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You were the breeze
The one that I once embraced
And imagined I can hold and keep
One night in that fine summer

Like a ghost you stayed for a while
I felt your kisses and hugs
I was in love the way we were
But that was one fine summer night

Another summer has come
And I can do nothing but to trace
Where I felt your hugs and kisses
And when the love started

I came back to this shore
To find whatever has left
But it only hurt me,  just like before
Knowing that the breeze had passed
And won't come back anymore

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I don't want to cry again
I want that  cry in the past
To be the last one

You don't know how long
I have waited for this time to come
That I can face the world with strength
Even my walls are breaking

I will never stop loving
But I will never beg for love
My love is real forever
So I deserved something real
I just want you to know
How much I love
But I won't ever ask
To love me in return

I will never beg for  love
Because I deserved something real
So I will stand here alone
But I will never cry again
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I've been sitting in the sky,
and watching as the world stops
A rock in the night reflects a light from the day old sunshine
And I laugh because I know none of this is real

My tongue is dried out from too many late-night conversations with myself
Contemplating what my next move on the chess board will be
Knowing I'm bound to lose either way
But refusing to give up until the last turn is played

My brain has wilted and withered
from overuse and constant abuse
From all the times I've wrung it out to dry
Squeezing every last drop
Every last thought out
And now I'm hollow
I'm empty
There's nothing left to find
I'm a shell of a person
with a mask on my mind

The days seem shorter even though I never sleep
I dream while I'm awake
And I forget sometimes that reality exists

I've lived several different lives
None of them were for me
I've worn a dozen faces to please my past
And I feel like I never really got the chance to know me

I've been worn down
and ground up into dust
By a thousand unkind words
and ***** looks
Never knowing which direction I should walk in
And worrying about whose feet I might step on to get there

I never wanted to be the bad guy
I always thought I'd be standing in the light
But I've been pushed aside and stripped of my color
And now I'm afraid to come back out of the shadows

The feel,  the touch on my skin
Brings ecstasy to last forever
I feel your love all over me
Kisses so sweet and tender

The dreams,  the promises we made
Carry me to a wonderland
I see myself walking with you
On a beach walking hand in hand

This fairytale inside my heart
A prayer I always sing
Your words of love bring me to tears
As I look in this silver ring