Why is it that you walk out everyday
And always he is beside you.
Even when your routine of walking away
has become familiar.
My eyes ache every time
Its a new new feeling..

Why is that you keep smiling again
Only to open my half-pinned eyes
You never let me close them wholly.

He laid on a rusted bed
old worn out blankets
his face pale and questioned
He yelled at me.
He laughed at me

"Feel the pain ****** me
the cancer banging my cells
the tumor trembling my lungs
the new paradise
of toxins and pain killers.
The radium exploding my skin.

I feel raging
powerful, the king yet fragile
I'm the warrior of all the valleys
Yet I lie in the corridors of this unknown place
Everything white...
Who are those people dressed in white
Is that a small sword in his hand
NO, he is piercing my skin
STOP!

I will **** all
I'm dying..
PLEASE don't **** me

And there he lies
crumbled to the sedatives
And I walk out with cancer in my thoughts..

Sprinkled water
beaten rays
loosed knots
shattered glass
blinking bulb
rows of ants
drops of red fluid
It was close to a crime scene

Girl....
first you stole my heart
And while I was enjoying  
my swim in your pool of love
Did you really have to go away?
For Twenty  days...  more than a fortnight
I was  lost diagonally
like stuck
up halfway of a Physics problem..

**Now I dont know when you'll be back
but
Now Girl
Can  I think about you ?
now that
I might need your consent too...

Being worthy for you
makes me only more worthless.

I'd rather write unknown poems
that no one would ever read
than shut myself to a living coffin.

That how may times
That how much more
I try to love you

It only makes me feel like
you are fading away
very beautifully as beautiful you are.
But faster
And like I'm in vain my love

Can you please love me for once
even if it's for you to hate me forever...
Can I please love you
so that I can hate you forever
rather to miss you forever..

Every time you turn back and realize how beautiful it was
It will make you only wilt
That how dull it is now
That how beauti-dull its going to be..

50 poems in Hello poetry.
I have completed the lesson one of knowing the borders of  poetry through my friends in Hello poetry. Thank you one and all for supporting and not supporting me.
Now I know there is a big ladder to climb and we all are at different blocks.
Once Thank you all.

Even when the whole world
stares at you
you do have a choice
whether
to Smile
or
to Frown back...

Some questions are never answered
like
Some answers never questioned

Some doubts are never cleared
like
Some statements never doubted

Some mistakes  never erased
like
Some relations are never mistaken.

All my life
I wanted you
All the day
thought about you
expecting you would love back..

Now I know
Say
I cant expect you to love back

Waiting for a phone call from you
is like jumping off from a spaceship
It just goes on gliding away
If only you would pick up
Then your voice becomes the gravity..
that would keep me still...

We do have nothing
to claim about...
**Even the shadow we call as our identity
is just an infinite pity of Sun...

I crossed my heart
That I would never talk to you.
I cleared all doubts
That I would never see you.
I suppressed my love,
For all the options read
None of the above.
But when you make your steps
To me,
My hands tremble,
My heart beats,
My head spins,
All my rage, all my depression
They vanish,
Only to feel you..
Because even my crossed heart
Sustains on you.