Jessica

May 2014

IncadesentCat

Step:
✔  1 Get a silly crush (something to compare later feelings with.)
✔  2 Move on, it's a silly crush
✔  3 Live on the outskirts of social interaction for a couple years
✔  4 Find a girl who makes you smile for no reason
✔  5 Wait a while, holding on to that feeling.
✔  6 This is no silly crush (you can compare, remember?)
✔  7 Tell her about it
✔  8 Watch her fall in love with a player
✔  9 Suffocate
✔ 10 Move away to college, miss her
✔ 11 Find a shady man in appropriate alley
✔ 12 Purchase lethal substance
    13 Use it

#love #suicide #sad #depression #pain

May 2014

kyla marie

15 texts I (almost) sent you

I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]

Jessica Feb 2014

The Last Breath

The last breath
Is always the longest
Always the slowest
Always the quickest

The last breath
Is always the hardest
Always the easiest
Always the calmest

Just a little draft

Jessica Feb 2014

Feelings

My feelings for you are intense as can be;
You've opened my eyes and allowed me to see.
A new light is dawning, a new life awaits,
A magical world that just we could create.
A beautiful world filled with love, not despair;
It's amazing to know that you'll always be there
For me, even if times start to get very rough,
I know you'll stand by me and help me be tough.
A text of a call from you makes my day bright;
A little 'sweet dreams' helps me smile at night.
I think of you often, you appear in my dreams,
You're perfect in every way, shape, form, and means.