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Mar 2018 KuyaMak

ARI

No one seems to realize
Who I really am and all
The hurt inside me
Has been thoroughly hidden
Deeply within every poem
My exhausted hands have penned.
I’ve yet to be found.

-ARI

#hidden #lost #game #sad #hurt #life #world #truth #penned #write

Mar 2018 KuyaMak

Men

Mar 2018 KuyaMak

ARI

Men

I will be completely honest with you
Im currently drunk as I write this.

For tonight a man stirred the anxieties
That have been buried in my bones.

My mind cycled through every moment
I have ever felt fear caused by a man.

My body hurt in every exact spot
My skin has ever been bruised by a man.

My heart screamed in agony
From every lie a man has fed me.

Tonight I drank until all I could feel
Was round glass resting on my lips.

You see, tonight a man wanted me
But I was far too scared to kiss him.

Tonight I said no, for I was uncomfortable
And stood up for myself.

I am so proud of my progress in self worth
And yet I am still hiding behind *****.

-ARI

#alcohol #pain #hate #self #depression #drunk

Feb 2018 KuyaMak

Drunken Rambles

Feb 2018 KuyaMak

ARI

Drunken Rambles

I have alcohol in my veins
Telling me I’m not ok.

I have anxiety in my brain
Slowly driving me insane.

I’ve a heart that I’ve kept caged
Even though it can’t be tamed.

I keep looking for beautiful change
Knowing life’s an unfair game.

-ARI

#drunk #life #game #world #change #rhyme #brain #alcohol #girl #boy

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Dear Mom and Dad...

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

Dear Mom and Dad...

Dear Mom and Dad,
I’m sorry for being the daughter you don’t want me to be.
I’m sorry if sometimes I bring bad luck.
I’m sorry if I always bring disappointments to you.

Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you know that sometimes I feel lonely?
Did you know that all the time I feel weak?
Did you know that I’m always longing for your embrace?

Dear Mom and Dad,
I always get jealous to my younger brother,
It feels like you always care for him more than me;
It feels like he’s the only child you have.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I always feel depressed and anxious,
I always feel disappointed on myself.
I always feel like I am the blacksheep in this family.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I did all my best to make you all be proud of me,
I did all my best not to make mistakes,
I did all my best but they’re wasn’t enough.

Dear Mom and Dad,
I wish someday you’ll gonna ask me if I’m okay;
I wish someday you’ll come to me smiling and you’ll gonna hug me.
I wish someday you’ll not gonna make me feel like im the worst person.

Dear Mom and Dad,
Did you even know that I almost killed myself?
Did you even know that the every move you make and word you says are hurting me?
Did you even know that you all once killed me?

Dear Mom and Dad,
I want to get out from this pain.
I want you to get this pain out of me;
But how? If you all didn’t see me hurting.

#hurt #depressed #pain #mom #dad

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

More than just a song

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

More than just a song

He’s like a song in my ear,
He’s my favorite sound to hear.
His voice brings shivers to my spine,
He’s indeed the soundtrack of my life.

His laughter once killed my poor heart;
His eyes are like saying “I love you”.
His stares are my favorite one,
Our love story is the most best one.

His eyes… His nose… His lips;
They are my favorite sight to see.
Him alone;
Is the reason why im writing this song.

It may not have a melody to start with,
But by just looking at him;
Its like the notes in my head,
Have their on mind to make a melody.

This may not be a real song;
But instead a poetry.
A poetry to my man;
Whom my heart belongs to start with.

#love #couple

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

The girl who takes the pain with a smile

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

The girl who takes the pain with a smile

She never wants to be alone;
But she felt like she is,
Even if there’s so many people around her.
She’s obviously depressed—
She wants to take her own life,
Because she feels like;
She has no one beside her;
She felt so lonely.

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

My long lost puzzle piece

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

My long lost puzzle piece

When you came in to my life,
It feels like all my worries are all gone.
Its like I’ve never been lonely;
I’ve never been alone.

You’re the missing piece on my puzzled life;
It’s finally complete when you came.
You finally found me;
I finally found you, my missing piece.

I never had the idea that we’d end up like this.
I never had the thought that you’ll end up loving me.
I never had the thought that I’ll love you eternally.
Maybe this is what they called fate.

I tried avoiding you but I can’t;
I tried to restrain my own feelings for you.
But still cant— because I truly love you;
I now never imagine life without you, my love.

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

What's wrong in this world?

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

What's wrong in this world?

I don’t really know what’s going on in this world;
People tries to protect the one that they cherish,
But they end up taking their own lives.
Lives that God gave them.

I don’t know why they are doing such things,
Such things that can cause a human being to **** himself.
This world is indeed so cruel.
No, these people are cruel enough.

Cruel enough to **** people;
Not physically but instead emotionally.
They’re saying things, hurtful things to each other;
And end up killing themselves.

For what reason?
Why people try their best to destroy one another?
We’re all the same in the eyes of God,
But why those people keep doing the same thing?

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

When a knight became my King

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

When a knight became my King

You called me your princess—
And you called yourself my knight.
This is the first time when someone
Offers himself to be my knight;
I guess I should consider myself lucky,
Lucky to have this brave knight with me;
Comforting me just by his words—
In a silent cold night;
I suddenly felt the warmth of your love.
Lingering to my body;
Its like the cozy air is on your side.
I feel warmth, I feel loved.
I woke up with this sweet smile;
That the knight gave me.
Should I now turn him into my prince?
No, I’ll be a Queen in the mere time;
And I’ll make sure I’ll make that knight—
The King of my life.

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

The boy who became my remedy

Jan 2018 KuyaMak

Maicah Arbilon

The boy who became my remedy

I was afraid to fall inlove again;
But not until I found you.
You became the key to unlock this heart of mine—
You became my remedy.
The door finally opens to accept someone in my life;
And gladly it was you who enters.
Never leave my side—
For I waited for so long.
Now that you came,
I’ll never let you go.
You brought sunlight to my life—
The darkness faded and replaced by your light.
You brought me into Neverland.
Are you perhaps Peter Pan?
If yes, im willing to be your Wendy.
Because dear— You are my remedy.