So painfully aware of being apart
from that which gives me my breath
helps to maintain the rhythmic beating
of my swollen heart--
So horribly bereft at having said goodbye
to one who has always kept me here
who has cradled me, held me tight
through every moment of my every sigh--
So hauntingly sure I will not survive
that life will have no meaning
with you not here to hold, to guard,
to keep me alive--
And so forlornly looking as you saunter away
your laugh, your jokes, your smiles and gentle heart
all that gave me reason to wake up
and live another god-forsaken day--
But so determined this time to carry on
to make it through without you here
to somehow hold myself together without you
and to just make it until the break of dawn...
©Amy Shae 2015
Sometimes it feels like it will never get better...
I hope it makes sense...