With all the good intentions,
Let's watch it die,
Burn our smoke to the heavens,
From machine's roaring so loud,
Sever the oceans,
And all that dwells inside,
And with all good intentions,
Let's weep with a smile,

With all good intentions,
Let us count our grace,
Its all about profit to us,
So by all means let's keep up the pace,
**** all the forests and trees,
Just so we can have money for a change,
With all good intentions,
Let's forsake tomorrow for today,

Don't get me wrong,
Am all for that capitalism ****,
Its all about survival,
So don't waste a moment, think
If the earth gets warmer,
That's why we invented ACs
With all good intentions,
Let's be men by all means,

With all good intentions,
Mother nature can take care of her own,
She's always been here,
A billion years and may be more,
Why help her get on her feet,
When our years are running low,
By all means baby,
Let's take from her what she owns,

With all good intentions,
Life is all but too short,
We got the tech to save us,
Escape to mars and what not,
Why stress about the floods and crops that fail to grow,
We can **** nature, print meals and grow spurts,

By all means let's live like fools,
Forget the science coz the world is just me and you,
"Its not our problem" if some creature won't live to see the next full moon,
Let's drink wine and celebrate our alternative truth,

With all good intentions,
Let the message hit your ear,
If this had ever cross your mind then better listen my dear,
The earth is home, food and shelter that you need not seek coz its already here,
Don't tempt to waste today,
For tomorrow that might never be there.

I know your secret,
And what rots deep within,
Yo can't act like yo perfect,
At least not to me,

I know your secret,
All those sweet little lies,
You just a big glorious wreck,
At least that's what's inside,

See I know your secret,
Let's say I don't talk,
But that's only for the best,
So that you can keep your facade fame-walk,

Darling, I know your secret,
Don't play dumb with me,
I'll let God reveal it,
Coz my plate is already filled with sin,

I know your secret,
It doesn't matter what other see,
I've seem how ugly it gets,
And that trauma forever sticks,

I know your secret,
One you keep behind closed doors,
Its not ****** but,
Its nasty on its own,

I know your secret,
What landed close to home,
I've seen the mess,
The one yo covered with clothes,

I know your secret,
I was there when it happened,
I was one of your witness,
And in my mind the reply never ended,

I know your secret,
Behind that sly devil's smile,
And now I know your weakness,
Too bad to me you can't lie,

I know your secret,
I know your darkest corners,
I know you're running and,
I know what binds you together,

Oh, yes. I know that secret,
The one that got you running to church,
It'll come as a heart break,
To those that respect you much,

I know your secret,
I know what rots beneath your skin,
Baby go play a "starlet",
But just know...
     You have a devil within!

I'm flying blind,
Into a raging storm,
Its worth if I'd leave you behind,
And in the end find myself home,

I'd beat the thundering clouds,
I'd take on the vast open seas,
Its my chance for a clean out,
"Baby you won't ever see me",

"Mayday mayday"
I'd take the devil instead of you,
I don't want another second in your sight,
That's how much I need to get away from you,

Pour me a drink,
A scotch with a gin,
I need to think,
Of life and dreams,

Pour me a drink,
Shot after another,
Don't ask me of my being,
Tomorrow I'll put myself together,

Pour me  a drink,
I wanna bask in a perfect sin,
Fix me something right,
And Lemme drink all night,

Pour me a drink,
I'm but a stranger to your eyes,
I have friends to turn to but,
I don't want to drown them with my demise,

Pour me a drink,
Oh, lemme feel my heart pound,
I have a friend coming for me,
So keep em coming til I can see sounds,

I hope our paths never cross again,
Because I will come at you with all the force that I have,
You have ruined the one thing I hold dear,
And now its time we awake what's driven by fear,

I hope our paths never cross again,
For you have awaken a monster I spent decade laying to rest,
Now he is raging in me like an animal encaged,
Waiting for a chance to inflict pain upon revenge,

I hope our paths never cross again,
For I am now a man with few items to waste,
You took what was most valuable to me,
And so open doors to the devil that breathes,

You wake up every morning,
Head's banging and your mind is drowning,
And you promise yourself,
Last night would be your last drink,

Sometime you make it till noon,
When your feeling big and proud in an empty room,
I should give myself a pat for a good job,
May be a glass full of rocks and a good scotch,

You find yourself back to square one,
Downing bottles like its "day one",
You spring back to where you started,
Waking up in the morning heavy hearted,

You need to decide where to stop,
You need to decide when to turn,
Its a fight that both your hands need to grasp,
Its a either you are all in or you've lost,

Show me the other part of you,
The raging storm,
The darkest moods,

Show me the other side you have,
The frown behind your smiles,
The deepest chambers of your heart,

Show me the other part of you,
No matter how ugly,
I promise to bare what I'll see,

Show me the other part of you,
I want you open the heavy gates,
I've been a good friend,
And am prepared to be here till the end,

Lie to me,
That I can go through,
That tomorrow will pass like a cold breeze in a calm sea,

Lie to me,
That I need a bitter song,
To make me feel better,
That I'm not damaged and my actions aren't flawed,

Lie to me,
That you believe in me,
That I can rise above my horrors and fear,
And in the end I can turn into good for my peers,

Lie to me,
That I don't need anyone to stand,
That above all odds that I can push through,
That I can take it with each pace,
Lie to me,
That its us or else,
Lie to me,
That I'm going to be okay,

Penny in the river*

We would have had a wonderful life together,

If I had just fought for you harder,

If I had held on the fights a bit longer,

We would have bought that nice house with a bar,

And have a nice home for you and I,

We'd have a lovely company of our child,

And he'd be the reason to wake up every morning with a smile,

Once the child grew then we'd have each other,

We'd pretend to miss him but deeply relieved that he is a bit further,

We'd run around the house naked drown in our happiness and liquor,

We'd eat ice cream off a freezer,

We'd lay on bed listening to your favourite songs of enya,

We'd live young and grow old together,

May be you'd be okay,
If I'd be with you and stayed,

We'd have a wonderful life together,
But now my dreams are nothing more than a penny in a river,

Why do people act weird around death,
They'd rather talk of their lives and cases,
They'd rather skip the topics at hand,
And talk of something else,

Then there are those,
Who talk of the dead,
Bout how they'll be missed,
And all the good things they can say,

Sometimes there are those,
Who look forward to cheer others up,
Make you feel okay,
Catch the last tear and make it all stop,

Also there are those who'd make you cry,
Spread you're life wide across the sky,
Make you see past the wrongs and catch on the light,
Help you back on your feet and move on with life,

But there are some that says nothing at all,
Because they were there through the highs and falls,
They know the life they've lived,
And all the paths to which they've been,
And for them the loss isn't shocking but true,
So they say nothing,
And they don't have to,

If I die today,
I want a paper free eulogy,
I want to be buried home,
Lay me down easy,
Ready to meet my God.

If I die today,
I want it to be silent,
White roses and metal stand by my casket,
Slow music,
Fine wine,
Drink it down in the memory of me..

If I die today,
I don't want pretence,
I don't want want people to say what I was,
Coz its already too late.

If I die today,
I want the one I shared with my bed,
Because she is probably the last thing to roam in my head.

My words sweets*

My voice as sweet as honey,
My words dripping with venom,
I whisper words of comfort,
While my eyes say am lying,

My words sweet as honey,
Like a dead joke that ain't funny,
I will leave a bitter taste in your mouth,
Revenge isn't best served cold,
It should be sweet with a hint of poison.

My words sweet as honey,
I may look like a sheep,
But am a serpent that calls you baby
And others know better.
Under these charming smiles,
A beast lays in slumber.

My words sweet as honey,
Like a maleficent's curse,
You did this to me,
I loved you and u stole my breath,
Now the devil is off the leash.

With your betrayal,
You better be ready,
Brace your heart,
And hold your breath,

Coz you are in it for a rough ride,
You are in for a devil's prize,
You are in for hell of a surprise,

My words sweets as honey,
Now its my turn,
No hail or warning,
Full speed coming...

You stand behind the words,
Behind the storm that I bring,
Behind pain, and sorrow that u sometimes feel,
they don't see...

You make camp behind the Sun
You burn as it shines,
but they dont see,
you give it all up,
Just for me.

You leave the comfort and step out in the rain,
They don't see,
when you're all dressed up but still come to get wet for me,
They don't see,
you walk along,
when my feet are treading upon hot coal,
and they don't see,

How you love me.


You dive in rivers head first,
they dont see,
You climb deadly mountains for me
Sometimes I also dont see it


How much you love me.


But you love me

We dont see,
You know it,
But you still love me.

You still love me.

My heart sings in gratitude,
My bones are humbled,
I want to wrap you in melody of the affection I have for you,
at my worst,
in the darkness,
on sunny days below summer skies,
when you still love me...

You still love me

I don't want to go back,
I don't want to turn around,
go on picking up every tear I left on the road,
collect on every good moment
that we shared,
gather together the nights we laid broken
those nights that we at least had each other,
search for those still remembered suns
that shone upon us,
those a thousand marble furnaces that
woke up with the opening of your eyelids;
each morning.

I don't want to recollect,
I don't want to remember,
I don't want to reminisce on where love took us.

The lovely seas we sailed on,
the magic shells we spotted on the beach,
the gardens you likened me to,
when you said I was far more prettier,
than those well arrayed flowers.

We are here,
In the now,
You found me in shackles and you brought me free,
you held me in your arms,
you wrapped me,
you put your lips on mine,
moons later,
and I was complete.
And you gave me this.

Here and now.

I don't wanna go back,
I don't want to have any regrets,
I don't want to ask questions
of where I stumbled
and forgot to pick us up both nicely,

I want to stay here,
I want to stay here and be yours.

Every second yesterday was beautiful,
today is indeed beautiful,
but
Tomorrow is the only place I want to go,
the only place I want to go
with you.

I always had a struggle when it comes to remembering,
The things that I misplaced,
And the places I've once been,

Memories are so treacherous, vile and repulsive little things,

One moment you're lost in a carnival of delight,
Swinging by the moon and all the stars at your site,

Next it takes you somewhere you don't want to be,
Some place dark and cruel filled with damp ans ambiguous shapeless things you'd rather unsee,

Memories can be harsh and dangerous pieces of our beings,

But can we live without them?
They are what our reason is based on,
In the lives that we lead they serve as a chain,
They are the reason we know right from wrong,
Love from hate,
And good from evil,

Denying them,
Is denying reason itself.

Although..
What's so wrong with that really??
Its not like they are diamonds on the edge of our feet,
Its not like we are contractionally tied down to rationality,

We can still live the life less worried if we recant sanity,
Take an exit to our unpleasantries,
Ought to a haven of ultimate reality,

So when you find yourself locked in,
On a train,
Heading to a place in your past where screaming is unavoidable,
Remember this.....

There is a pill of freedom,
A place of peace,
The welcoming kingdom,
A cup of relief,
And I call it insanity

  



    
Inspired by The Joker

You touched me first,
under the moon,
you looked at me and said you liked what you saw
the shabby hair and un-permed
let it loose, you said
the freckles that badly decorated my face
my large hips and belly
you touched me first
by the river
you looked at me and said you liked what you saw
my scars,
my struggles the most.

I touched you first,
under the sun,
I looked at you and said I liked what I saw
the good and well cut dark hair,
I love it, I said,
the masculine face and the breathtaking cheek bone,
brown eyes,
I touched you first,
by the oak tree,
I looked at you and forced myself to like what I saw
perfection,
you didn't let anything slip,
not at all.

I laid bare,
under the moon and sun,
by the oak tree and the angry rivers,
on the grass before you,
and you gave me nothing, but a guarded heart.

Bit and bits of your skin,
every bit of your flesh,
the sweat making it sparkle like slowly dying embers.

Give me access to that again,
notice as my heart flees and grab hold,
pull me back to those arms I once called home.

Do I stay?
Am I still yours?

Remind me what it is to fall,
like the season,
leaves making it to the ground effortlessly,
unharmed.
Remind me what it is to be in love,
to be wild,
to scream and moan,
to drive you mad.

Take me into those arms that once meant home,
hold me like precious sand in the hourglass,
it wont take long before time betrays us.

Do I stay?
Am I still yours?

I don't want any ties,
then there'll be no cold feet no hurt
no regrets
just here and now
you and me
lights off with the couch upside down
your place
before we make a tent out of it
and talk all night
one night.

I don't want any ties,
no hopes no plans no pain
no regrets
just occasional good time, you and me
we don't make it to the movies
that's alright,
as long as I laugh
even for a little while all night
one night,

just one night,
to be myself again,

just one night,
to feel like I'm still in control.

I've always loved you,
I've never stopped,
the last kiss was me memorizing every pattern of your lips,
when they're stretched or simply prim.
Like i'd need to remember it all
someday
some days like today.

I've never stopped looking out the window on rainy days,
as a few drops made as if to touch my aching palm,
not hoping to see you walk back to me, no
just to see you out there,
happy,
building what we had with another me,
a better me.

I miss you,
I don't want you back,
I just think I can just miss you
from this end,
without wishing for things to go to how they used to be,
just wishing you the world you deserve,
the world I couldn't provide.

To a woman with everything,
Its a long shot,
but let the truth be,
Your gaze send storm in my heart,
Your voice puts everything to a stop,

At least that's how I feel,

And right now,
We both know,
My dreams will fade in a blink,
And you'll soon be on the wind,
And I can't stop it,

But for just one day,
What do you say!?
Be my pretty woman,
Sun to my monday morning,

Grab my shoulders,
I, grab your waist,
And lets dance our troubles away,

I'll hold you close,
You be my girl,
We'll take the dance floor all the way till dawn,

And we might be a candle in the wind,
But let's pretend we bonnie and Clyde,
And tonight you be mine,
Let your body fall in line,
And we'll both go wild,
Because pretty soon I'll so lonely I could cry,
But for tonight let you be mine!

Yea, we might be a candle in the wind,
But let me have this memory in me

They say the ones that can really hurt you,
Are the ones close enough to do it,
Close to your heart,
Close to your life plug to pull it,
They could make you dry inside out,
Make you yearn for peace so much u dream it,

Make you hesitate to kiss when you lean in,
Miss the love while preparing for pain,

Some people would trade sides just to feel a stab from a loved one,
Because its hideous when they gone,
Trade the loud fights with being alone,
Wish silent radio had a sad love song,

You write letters that you'll never mail,
Staring at blank screens in hopes of texts you'll never get,
Turn into a stalker,

So Grab hold to the love you have,
Use both hands to squeeze it close to your heart,

Blister your hands before you go,
Because what comes next is a part yu don't know,

Shred your mind before you let go,
Be sure before you tip off of the fifty-fifty,
And ask yourself...
            Is your glass
                 half-full
                      or
           Is it half-empty?

Had a dream back then,
Being a president or just a pilot,
It was a goal to me and a tale to most friends,
I had it all planned out down to a chart,
Everythings at the palm of a hand,
But like the most say,
It was just another fairy tale,

I was a soldier of Christ,
Born to a church and the cross,
Hated sin down to a crisp,
Vow hold the bible as a role,
Always walking where is steep,
Always found my self where its deep

At the bottom of the chain,
Where the rich had gold,
And the pure chose lead,
I mourned for my soul,
Mourned to not go astray,

Road grew tougher,
Path grew darker,
The more I went,
The more the ground came closer,

But somewhere along that road,
Somewhere between Gold and God,

Somewhere in between my role and vow,
I think must have switched robes,

Coz now gold seems lighter that word,
And the trip easier than that walk,

Plata O' Plomo,
The decision isnt hard anymore,

If you see love,
Please tell her,
Tell her that I know,
Let her hear the sound of snowfall
And drops of rainfall
If You see love
Please let her know

Tell love I want to hold her beautiful hands,
I hope to one day touch her smooth legs,
Tell love she looks beautiful without makeup
And that her smile is in my memories, in this moment and in tomorrow's glory

Tell love she is a story,
Each chapter written in different ink,
A trumpets beat
As our lips crave the dreams of reality
Tell love to be patient,
We are yet to meet but me and her will live out our forever even if it be but a single moment of a 'hello' and tearful 'see you next time'

If you see love
Please tell her,
I understand she doesn't know,
Know or hear the sound of snowfall or hailstorms,
If you see love please let her know that she loves me, and I do love her so

The morning cheers us up,
The mist cools our troubles.
But you won't let me be the one.

The moon falls when we touch,
The stars rain down on us.
Why won't you let me be the one?

Times slows down like a slug,
Yet our days together seem short.
So you won't let me be the one.

Our hearts beat to make music,
And when we breath it's harmony.
But you won't let me be the one.

The sun will stop to stare at us,
And the water will fall up hill.
The day you let me be the one.

From my good share of memories,
Life long moments of happiness and torments,
From the time I took your glance,
I had yo site and a grasp of your attention,
I gave you my hand,
Hold this for me..

Been here for a while,
I've known love,
I've known strife,
Through life's betrayals and lies,
I gave you my heart,
Hold it for me,

Time is precious to a man,
So is a love of a woman,
Age past,
U showed me love beyond lust,
In a fierce storm and dust,
I gave you my trust,
Hold this for me,

No guild in life,
It was all worth my time,
What we had was my guide,
Had my smile,
When trouble came stomping upon my tiles,
Through sleepless nights,
I gave you my love,
Hold this for me,

I had find peace,
I had find home,
But age weather like a crisp upon a touching a tongue,
And memories slip like water on between hands,
I take comfort on when I hear your name,
For you were a long lasting love song,

So one last time,
As I say good bye,
Till I find you in the next life,
Here is my ring,
Hold this for me..

My dear unborn child
I wish to be there when you step on the outside world
But don't be sad, not too long this war shall end
Be good to the woman I love exponentially, your mother.
Don't keep her awake during night hours
Don't make her throw up every food she takes
Inside that bowl is when her smile is the brightest
With her no harm shall come on to you but blessings shower
The memories of us as a family, graceful like molten gold or a roaring ocean of violent emotion
Always pulsing, surging, touching my soul in that darkest of places
You two are my soulmate soldiers who win my battles


I fight in the frontline of battlefields and win
But I fail to stand a day without thinking of our reunion
Enemies fall by my rifles while I keep praying for you and I shall not cease
My heir, dare to share love with those you care about
Be aware things can be galactic winds ruffle your golden hopes and infuse your aura with flecks of stardust on this mystical path we call life
Don't be in despair, life isn't always fair and take care of your mom beyond compare, especially when I'm not there
It'll be worth the pain at the end.

Yours,
Dad.

It comes with the song
The melancholy air
That feeds my lungs
The reminder that I am loosing
wasting away with the passing of the wind
That I cannot reach you
And the memory lingers still
The past haunts me
When im alone in the dark it whispers
That I shouldn't have let go
Abandoned your touch
Forsaken your kisses
It then justifies
How you made me feel alive
I shouldn't have destroyed us
How I burnt for you
That I still do
Bright orange at the sight of you
That You were ice
Sugar, spice and everything nice,
The water,
The thing that cooled the fire in me
conceiving snow flakes on Sunday afternoons
letting some green grow on Thursday nights
Breathing next to you on Monday mornings
I shouldn't have let go
If I call,
Will you be here?
Will you come?

I still remember our best days we had
You made me smile and forget the odds
It wasn't enough but I was glad among lads
It's sad how fast time can past and live in memories


I have lost the grip, but not love and affection I have for you
As I gaze around the coast and want to put the awe and wonder through you
I want to speak your language and touch the hearts with my fingertips



People are subjective, others are objective and lucrative
But truth is absolute, so are you my old lost friend
Your compassion and tenderness, the rhythm and taste are just.

Of all the great songs of victories, fairytales and idioms
In all the beauty and utter riddles of the languages, you still amaze
Poetry, come back to me and at our best and let's glaze!

Written by Whitney William.


I see you,
You,
behind the wide smile,
the intimidating curve,
beyond the lights,
past the scars,
the markings that carves your skin,
the souvenirs of your ugly past,
I see you,
You.
The perfect beat within.

I see you,
You,
behind the bright eyes,
the fake countenance,
beyond the blooming of springs on your face,
past the facade,
the various ways you wear your masks,
the shield from people's eyes ,
I see you,
You,
the real beat within.

I see you,
You,
behind the tough voice,
the in-built confidence,
beyond the loudness of your presence,
past the noise,
the efforts to get noticed,
the struggles to be acknowledged,
I see you,
You,
the important beat within.

I see you,
over your past,
over your errors,
over the aftermath of the oppression,
the heartbroken,
the faulted,
the weak,
the denied,
the forgotten,
I see you,
You,
over all that,
not the misplaced foot,
but the perfect, real, and important beats,
that makes You who you are.
The precious, fragile jewel,
Darling,
I see you.

Here I lay,
on a dampen floor
my body soaked in my tears
wishing the earth opens up and wraps me in it's arms,
just for a little while.

I moan over the lost nights,
the lost days,
the wasted time, that the heavens,
no matter how much I pray,
won't give them back.
I moan over the lost for you.

I gave so much, on purpose,
chose to stand by you, on purpose,
opted the happy that came from throwing myself to you,
willingly,
selfishly,
foolishly,
on purpose.

My hair is wet from this salty liquid,
my heart is still under your shoe,
my body wishes it could jump out,
fast,
from this layer of skin,
and the pitiful brain that said yes to you.

As I loved you,
you loved yourself,
as I waited on you,
you sought to please your ego for a mistress,
saying sorry for it,
going against your way to apologize,
saying sorry for a chance to do it all over again.

Nothing was missing.
When you found me,
nothing was missing inside of me,
I was whole.
Naive, but whole,
unaware what self love was,
but whole.
Yet I though nothing was missing,
I thought then, you could be a piece to complete me.

And burning with regrets,
I gulp it all down,
because you taught me pride.
I bury my head in pride not to regret,
for the chances and moments,
you opened the door for me
and I chose not to leave.

I weep not for our love,
but for my love.
Hating myself because I didn't love me enough then.
Not even at all,
to care about the person who was really fading away,
with the wind, with every Sun that rose,
and every Moon that sent her to sleep.
Not even at all,
to care about me.

And here I lay,
on a dampen floor,
when I am done crying I'll be back for all that you stole,
claim the parts of me you so forcefully took away,
and I will win,
because you held a marker and drew for me pain,
you held a marker and drew for me survival.


Now I hope,
the next one you meet
won't end up in the trash can,
where you put me.
You made me mature,
I hope someday you grow up too.

I've walked by the river,
Seen the lantern by the boat,
The weight of the water,
The sound of the waves shake its place,
I've seen the edge of the rainbow,
Seen the end of the storm,
Its a place inside me,
Its what I want to see,

Besides all the fighting,
Cons, hates and lying,
I see a water fall,
I see a friend I have known,

Time has never let me down,
Needle in a thread,
Its a chase of life and we the pawns,
But wen it all comes to pass we'll still break the bread,
I know what I have,
A friend,
The kind that knows how to love,

How a man stand his final moment,
A say for his last comment,
A last step on the ire pavement,
Thoughts persist,
And regret is the agent,

The moment of silence,
Every breeze, every bird,
Every leaf from every tree,
Time stops,
A fear of the darkness engulf the soul,
Chill down my spine,
Am due past my time,
Say a prayer with me,
For am at the end of the line,

Arrive at the gate,
Where fate awaits,
Its worth seeing the place,
Where beauty can never relate,
A place of peace,
A place wit no limits,
Where there exist no cuffs of life
And no roof of time,
Clear blue skies and calm seas,
Its a place like none other,
A place I long to be,

Are you brave enough?
Are you afraid to be afraid of fear,
can you squint your eyes in the darkness,
face the Devil in his chambers?
Fighting him to win?

Then can you search for me?
Can you come take me,
grab me from his hands,
break the long fingernails
that's formed a cage I'm locked in?

(It's a nice place,
the valley of hell,
realms of the dead,
Deep in the core of shadows,
It's a nice place.) ….. murmurs

Can you come?
Free me,
fix me,
hold me together until I'm whole again
Yet undone in your arms?

(I sing him lullabies
Though he doesn't go to sleep,
it's for him to easily devour me.)

Before I wake to nothingness
Can you come save me?

This life is only beautiful as you want to see.
Scars are pretty things,
or ghosts haunting the morrows.
People are monsters,
or survivors of fortified sorrows.

You can choose to smash the mirror,
gather energy to battle the reflection,
or simply put on some make-up,
cook up some affection.
And you can choose to paint the world,
here blue, there hues of pink,
or just wear colored contacts,
spray where it stinks.

It's all as you want to see.

This life is as beautiful as the comely soul inside you;
wanting to see rainbows in the darkened caves.
Or it is as ugly as the demons you hug dearly,
seeking to find wrong in the ever blooming gardens.

What is harder,
Oh, wait! What is better?
Taking a hand lens to see deeper 'till you meet some softness,
some good,
or walking with your blurred eyes
to catch black spots in all that's built white?

It's all as you want to see.

APPLE

Wandering in the winter garden all day
The fruits are falling as it breeze
My body trembling, left and right it sways
My teeth chattering the lower as the degrees,
It's snowing on the main and sideways
Am stranded and almost falling dizzy
In my search of my look like chardonnay
Fogg blindens me,Am too vulnerable to see,
Is this a price I have to pay?
Just to have you my Valerie.
Apple.

Round and round I go,
About to find my encounter,
I gotta move careful and slow,
For you don't come on a silver platter,
I will walk, run and crawl,
I am neither being sweet nor flatter, 1
Even in the darkness you glow,
With your hairy skin I pamper,
Our hug dates on that ***** stair floor,
Just to pull you closer and tighter
To keep you from the ****** and bores,
I will fight your harms and batter,
We're invincible whether you accept or No,
Just like ***** to a rasta,
Cause I can't live without you girl
For am the patient and you the doctor.
Apple.

You have been standing there for a while now,
where I took a stick and drew a line,
You have made camp,
Where we said it's a paper door,
Are you out or in?
I have the key to my house of cards beside the rocks,
Angry winds shall soon be upon us
You look like you want it tumbling down with you and me inside,
But your feet betray you

Dawn came and they are now setting up
bonfires,
are you going to move away from the red marking?
It has rained and now my hair are being dried by the cold breeze,
Are we really in this?
The dance will start presently,
Then tales and songs of whence we come from,
I want you to hold my hand and run free to where the drums are played
Are you out or in?

I cant wait for long, sir,
You are at the exit and I don't know if you're going out or coming in,
The beach calls, you see,
Summer has a lovely voice,
You look like you want the night to crawl down on us with your arms around me,
But your feet betray you.
Are you out or in?

I feel the pain while the sun shines,
So I wounder what the storm will bring.
If it wasn't for that holly grass,
What would my face look like in a mirror.

For years I've searched and I've searched,
But inside mine own heart,  see what I've found.
For years I've surveyed these lands,
But with my third eye, look what I've found.

It's me against the world,
Something ignorant that I'd say back then.
But the world will be here to stay.
While we disappear with the wind.

So it's me with the World,
Aye! A smart alliance to secure.
Cause even though it's full of ****, this world.
No one ever marched against it and won.

Woman will use you,
Man will play tricks on you.
And the world will never compromise.
Only a little bit of knowledge gives you much power.

If i were to write a poem,
I wouldnt talk about my pain,
I wouldn write only of my gain.

If i were to sing a song,
I would sing loud and proud,
Never of my sins,
But the life within.

Life gives us everything,
We chose anything,
Yet complain of everything,
And achieve nothing.

pleasure, desire, lust
Are not the only things,
Kings, queens, tycoons,
Are not the only beings.

suffocation, self doubt unsatisfication,
Let all this pass,
Shame,rain, pain
Nothing plain should define us.

brothers, if we were to write poems,
We wouldnt talk about our pain,
We would write only of our gain.

Sisters, if we were to sing a song,
We would sing loud and proud,
Never of our sins,
But the stupendous  life within.

I remember that place where I grew up,
Small house, small rooms and a backyard barn,
Used to play by the trees near the road out by the front door,
I could hear music from the pub and the cars with their roar,
Great days they were,
Had friend on every turn,
Never had much toys but we sure held our own,

I remember it on those days,
Our crowd from school as we go home to play,
Didnt get a bite or a taste on the day,
We still laugh and run because it did matter anyway,
The fights and dusts never made us part ways,
We all had things to share and my love fell to that place,

We never had much but we were always in luck,
Walls were thin, small inside and to the outs a little torn,
I miss the old shack,
Place I once called home,
I could almost see its dirt road,
Just pass downtown

Life always find a way to balance its scales,
A nice day get caught under the clouds and rain,
A good love always fall a victim to pain,
Blue skies to a storm,
Moonlight to a day light,

But there are those moments,
Ones that we make and they never fade,
One that we remember for each day,
Kind when you meet a stranger,
Random talks over a cold drink,
No names or numbers,
Where your mind can stop to think,
And your eyes arent anxious to wink,
Sitting under clear moon with that cool breeze,
Telling tales of life and stories,
And for every word you utter,
You hear your heart's whisper,
And at the end you get to walk away,
With a memory that will never fade,
Or fall into a trap of pain or fate,

And in those kinda nights you tell yourself,
This is a night,
A night to remember.

Some times its easy to miss a moment,
The one you could have smiled,
But chose to spend in torment,
A memory inside, resides in the midst of our joy that is stacked like a pile,
Its a cost we pay for missing the little words,
The one that can save a life, curve a smile and warm a face from its sadden folds,

I like you,
I miss you,
I love you,
Im sorry,

The kind that can take away all the worries,
Calm the storms that hit our hearts,
Raise our knees from dust to glory,
The kind that you owe me,
The one that I owe them,
Rekindle an torn life to a brand-new,

So next time you see me,
Head down to my heart beat,
Forget the gifts, and charms of how you sing,
Forget the plans of how u can make it turn,
Just tell me the words,
The little ones.

I still have nightmares about you,
the ones that used to be my sweet dreams,
I'd tell you all about them the next day.
They are fewer, these days. Much fewer. Be happy for me.

I still feel like someone hit my chest,
whenever people mention your name,
I liked it you know.
But it hurts less and less as time goes by. Be happy for me.

I still make hot chocolate,
just the way you liked it, put on your sweater,
and drink myself to sleep.
It's hard to let go of such sweet chocolate,
and such warm sweater.
I'm starting to hate them though. Be happy for me.

I walk around the house,
and it still smells of you while I've cleaned it countlessly,
should I move out? Sigh A guy passed me on the streets the other day,
stinking with your cologne,
I didn't turn to look at him. Be happy for me.

I see you and her sometimes,
she's very beautiful, you laugh louder by her side,
it stings just a little now. Be happy for me.

You wished me well when you left,
as I broke on the living room floor,
you said it wasn't me, it was you. And you were sorry.
You said you'll pray that I heal soon.
Didn't know soon would be this long. But I'm getting there.
Be happy for me.

It comes with the song
The melancholy air
The reminder that I am loosing
wasting away with the passing of the wind
the distance getting longer
That I cannot reach you
The song that played while we wrestled the sheets
Moments when we finished each others sentences
And the memory lingers
The past haunts me
That I shouldn't have let go
Abandoned your touch
How you made me feel alive
That I shouldn't have destroyed us
How I burnt for you
I still do
Bright orange at the sight of you
That You were ice
The water,
The thing that could cool the fire in me
conceiving snow flakes on Sunday afternoons
letting some green grow on Thursday nights
I shouldn't have let go
I am calling
I am sorry
I shouldn't have let go

Runaway with me,
To a land of peace and pain-free,
From all the fuss and life's psychotic spree,
From a world where greetings dont bare emotions,
And niceness is but a mere strategy,

They teach you to see better in yourself,
But even your eyes need light for you to see,
What if you dont have that?
What if there is no light in you?
What if you lost it all and you're now a Silhouette?,
A mindless face that they'll soon forget,
And on your way down revisiting all your steps,
Seeing all that u had and lost,
Would you see anything?
When your eyes are busy crying,
And your mind is bitter over life,

Runaway with me,
It wont be better but it will never be like this.

A joke

Let me tell u a joke,
Starts wit a taste of a story,
But am i know you'll catch up as I talk,

Its about the life as we know,
How we improve our lives and leave holes on the land we poke,
How we could turn a green land into a piece of rock,
Call its a modern home build on tones of lies,
Forget that now and future share one line,
Drive the small societies into the horror of Dark times,

Its a joke I heard from a man,
Forsaking his ancestry in the name of fame,
Telling tales of glory encrypted to his name,

If I get to love you I would do it tirelessly
If I get to be that woman who wakes up beside you
If I get to hear your heart beats every night
If I get to feel the warmth of your body beside mine
If I get to be that girl you call before you close your eyes
If I get to be that special person you call yours infront of your friends
If I get to be all you ever wished to see in a woman


Whatever that makes you happy I will choose
I would do it forever and open heartedly
For I love that wonderful soul truly
Fantasies of tomorrow in my every day dream
I never loved another that deep even when you pushed me harder
You are all I want so bad.. And I would never get tired to impress
Sing every love song if that what it takes for you to fall asleep
Cook every recipes if a tasty table is what you desire


But yet nothing of all I do would ever melt your heart
It wasn't there.. Belonged to another
The other who never cared and yet you never let go
The other who never texted but you still called
The other I wished so bad to walk in her trail .
Locked in a haze…longing to love you..
…..
If I get to love you… ♥

When it comes to me I'll be ready,
I'll have a crib and a bassinet,
I'll have a picket fence and the teddies,
When it comes, it'll take a whole of me,

When it comes,
it'l be my chance,
To unravel my world and show it in the out,
Be that brave man I am inside,
Step on fear when my life's in the dark,
When it comes, it'll be a reason for every single thing I decide,

When you come,
You will never feel alone,
I know how hard it is to be stranded in the eye of a storm,
Most importantly,
I want you to know the truth,
About my ways and all my youth,
Its hard to live in a lie and learn to be good,
Whether its a son or daughter, Im waiting
I hope you come meet me soon.

  -Doc. Benn W.K