Learning
To
Breathe
Again
Slowly
Shallow
At
First
But
Progress
Little
By
Little
Step
By
Step

It doesn’t matter a toss
If people like you or not,
For there will be people who like you,
Maybe even love you,
And people who hate you
Through no fault of your own,
That is their path to follow.
So be who you want to be,
Do what you want to do,
Live and love with wild abandon,
Be free of the ties that bound you
And restricted you
And kept you playing small,
For you have need of them no more.
You are you,
A beautiful, compassionate, kind human being that has so much to give,
In spite of living a life of deprivation til now,
For what you give out, you receive,
And you deserve to shine,
Shine bright,
Faults and all,
For what defines you
Is the good you do unto others

Oh that cloak of shame,
Seductively swaddling us in its clutches,
Affecting every thought, every decision, every action,
Hiding our light,
From others,
From ourselves,
Weighing upon us,
Dragging us down,
Exhausting us,
So that even putting one foot in front of the other
Is a struggle,
A challenge to stay afloat,
When all you need to do
Is undo the knot at the throat
And throw off this stubborn, worthless dastard imposter
To reveal the glory
The wonder
The joy
That is you

All my parallel lives and universes
Crashing together
In one hell of a bang
The rug’s being pulled right under my feet
Sinking
Submerging
Do I
Sink or
Swim?

Dream big he said,
Focus on your deepest desires
That only you know,
Create your future,
Visualise your destiny,
Take responsibility for your life.
But I wasn’t quite ready,
I hadn’t yet learned
How to
Bring joy in my heart,
How to
Make my heart sing,
How to
Open up my heart
And let love flow.
I hadn’t yet given myself permission,
So I stayed in my shell
Playing small
In my uncomfortable
Comfort zone

It All Comes Down to Choice
Your choice
Your decision
Your right to choose
What and how you spend
Your life,
Base it on love
What feels right
What your gut says,
Not fear
Not your dementor
Not those negative naysayers
In your head
And all around you,
Choose
Love,
Not
Fear,
Every
Time,
All
Times,
Because
That
Is
What
Will
Set
You
Free

Before I knew no other way
Only shown how to stay small
How to be insignificant
Valueless
Worthless.
Now I know better
I choose a different way,
For now I know
I am valued
I am loved, and
I am worthy
of so much more

Struggling through life
With the weight of the world on his back
The snail keeps on moving forward
Slowly but surely
Leaving a contrail of slime behind
Yet with hope of greater things to come

In so many ways I’m flying
My life is picking up
And starting to flow.
But in other ways
I still feel
I keep ******* up,
I’m missing that vital ingredient
That will slot everything into place.
Perhaps something
In all the pain and torment I went through
Has been irreparably damaged
And can never be repaired
Leaving me bereft
And forever set apart.

Thank you
For caring
For daring
For being there
For your understanding
For your patience
For your support
For your strength
For your bravery
For your protection
For your guidance
For showing me the way
For being my friend
For being you.
I trust you
Implicitly,
I love you
Deeply,
I am indebited to you
For evermore
x

We create ourselves through our thoughts, words and deeds
We have choice in every given moment
Choice to look forward with hope or fear
Or to the past with its demons
Choice to choose the right path to enlightenment
Or the slippery ***** to hell,
Choose wisely
Love
Or
Fear
What choose you?

Everyone is a keeper of secrets,
Little white lies
Sometimes big whoppers,
Even telling your child
Santa IS real.
But the most damaging, destructive and toxic
Are those you hide from yourself
Because the pain is too much to bear

I was afraid
Of my passion
And my desires
And my fire

I’ve been suppressed
Playing small
Until now

Now I am a Phoenix
Rising from the ashes

Standing in my power

And my power is magnificent

If you want love,
Love yourself
If you want trust,
Trust yourself
If you want respect,
Respect yourself

Life is simple,
Two choices,
Fear or Love,
But the outcome is immense
Depending on which you desire,
A life of rejection,
Or a life of connection,
Fear or Love
What choose you?

The secret is in the direction of your gaze
Are you looking up or down?
Forwards or back?
That is the choice for you.
The more rewarding
But not always so easy
Is to keep looking up
Above the golden sun ☀️
In all its bright brazen glory
And focus on the positivity
The fun
And the
Joy

Give hope,
A word of encouragement here,
A sprinkling of joy there,
A possibility of light at the end of the tunnel,
A compliment and a smile,
And that’s how you’ll change the world,
One step at a time,
One person at a time.

I release all that is no longer serving me
All that has been holding me back
From being the free spirit I am
So I can fly
So I can soar
So I can be me
And do what I’m here on Earth to do

Love with no conditions attached
Love in all circumstances
Love despite flaws
Love anyway
Love

The tragedy is in repeating  
Those sins done unto you
Your parental sins
Your ancestral sins
Chained to your neck
Weighing you down
Blighting the lives of everything you touch.
But now
Your choice
Is whether to remain shackled
Bound to fear and repression
Or to break free
And step into
Your desires
Your potential
Your possibilities
Your love
Your divine glory

Here I am observing actors on stage
Playing out their roles
Their destinies
And knowing one actor
Is me,
Yet I’m the only one who hasn’t read the script
Or know where it leads
Playing blind
While all around
Others watch her every move
To see how she responds
To the twists and turns in the
play
Except at the same time there is no script
The future depends on the reaction
Of that actor in that moment
With all the responsibility and risk that carries

A slave to fear no more
We are God’s children,
And I accept I’m a daughter of God
A heir of god
Co-heir with Christ
Sharing in his sufferings and his glory,
I may face rejection or opposition
In this topsy turvy world of ours,
But with faith and God’s backing
I stand strong
In the face of all adversity