Chaos
There is a sound in here that is near to often,
I'm left hoping that the raged voices will soften,
In here is a tendency to bickering,
leaving my eyelids tense and flickering,

At the end of the dispute I quiver and tremble,
the dominance of silence feels like the air is wearing a suit,
leaving me submissive and humble,

and when the air is finally clear I feel delight,
no more do my senses smell a fight,
but now the surroundings are beautified,
although I have won nothing I have accomplished peace,
leaving me slightly glorified with a chance to breathe,

I do hate these moments of brevity,
caused by stress and angry sensitivity,
now that peace is cement I should celebrate the unexpected and meant,
and I shall keep changing the versatile atmosphere in here,
the end of quarrels and chaos is near.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
2015
April 30th; Thursday.
By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

My Suppressed Anger

I hold it all in,
everything they've said,
I mold it all in,
inside of my head,

We all go through it,
me and you,
Yes you've all been,
in my shoes,

I don't want to listen to what others have to say,
I wake up thinking negatively every day,
I care about those that feel like me,
I think I can help but then I realise their not as ****** up as me,

I sit in my awkward posture,
here I am,
corner of the sofa,
once again
same place every time,
thinking of words with paper cuts and pens,
with a mouth jibbering like I just ate a lime,

I'm not good and I'm not fine,
and if I say I am then I am lying,
I'm not happy and I'm not free,
not as free as I'd like to be,

When I'm in a group of people I'm not shy,
but I'm not charismatic either or sly,
I don't always show my emotions but I don't always hide,
Although I suppress all of my anger inside,

I don't want you to deal with my feelings,
I don't want you to tell me how to get by,
I don't want you to tell me I'm a human being,
sometimes I want to die,

But you can't help me when I'm down,
the most you'll get from me is a smile or a frown,

Even though I'm not happy like you,
I can pretend,
a little false smile,
just for a while,
I'll think of the good times in that split second,
and reminisce in memories that have come to an end,

I can be anybody for a day,
but I'll just be me,
once you go away,

I'll just sit there like a lazy bear,
hibernating like a rabbit,
I don't give myself any care,
but staring at my spots became a habit,

I don't like to attention seek,
but I don't mind sharing in an artistic form the secrets I keep,

Well I'd like to speak to a person who cares,
But I've not found that person just yet,

So I'll just learn how to draw manga,
listen to depressing *** music
and write a poem about my suppressed anger.

14/01/15
~Peace~
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

I'm Sorry

It seems like our arguments are never-ending,
you don't seem to think that I have a right or an opinion,

I was all-out for you, I did so fcking much for you,
but you don't even know, infact you don't have a clue,
how much you hurt me and yet I still loved you,

I'm sorry that you make me cry,
I'm sorry that I'm honest and I see through your lies,
I'm sorry that I try,
I'm sorry that for us, we are lost in time,

I only wish that you could see,
how much you mind-fcked me,
I'm sorry I'm not accepted by your family,
and mine gave you food and a place to sleep,

I'm so very sorry that I'm not like her,
I'm not a sheep.

10/01/15
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

Under His Breath

In my dreams we have true romance,
with souls intertwined we are holding hands,
you say beautiful things to me and you listen and understand,

In real life around you I am happy,
even when I feel irritated and snappy,

You make me giggle,
and it feels like you're my best friend,
but I am so afraid that our friendship may come to an end,

I beat myself up in my head, tell myself that I wish I was dead,
but he reassures me in a magical way,
I'm only left here to be patient and wait,

I'm holding my heart,
been doing so from the start,
and I will wait till my death,
just to be under his breath.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)

Listen To My Tears

These tears of a million pieces are drowning in your arms,
these tears have a million memories,
save me from self-harm,

This shadow that follows me,
never smiles, no, but I can try but I won't,
because it doesn't feel right,

Because these tears are all I have in me,
every negative thought I have somehow finds me,
It's hard to carry on hiding,
these tears are blinding,

So dissapear, I say this to myself,
I cannot take another long glance at myself,
This poison under my skin,
is the first reason for my bleeding,

Yet my heart keeps beating,
and these tears hoard the feelings,
the ones that I like to hide from you,

All I want to say is I'm sorry,
sorry for hurting me,
I am the one, I betray myself,
and I am my own personal bully,

My number one enemy, it's me thats hurting,
I wish you could see what is happening to me,
this pain is unreal and it makes me peal,
every flaw off of me,
I don't want to hurt me anymore...

That's why I stare at you,
waiting for you to notice more,
and I adore everyone, I truly love you all,
It's me I hated all along... and afterall,
I am so hateful to myself, I can't wait,

To love, to feel like hope is here,
like it's all crystal clear,
But first you need to hear,
Listen to my tears.

By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose

© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)