panic
i hate the way i panic
i hate the way i think
and think,
think,
t
  h
     i
      n
        k
and think
because i can't control it
all i can do
is think.

-r.y.s

55 days
1,320 hours
79,200 seconds

all till I can be on my own.

-r.y.s

i hate the burning
i hate the god awful shaking
i hate the way i feel
i hate being away from you.

-r.y.s

nightmares
are common to me
normally of silly things
like zombies rising
aliens abducting
monsters slithering

but recently
they have been of something more painful
of you leaving me
either by choice
or by death

it's ridiculous really
i know you won't
but my mind
says you will

it's terrifying
how much the thought
terrifies me

that losing you
could impact me so much

but i guess that's what love is.

-r.y.s

Baby I won't say
That I love you.

But you are all I have
And all I need

And I know I can't
Keep you forever

But all I ask
Is you keep me

In your memory
Forever

-r.y.s