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I buried him somewhere…
When I go to bed at night,
I checked the closet and he’s not there,
I tried under my bed and he’s not there.

Surely he’s dead for I buried him somewhere,
I am a woman now and not a frantic child,
It’s been a long while since I have not visited his grave,
Pray then, why must he appear now?

I tried hard to move on with life,
I persevered to love and accept myself,
I opened my heart to forgive my own,
My being is as wide as the skies.

I found solace in the plateau of my existence,
Why must he visit now?
Truly, I buried him somewhere,
And I swore he’ll never see me again.

He’s there trying to taunt and torture me,
He’s the one who mocks me,
He scoffs me when I search for happiness,
He laughs when I try beating myself.

Nightmares haunt me even at day,
He was the devil himself,
He, a vile and a disgusting man,
Who touched and fondled me in my innocent years.

He violated my freshness to rotten,
And it took me years to pick up the pieces,
Now that I’m almost whole I couldn’t understand,
Why must he resurrect in my dreams?

I am a woman and I still live,
Yet fear still envelopes my being,
I can never forgive and I will never forget,
But surely, I buried him somewhere…
Dedicated to the abused (sexually or other) females around the world
Remember...
The bashful gazes that worked their way into your armour

Remember...
The clumsy saunter that incited your laughter

Remember...
The lips that parted confidently only to reveal child-like stutter

Remember...
The warmth that enveloped your hand as we walked together

Remember...
The winter day's kiss that felt like never-ending summer

Remember...
The day disappointment overwhelmed and doubt grew bolder

Remember...
The inevitable conflicts that resulted in futile banter

Remember...
The embrace when everything fell apart and seemed unclear

Remember...
The whispers that failed to soothe when your pillow got wetter

Remember...
The journey that now seem to not matter

Remember...*
My heart as you once did...
As your silhouette drifts away,
everyday much further
So wonderfully and fearfully made…
And through you God’s beauty is displayed.
Only Him and none can make you feel satisfied…
In trying times on His word diligently abide.
Roses are red and waterfalls of tears are blue,
Sometimes life is filled with lies that seemed true,
Everything passes but the Lord will guide you through.

Never ever forsake your family and friends…
Inspire them with your essence until the end.
Kneel when you can’t carry the yoke any longer…
On your knees and folded hands Jesus will take over.
Learn things seriously and take rejection politely…
A** smile on your face every time you hurt terribly.

So wonderfully and fearfully molded don’t forget…
And you are made whole even if life’s not perfect.
Love, faith and joy are your simple treasures…
Take them with you in your every adventure.
In giving your all expect nothing in return,
Nurture the seeds of every blessing earned,
Go and make your heart’s fire brightly burn.
To my beautiful goddaughter.
Even though I have only seen you in pictures darling girl, and I'm so far away from you, be known that you have a place in my heart. My prayers are there for you :-)
During work I think of you
At home I think of you
Maybe if I shoot my brains out
I would stop wondering about you

Oh yes! To be a zombie
Undead walking on earth
Never thinking, never minding
Just walking and feeling hungry

But even if my brain gets frozen
It’s not the ***** that thinks improperly
This tiny red muscle with intricate branches
Pumps and thinks too much

Just **** my heart with any weapon
For if it ceases to beat then it stops
To think about the brain which flashes
Images of you to me
God! It's been 3 years that I've written this but the feeling is still the same.
Rainbows of light
that's what I'm sending you
Each color
penetrates
each chakra
cleansing and strengthening
re-filling with light
and purity of spirit.
Each color magnifies its healing property:
Violet, lucidity of connectedness
the channel ever-clear
creativity always flowing.
You know yourself and always will.
Indigo, clarity of mind's eye
that third eye that you so allow to see
positive and true
Deep ocean blue
for communication in tongues
only for the benefit of the soul
for expression of the outpouring of spirit
releasing the burdens of your heart
as unexpected challenges arise.
Verdant green, like the jungles of your heart
Wild and untamed yet ever vast in gentleness
overflowing with love
balancing you into harmony's swing
serenity's caress soothing your soul
Sunlight yellow
right in your solar plexus
shining as a sun lights up from within
allowing you to trust
and re-trust your gut feelings
your inner wisdom alight.
Orange, pure glow of fire,
waiting to burst forth
from bud to flower
for femininity to unfurl,
both tender and fierce
as the lioness knows to be.
For joy to envelope every cell of you
every fraction of who you are and will be.
Finally, red , embers aglow
flames dancing
flames from which your strength
and vitality emerge
the source of your courage
in this battle.
And so, my fellow warrioress,
I send you rainbows.
To buoy you up
To thread you with light
to match, cell for cell,
the strength and healing
in colors.
I stand by you as we wave our flags
as we run through the
wilds in our battle cry
I am with you all the time, every hour
of the universe
silent like the huntress
stalking its prey,
tender as the mother
with babe to the breast
fierce enough to stave off the enemy
Standing at your side
Ready to catch you, if needed
Ready to help you generate rainbows of your own.
The power, my love,
is within your fingertips
within your smile
within each stunning
beat of your heart.
Rise up, and allow it
to weave through
the mosaic
of you,
a rich tapestry that spills unto the sacred plain
You,
my rainbow,
my light.
For my most precious daughter
~~~
dedicated  to the three, who read this first
(S.B, J.A.,  & T.M.R.)
and know it all too well

~~~
more than ever presumed,
more than ever thought realizable,
indescribable attainable,
a modernizing magic powder,
synthesizing my intemperate body
~
at last, all ego falls away,
now but corn husk mulch,
detritus, non-toxic nuclear waste,
for growing better visions,
fruits undiscovered
~
write for me,
my recordings, my blog,
not to differentiate,
to substantiate,

to integrate

your gasps imagined,
mine realized,
exhalations upon lips grazing,
the soil of our rainforest
wetted by
living smiling,
eye droplets,
forming a singular stream
~
write for you,
sharing too close,
are you my first or second skin,
for there are no spaces
~
satisfaction discovered that is insatiable,
this pleasured seeing,
this pleasured sharing,
this poetic reason,
to exist
*I watch your face
as you write

in the furrows of the brow,
see you and the
word-seeds being seized,
harvested,
prepared, ready-roasted
for sumptuous consumption

grimace and smile,
alternating currents,
grimace and smile,
ponderous pondering
chew each word,
flavor extracting,
does its taste fit,
is it only,
but,
perfect?

you get up, you sit,
you move about,
pretending, misleading,
purposed to be aimless

yet eyes squinting
betray
a fearsome full
concentration rapture,
a mind computing
the numerical quality of
words,
summing, subtracting,
solving for X

you employ technique,
formats, tools and aids,
thesaurus, dinosaurus, dictionary,
even pictionary
when
the guppy letters
swim spring river current fast,
little boy catch me fast run past,
cannot be caught and easy captured

why
do I watch
your face
as you write?

for there visaged,
is your truest work,*
**you, your best poem**

*what words you select
matters little to me,
t'is the struggles,
the blush of satisfactory,
the distempered white of
disillusionment,
of inspiration sought
but not found

all these dancers,
you choreograph
a word-ballet in three acts,
scheme a midsummer nights dream
upon the stage of your face

return the favor poet?

watch mine,
watch my face,

as I read your poem
and see thine own best
reflection
in teary eyes caught inside crows-feet,
pencil thin smile lines of fine wine whimsy,
in feet that airlift,
the contour of
who you are
and
think*

You, Poet,
you are your best poem
My Suppressed Anger

I hold it all in,
everything they've said,
I mold it all in,
inside of my head,

We all go through it,
me and you,
Yes you've all been,
in my shoes,

I don't want to listen to what others have to say,
I wake up thinking negatively every day,
I care about those that feel like me,
I think I can help but then I realise their not as ****** up as me,

I sit in my awkward posture,
here I am,
corner of the sofa,
once again
same place every time,
thinking of words with paper cuts and pens,
with a mouth jibbering like I just ate a lime,

I'm not good and I'm not fine,
and if I say I am then I am lying,
I'm not happy and I'm not free,
not as free as I'd like to be,

When I'm in a group of people I'm not shy,
but I'm not charismatic either or sly,
I don't always show my emotions but I don't always hide,
Although I suppress all of my anger inside,

I don't want you to deal with my feelings,
I don't want you to tell me how to get by,
I don't want you to tell me I'm a human being,
sometimes I want to die,

But you can't help me when I'm down,
the most you'll get from me is a smile or a frown,

Even though I'm not happy like you,
I can pretend,
a little false smile,
just for a while,
I'll think of the good times in that split second,
and reminisce in memories that have come to an end,

I can be anybody for a day,
but I'll just be me,
once you go away,

I'll just sit there like a lazy bear,
hibernating like a rabbit,
I don't give myself any care,
but staring at my spots became a habit,

I don't like to attention seek,
but I don't mind sharing in an artistic form the secrets I keep,

Well I'd like to speak to a person who cares,
But I've not found that person just yet,

So I'll just learn how to draw manga,
listen to depressing *** music
and write a poem about my suppressed anger.

14/01/15
~Peace~
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)
In the shadows hides his weapon,
In the shadows he's nothing more than a long black hooded cape,
Kids walk by convinced that their imagination is playing scary games,

But when all is lost and death dwells near,
Shaking old men do fear,

Waiting for the sirens of death to ring,
And the puppets of war to get pulled by their strings,

When the city and it's people with it have died,
It's interesting to know that,
Death survived.

By Larna Kira Kourtis
AKA: LkSkyFlyRose
Aged: 14

2014
~5th October~
Thanks for reading :)
No More Bell's.

Bell's he said,
Bells is dead,
Bells is far away,

Went for a walk,
For a chat and talked,
To Island's clever mind,

But now bell's is gone,
And now there is only one,
One bell left,

Island cried for her long lost friend,
But had to carry on,
Now bell's aren't ringing anymore,

And the one bell left,
Hit the floor,
And entered the heavenly door,

So there's simply,
No more Bell's.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
Aged: 13 & A Half
~Peace~

02/01/2014

(For those who have lost a Family member, close friend, Lover or Spouse.)

By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2014 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)
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