Simple things could make you smile,
I wonder if you're soft and fragile
But one thing is for sure,
that you love him so much more.

Why do you keep on settling for less?
Is that how you wanted to express,
the love you felt for that man
you're trying to impress?

I don't know how you managed
to stay in a relationship full of doubt
is that what unconditional love is all about?
an emotion or feeling that you cannot express through mouth
but it's too clear to understand if your heart shouts it out loud.

Yes, you settled for less
and that less might turn into progress.
Even your childhood is a mess,
that doesn't mean you can't live your life to the fullest.

Imagine you have the guy you wanted for so long,
how can you live with that in reality?
where everything seems right might be wrong
Reality *****, and your wants cannot be defined so perfectly.

Is that how love should be?
sometimes you have to be treated just nobody?
a perfect relationship is just imaginary
even being loved whole-heartedly
is not that ordinary.

You met me when I was broken,
Not aware of my feelings that gets deeper.
There were no signs given,
But there are moments I should remember.

I wasn't happy back then,
But you start brightening my dark days.
I tried ignoring you as much as I can,
Still, you're getting my attention in many ways.

You're so cool, and I was problematic.
Every time you are near, I start to panic.
It took me some time to realize it was true,
The moment I began to feel something for you.

I couldn't stop thinking of you,
even if by means of loving you could make me a creep.
words are not enough to prove it, merely a way to give you a clue.

To be continued..

Can't barely sleep.
Who am I gonna ask for help,
if everyone else doesn't want to speak?
I can't tell anyone that I'm afraid.
So, I stood up in a shadowed corner.
Hoping that the signs of fear might be concealed.

I have no one else to show my vulnerability.
I need to be brave and strong, so I don't get pitied.
You might think that it's all part of stupidity.
Of not asking for help, is my weakness that lead.

I heard them screaming.
The sound of sorrow that awakens my senses which stopped me from dreaming.
Dreams were turned into nightmares, so bad for making me anxious of the things that I cannot control.

Help me escape in this chaotic mind
These painful scenarios should be left behind

You were enchanted by the mystery,
You thought it was love and pursued me.
Been excited to discover every part of me.
Touched me like a book, what an interesting story it could be.

I am just ordinary,
people might see me as an old book that could not be understood easily.
I am just nobody,
but you brought me up to life where my existence has been saved from a tragedy.

You have stolen my heart that made my feelings to ramble.
'T was confusing...
and for a moment, I never thought that this will cause me to slumber.
'T was frightening...
A nightmare when we became lovers.

We both made this story, a fairytale.
In the end, it's ourselves that we fail.
Fantasizing each word, trying to mend the aching wounds.
It's not the sword that cuts, but the lies that's ripping us 'till we hear the rhythm of the heart that pounds.

I have never lived my life through your expectations.
Still, we tried to chase everybody at their romantic phase,
while being deceived by our own illusions
As I turned the page, showing fears that I couldn't face.

I laughed when you told me that, alone, I can write it beautifully.
like the songs with a perfect melody.
You think that tearing me apart could turn into a perfect art,
Leaving me afraid and lonely.

I was left there, hanging.
In every page, horrible scenarios are ranging
I was left there hoping,
Just in case there still be a happy ending.

They're attractive to see
long, thin, sharp as nails
they grow slow like snails
its life is one long jubilee

Butterfly is not a meal
but when they flew in your stomach, it felt surreal
is something that you cannot steal
a hunger that is hard to fulfill

As when thorns and butterflies collide,
You wouldn't even know how to survive
Thorns will **** you for a while
The worst feeling that you cannot hide

Thorns will pierce you and the pain is mild
Butterflies will die, even if they go wild.

Something inside me is pounding.
Do I still have a heart to feel about the situations that looks surreal?
I witnessed a horrible scenario, it was revealed.
But all I knew was there's something pounding inside me.

I can't explain if I was hurt nor I was nervous,
But I noticed something within me
It's breaking me, but I was confused
Tears won't come out, even emotions were unreadable

My hands were shaking, I was rattling deep inside me
But nothing comes out, I want to calm myself down
So all I did was to keep in silence, will you say it's gonna be alright while holding my hand?
I don't know how all of these will end.

You were full of thoughts deep inside you that was kept for a long time,
And I was constantly amazed the way  your feelings was confessed
Something that's inside your heart makes the people got impressed
But I wasn't so sure, and I think that a one false move would constitute a crime

I hate you, the way I hate other people
And that bothers me, for I should be the person who doesn't care at all
I do. In a short span of time I did stop caring
But most of the time I never think about mine

You will never be the first person who did something for me, either good or bad
But you're the only person who told me something that I forgot but can still feel it,  and its makin' me mad

This should be sweet, a message that could make your heart beat
But I don't know how to compose something
It's full of confusion, I only write because of grief
Still, I wanna write for you, for someone special that I should treat