Here I Slice My Wrist
But To Me, It's Like A Kiss
Vein Is What I Missed.

Tears
Fall down my face
Burning
Like acid rain
Into the wounds
You gave

I can't move my arm
My hand

I've been shaking
For so long
I wonder
If I'll ever be still again

My heart
Slams against my ribcage
With every beat
It beats
And beats,
Beats
'Till there's nothing left
Of me

You said you loved me
Said you cared
When I was in trouble
You'd be there
But now you're my pain
And I'm a victim

Hoping I could
Find the courage
To escape
But there's nowhere
Else to go
Nowhere that I can
Feel safe

I've never been so afraid
Never felt this way
I'm so afraid
You might return
Afraid of the things
You think I deserve

I sometimes would wake up to an,
"I miss you text",
You'd say you love me aloud,
I wouldn't cry as much,
I wouldn't feel empty,
I wouldn't have to ask for you to tell me the truth,
You'd be happy when you see me,
You'd hug me and give a kiss,
Passionate kisses,
Meaningful kisses,
Not kisses that made me feel irrelant,
You would smile,
You'd touch me sometimes,
You would make me feel good,
You'd appreciate my body,
Maybe kiss me on the cheek while I slept,
My forehead or lips,
If you really loved me,
I would feel the love,
I'd believe I made you happy,
And that I was the one,
If you really loved me,
It would not have ever felt like this.

Empty,
Superficial,
Cold,
If you really loved me,
Why is it that with you,
All I felt was
**Alone.