enough
When there were no strings

Some memories
Nostalgic as they may be
don't deserve to exist
to be told or related to
to be listened

Nothing
Words stuck on my throat and all I can say is nothing
scar embedded on on my heart and all I can say is nothing
love ****** me so bad and all I can say is nothing
Life turned upside down and all I can say is nothing
Stuck on a loop of despair and all I can say is nothing

Increase
add more
what is there
is so less.

it is endless
little still
extra need
more to feed
up to greed

no way to rid
there is a thirst
countless prayers
many faces
every day
ending with empty hands

all the resources
forces
on the toes
evolving
multiplying the lives
depleting what is left
it will end
all has been said.

The world ran me down
And then ran me over
I may never see straight
I may never be sober
Yet
Cheers to you
I wish you the best
Love is a maze
Life is a test
Be well as you travel
The worlds that you know
Beyond the shadows
Life takes it's toll!

As you can see
From
My perspective
I’m an old soul

Rhythm
and blues
Is where
My mind dwells...

At times
Some , would give
Their all  
To tango along
With my rhythm

But
They don’t give
A **** about
My blues ...................

I still remember the first words you said to me
But I sometimes wished I had the powers to crush and turn them into dust
So that the wind could bury them
Because my heart and brain cannot come to a conclusion whether those first words were lethal or not

I am still hoping for the day karma catches you and reminds you of me
Especially the pain you've caused me
The humiliation
The mental damage without any prescription
I just pray one day you'll be sitting with your new partner and subconsciously
You can still remember the day I bought you chocolate and only to find out that it was a treat for your new hype chick
This entire scene runs through my mind every day and each second I meet an eye contact with you
Or even when I get to smell your scent

Loving you is something I thought I could've really accomplished
But I guess you were just another boy without a heart
Allowing me to fall for you without any medical attendance
And this why my heart can no longer seem to function
Because it's left with a mark that shows how dreadful it was trying to love you
It no longer beats 10 times faster,even when I'm sitting next to you
Close enough to feel your sins
Because only you made my body shiver on a sunny day
And only you gave me goosebumps to remind me why love can be a wonderful journey that I never hesitated
To experience
And you still the only one I'm dying to forget
Because you just another boy without a heart