Suicidal
Homicidal
Alike but different
Each is permanent
**** someone in rage
Or **** yourself and leave behind a page
Your level of madness is measured,gauged
But why do I banter
Im as mad as a hatter
Nothing even matters
My life in tatters
A knife to me throat
Toss me in the moat
A bullet in the brain
Nothing to gain
Sometimes relief other times pain
The blood will be taint
Burn and Burn
Ashes in the urn
The worlds will turn
The stomachs will churn
For all you see is fake
And they will continue to take
An illusion
To launch you into confusion
A ruse
To light your fuse
Our lifespan
Throughout man
Short and bitter
So many of us quitters
The rest of us let out titters
While they gnaw on us, the critters
Bite and Bite
Fight for the light
To die in the moonlit night
To cause each other so much fright
Our 'Gods' tell us to **** each other
Our own brothers
Let the blackbird fly
High into the sky
To cause the gloom
To signal our doom
Our demise
Of the human enterprise

Kristallnacht
The night that was Fought
Jew against Aryan
Filled with sin
No-one had to win
But the **** party
Thought of a race oh so hearty
Emotions ran high
Soldiers were high on ****
Forced to their death
March, March soldier boy
Germany's little toy
So many of you young and coy
They created courage pills
To give you a thrill
So that you could ****
Just until
The dirt was cleansed
Grease guns
No more fun
British and Germans
Toms and Jerrys
A ration on sherry
Line up girls and boys
Off to the front you go
Some will lose the odd toe
In the Russian snow
Stalingrad
Little ones be glad
Most never to see their sons again
Germany full of sin
Allies for the win
Nuremberg trials for the ****
No more of their party
Sentenced to death
Most still high on ****
15 year old boys
Killed for spying
****** youth
Find the truth
14-18 sent to war
The bullets they tore
Too young to fight
But they had the might
Pride and honor
But the horror
For the warrior
It ended
So many dead
Slaughtered in their beds
We took their wives
And the husbands lives
We failed to see the problem
Was us the Human
So repent for our sins
Even though we took a win
Did anyone really win?
All guilty of some sin

An inexplicable art
Its me running you over in a cart
Its driving a stake through your heart
Its me tossing at your picture a dart
Merciless
Timeless
Beyond my memory vault
Lies something thats my fault.
I dont know what
But it leaves a deep cut
My life is in a rut
Now its a haze
That leaves me unfazed
As I smile discretely
At the memory
Locked Away Deeply

He ****** me off
I hated him to my core
I wanted to **** him and leave behind so much gore
His head for my mantle
His heart for my stew
His soul for my brew.
But I could not
I've fought
He was stronger
My will to live I had no longer
Many attempts
And damage hidden
No I'm not kiddin'
I tried to **** myself
No one noticed
How could they
For them I was just prey
As unnoticeable as grey
But soon I saw
What I had ceased to notice
People cared
To hang out with me people did dare
I had friends
Who didn't want my life to end.
I stopped cutting
And started to smile
I swallowed my bitter bile
My sadness left
Happiness came back
But soon came the counter-attack
Junior High was a *****
Although I never had to get a stitch
Pain and Injury came abound
And my friends left me all around
I wasn't cool
I was a tool
My happiness left
Sadness returned tenfold
Someone came and made my life well...
A LIVING HELL
Back came the failed attempts.
Poisoning, Strangulation, drowning, asphyxiation  
And it all swept across my small nation
I never did have a vacation
From my close friends suicidal and Madness
Least of all sadness
But came high school
New friends
An old end
A new beginning
It got better
I never would have thought
That after I stopped and fought my feelings
That people would come back
Friends who shared my interests
Pessimistic
Yeah I still am
But I no longer wanted to be run over by a tram
People cared
That's all that it took
As if it all were from a storybook

I'll walk down the halls
Hand in Hand
Ready to take a stand
Music of macabre origin then plays
"This dance if I may?"
I wear my best noose.
So obviously Obtuse
This ball
Is the ultimate call
For the crazy's
To have a death day party
Our lives never were so hearty.
Shoes made of razor blades
Bloodied nursemaids
Punch is spiked with cyanide
To evoke a lethal tide
Pop a pill maybe 4
That way there is less gore
Less to clean
Please don't be mean
Knives glitter darkly
Our faces grimaced tartly
Cut and slice
Stab and dice
Blood will fall
And run down the halls
For you see my dear
Do not fear
For in these halls
Lurks the suicidal ball.

Thanks for all that you say
Night and Day
Nothing more do I have to pay
This friendship is what I have
So thank you
And that poem too
I needed that pick me up
To get back up
Its a dark time
For me right now
Nothings safe
My problems they strafe
I try to hit them away
But they dodge
One big Hodge bodge
But you were there
And you did Care
And so did I
So I didn't want you to die
Heres a line about pie
So I do love you
In a platonicall way
You helped me
Because of you
I now enjoy life too
Best buds
Society's duds
Quirky, and weebs
We peeps
And life plays for keeps
So keep this friendship going
Keep our minds peaceful like its snowing
Buds
Duds
Friends
To the bitter end

Dank memes
And dark dreams
Welcome to my mind
Where thoughts viciously bide
And where I go to hide

Dear Dear
Please do not shed a tear
Please do not drown what you feel in beer
Please I feel enough fear
Please I just need you to hear
Everything I felt should be crystal clear
Please do not worry your head
Please do not fill with dread
I wish to suppress my emotions
I do not wish to add any negative connotations
Just acknowledge the denotations
Please for my sake
For everything else that they will take

The corpse will swing
The noose will hang and drift
Me crying oh so sadly
Me sad called maddeningly
Slip the noose over
Run me over in a rover
The knife in my chest
I was called a pest
I have failed the test
I will have eternal rest
Weep
Me you could not keep
My hill of problems too steep
Prepare the gun
For my last fun
2 bullets in the magazines
Why 2 why it seems
As if you want to give a thrill
As you and I.
I ****
The brains on the wall.
They flee into the hall.
I've given up on you all
No its not alright
I can no longer put up a fight
I want to see the light
I want to feel the fire
'Cause well
I'm doomed to hell
Until I hear the bell
To release me from my chains
Nothing more I wish to gain
My life I do not wish to re-obtain
The gun
The fun
The knife
To end my life
The cyanide
For when I can no longer confide
The noose
For my feelings I call obtuse
I'm dead
And way ahead.
I'm gonna burn in HELL
Never to see the light
Cause I didn't put up a fight.

Some people like to watch the world burn
Some people would love the table's to turn
I would like to take a gun
And have a little fun
Deleting every evil person
Killing them with one bullet
And going through with it
'Cause if they were dead
Shot right in the head
The world would be ten times better
Thanks to me
Going  on that killing spree
But then again
Thats a sin
But i'm an atheist
So its still a win
To rid the world of sin
You must embrace it
Taste it
Become it
'Cause mankind is a delicious peach
And evil is the pit
And Im going to cut it out
Before the casualties mount

The crow bitterly caws
The dead man scratches at his noose with a paw
Death and destruction
Humanity's obstruction
Bleed out
The little one's they pout
My life in shambles
Pieces
D
  R
     I
        P
The cold it nips
My grave is tight
I can't see the light
Fire and brimstone
Hell is where I'll atone
My sins are numerous
My life was humorous
Cut my wrists
My life it twists
My hope leaves
My soul is cleaved
Eternal torment
Torture
To certain people my pain is a horticulture
To grow and nurture
To grow to sadness
To develop into madness
I've been destroyed
I've been toyed
I ache for death
To breathe my last breath
I long for the reaper
To take my soul and be it's keeper
Heaven or hell
Ring it's bell
Bury me beneath an oak
So no longer can I be prodded and poked
Belle I don't wanna upset you
I'm fine I mean it
But my pain was  a pit
And you were like a rope
And you gave me hope
For once I had someone who knew
Someone I could call a friend
Who could prevent my end
This poem is for you
And everything you did too
Thanks Belle
You saved me from a life of hell
So for you
I give thanks
Because now I don't have to yank on a rope
Because now I have hope
Suicide and homicide
No longer options
Nor is cyanide
Just a life where you exist
Both of us a pair of pessimists
Thank you

He stands in my doorway black death/ Robed and hooded/ Glinting scythe cleaves my soul

Simply speaking,
Even dreaming
Seeing
Believing
There they die
Wave goodbye
Farewell innocence
Pay my penance

God save me
Please end me
My death is cold and bitter
I don't want to be called a quitter
The smell of my corpse like sulfur
To engulf her
In misery is not what I wish
Is not what I want to dish
I'm sorry
Or am I
I want to just hurry up and die
I hear your anguished cries
Everything we had dies
In that one moment
I accidentally cause you torment
I taste copper
My blood it drips and pours
It shakes my very core
I see everything fade
My life a sham A charade
The depressing funeral parade
I feel what I caused you
And I'm sorry
For everything
For the suffering
I beg your forgiveness
I want to end this
Then I wake up
It never even happened
I pour my coffee in my cup
Good your still in a good mood
Good
Maybe I can still make you happy
That would be nice
But I still have to roll the dice
To live life

Oh ****
Life is a pit
Catch the pieces of my life in your mitt
Your paw
Turns to a claw
Gore me
Or bore me
The choice is yours
The story in your hand
Take a stand
I don't care
If you stare
Cause I got the fighting spirit of a bear
**** me
Ill be back
Cause I have to this mortal world a tie
I'm just too angry to die
**** ****
This time I will
Just until

Paying the Price?
It's never for the nice.
So I'll roll the dice
Cut and Cut
The drops they drip
The pain barely a nip
I'm not suicidal
Nor homicidal
But I'm angry and sad
And full of madness
And of course Badness
Delight in my own pain
Not for gain
But to punish
Time for the finish

Fight long
Fight hard
Even when you are in the throng
Never give up
Pick yourself up
And continue to train
No matter how you main
Fists
And their might
The brain
And the intelligence you obtain
Fight to sustain
Those you love
Those you care about
And what you believe in

What is a love
A red colored dove
Depression
A black colored obsession
Anger
A red hot cliffhanger
Sad
Grey and the opposite of mad

L is for the way you look at me. Which fills me with joy!
O is for the only one I see. The prettiest in the room
V is very extraordinary. Something I use to describe you
E is everything you mean to me!

My heart pounds
Run out of nouns
Headache
accompanied by heartache
Dizzy
Told me to drink the water fizzy
Can hardly breathe
slipping away me
My lunch comes up
HUP HUP HUP
My body jerks
And herks
Then my heart slows to a dead mans pace
I spray the mace
To keep them at bay
I don't want to die
I can't feel my blood in my veins
Faint
The blood is taint
I black out
All around me they pout
Finally my heart siezes
My life ends in pieces

Blood drops pitter patter drop/ Pool underneath red/ Surely a sign you are dead

Just awesome
Outrageously amazing
Honestly cool
Never being able to be seen

Cant believe
Everything he does
Never mind the fails look at the wins
And his name is the first letter of each sentence

To ****?
That is quite the thrill.
To feed corpse to the grinding mill.
To hear the screams oh so shrill.
To swallow the cyanide pill
But just till...
IT DOESN'T MATTER
After all I'm as mad as a hatter

Wave farewell/Ring hell's bells/ Burn forever

I'll see you in hell sinner/ Not even a winner/ Burn in hell forever, Scream

My demons are friends
That will send me faster to my end
They are my foes
That make want to chop off my toes
'Cause even an idiot knows
That a madman's shriek
Is from the madness peak
So peer
My dear
At my exterior
Skinny, pimply, glasses
Now my feet drag as if through molasses
My interior?
Is where my poetry reigns superior
My demons come out to play
Night and day
A price to pay
My rage
That makes one want to turn the page
My fear
That makes one shed a tear
My fumbles
That ultimately humbles
So you see
The real me
The me thats sad
Lil more than mad
The me that seems to be
Something different

roses are red
Violets are blue
I can only count
To number two

Roses are red
Spiders blood is blue
Cut of a head
And burn it too

Once upon a time
In a world brought to life by Chaos' sign
Lived 7.53 billion of the same race
And the population kept a steady pace
But in a world brought to life by Chaos
That is precisely what it will be brought back to
The species warred among themselves
As the history books tell
And the war's were hell.
Some are over conflicting ideas about higher beings
And others about things that are appealing
Black and white
And they fight
Yellow or brown
The earth wears a frown
In a world created by Chaos
That is precisely what it will return to.

You've angered me
As you'll no doubt see
So far inside
Swallowing cyanide
My demons struggle
Against my cage.
For they cannot be contained even by a mage
I'll let them peak out for a second.
The ultimate weapon.
Attack with fury
Blood splatter
Does it even matter?
For I'm as mad as a hatter
But with incentive nonetheless
Try to beat me at my best
You insolent pest.
You've attacked the nest
You've failed the test
My mind corrodes
Memory lane now a road
Blurry and speeding by
Scarcely can say hi.
All I'll ever be
Is less than me
So you see
In the depths of my mind
A labyrinth a maze
My vision a haze
I'll let him out for a minute
Time enough to hit it
Time enough to end it

Roses are lame
Love if fake
Weddings are basically funerals with cake

Roses are red
Green is cash
Deku breaks his arm doing detroit smash

Roses are red
I wish I were dead
Nooses go around the neck below the head

Roses are dead
I am as well
I'll soon be going to hell

Roses can be black
Go on a counterattack
Step on a thousand tacks

The world is a *****
Its an unscratched itch
Cold and cruel
Friends arms warm and welcoming
Tempting
But I don´t want to be a bother
Softer yet softer
My voice grows dim
As I watch all of the sin
My voice is...
Blank...
Dark...
Filled with sorrow
But veiled with a fake smile
Although I feel quite vile
Thanks for trying to help
But like trying to build a house of kelp
Its impossible
At least I did what I could and helped you
That was the best I could do...

They say I'm weak
But I'm just not at my peak
I'm small and meak.
But just don't **** with me.
Cause deep inside.
In an interior as poisonous as cyanide
Lurks a demon black and red,
Waiting patiently for you to be dead

I'm losing every shred
And it fills me with dread
My sanity slipping
My blood dripping
Seeing things not visible
Hearing whats not there
I could never care
Not for myself
Others put me on the high shelf
Out of there way
Gone. To be seen another day
I cant take it anymore
Losing my sanity as if I'm in a terrible war

Just Jesus
Save me
I'm angry and sad
No-where near bad
My clothes a long forgotten fad
Depression? Just a tad
But sometimes I'm glad
Allies and friends
To my bitter end
Making me smile
The stuff they do it biguiles
Never before
Have I felt like waging a war
But these friends keep me away
From the evil of today
The only ones holding me back
From a self attack
But its always true
When I fell blue
That life is well...
Inexplicably HELL

You know from a young age
From gazing at the page
To dreaming of a powerful mage
To immeasurable strength that has no gauge
But then came the pain
That left no gain
The sadness
That resolved to madness
But all for what I say
All for me to pay

Roses are red
Memes are dank
Man reportedly drinks entire septic tank

Churn and burn
Ashes in the urn.
The stomachs will churn.
Read what I write,
And see how I fight.
My poetry is dark and gory
But tells a story
So read and listen
As the ink glistens.

Scream ******
You ******* mother trucker
My life is ****
Its up to my pits
My problems and concerns
When will I learn
My mind is fragile
So handle with care
As it seems to be filled with air
Its already so broken
So take this token
A certified loon
A watcher of toon
So don our robes
Grab our knife
To end this strife
Let it drip
Let it pool
I never was cool.
Always was a tool
So end me now
I dont care about the how
I hate this existence
Doomed to die
So might as well say goodbye
A noose made of a tie
Hangs from the rafters
I still have the look from the after
So **** me sir
Please for him and her
A bullet per
Blast my brains on the ****** walls
Staggering down the halls
Ain't this a ball
A suicidal ball.

Smile everyone!
Its time to have fun!
Life is great cant you see?
Look at me!
Im a child in a sweatshop working long hours for pennies at a time!
No look at me!
Im a child whos abrupt end comes like a grandfathers chime
Fighting wars in the congo
Time to say so longo!
No look at me everyone!
I swear I am not done!
My brain is ****** to hell
Empty lint and funeral bells
"Happy"
Now aint that sappy?
Shucks
This sure ******* *****

Im the more emotional of the two
In those emotions I like to stew
A fish stewing in sorrow of things I wish I knew
Some new feelings I would like to borrow
She is the twins
Two sides same coin, to me a win
We get along as well as friends do
Just as we would like to
I love her like fish loves water
Never before have any of my feelings burned hotter
Although separated thousands of mile apart
I still give her my heart
The relation is strain
And the distance is quite a pain
But what do I have to gain?
Her love is what I obtain
So I message and flirt
Even if our separation hurts
My time is curt
By schedules and errands
And yet I still try
Until the day I die
I'm a pisces filled with emotion
And I cause a lot of commotion.
And she is a gemini
Witty and as multi sided like a die
I love her
Like fish and water
She loves me
Like air loves the sky
So until I bid ado to this bleak world
I will always love you

Yield to the man in Washington
Who tells you how to raise your son

Yield to the man in vatican
Who makes you return again

Yield to the man in moscow
Who makes you tend the farm now

Yield to your overlords
Your seers
And your fears

Yield to the red crow
Whos devilish face its shows

Listen
To my heart felt story
My blood it glistens
This poem isn't gory don't worry
I just need a minute
So hear me loud and clear
And you put down that beer
And you don't try to sneer
So a problem arose
A question is posed
The stain that cant be hosed
I ****** up
Enough tears to fill a cup
Do you like my smile?
Yet you don´t know what goes on all the while
I sent those images
Without the percentages
To try to be funny?
No it was a cry for help
Im as brittle as dried kelp
And now its over

Did you know
In the winter when it snows
And when bloodstains vividly show
There is a red crow
Flying way down low

With him he carries presents
As if heaven sent
Twisted and macabre

Head of an ex
Blood of a brother
Shown like no other

In the deep dark
Where my mind is like shark
Watching
Waiting
How long can you stay?

Did you know
That I put on a show
No no not one with cams
Thats such a sham

No rather one with smiles
And all the while
You applaud my performance
I help you
Now go on shoo

But in the dark
Where I lost all and fell apart
I came across a devil in a black dress
And I made a deal
And with it a seal

Now to claim my own life
Penance for a crime by a innocent man

****
****
******* all
This looks like a mighty far fall
But thats okay for Im no porcelain doll
Ive grown thorns and a hard shell
Im more resilient than the demons in hell
But dont you worry
For I value a great victory
Ive fought and beat my inners demons
Defeated and disgraced em
Im a new me with a new face
Not born of bows and frilly lace
But born of steel and swords of iron
This is no time to pass on
Ive much to do and so little time
**** It seems Ive forgotten how to rhyme

A friend once told me "love is an enigma"
And I think they were right
And that definition I wont fight
But like all enigmas
Like all puzzles
You can crack them even in a muzzle
Live long enough
Look hard enough
And it makes sense
Even in a past present or future tense
Ive made sense of it all
Or so I think
Ive certainly on the way stumbled and had a fall
But like love glowing ever pink
Ive trudged on even in disgust
For what is life is not a puzzle
And if love is also an enigma
Could nothing be better to use to konfuzzle?

Red
Blood

Thats the two most connected
And unobstructed

I met a crow once
After a macabre magic show
He taught me things

Sorrow and fear
Life loss so near
And how the others sneer

I met a dove
And she taught me how to love

Showed me smiles
And with it happiness for miles

But the Crow ate the dove.
Chewed up entrails
And my face paled

Misery and torment
And utter abhorrent

I was given a knife
And by devil told to end my strife

Give into sin
Let me win

And I listened.
The red crow laughed

Eyes gleaming
Scheming

It laughed the blood of the red dove dripping still
A sign of a new ****

My ex was a *******
And that they were like no other
Born of viking blood
And I of mud
I professed true love

Hand in hand
Eye locking into eyes
But of course all those good things die

The first time was the hardest
I will not play the part of the modest
It was of my own accord
That the relationship broke off with a simple set of words

Time passed and then the second try
Never before hard have I cried
Words like acid
Sin dripping malice
A totalis

Snakes coiling my neck
A knife plunging into my peck
Betrayal of the highest order
Like cold blooded ******

My best friend and the love I had
Was all of dat

Now as I lay awake on a monday night
And sleep I try to fight
I think of a better girl I once knew

Better times and friends anew
Course thats all a simple fantasy

Thousands of miles separate us
Boundries of time and of dust

Maybe someday all could come to fruition

And my life could be the tuition

What is love
It's a red colored dove
Depression
Sadness obsession
Anger
A red hot cliffhanger