I still look for you
at the grocery store.
I still search the cars
at gas stations.
I still hope that we will
bump into each other
at the movies
or in a restaurant.  

I hope,
and I wish,
and I imagine.
I play it over
and over,
again and
again.

But every time
I make it back to my car,
I realize you are still
so far away,
and I will just have to
visit you
in my dreams.

m.e.

baby
how did you fool my heart
into believing that you were the home
i had been searching for
when really
you were the one
who left me homeless

taking advantage
of her patience
is abuse

I'm afraid to kiss you
to lock our lips
and taste you.
I'm afraid that I will love you
and then you will leave
like most men do.
I'm afraid it won't be enough
to make you stay
and that desire you've always had
will finally go away.
I'm afraid of the damage
you will do to me
before I finally
let you go.

when i speak
to you
my words
become soft
and vulnerable
because
the last thing
i want to do
is leave you hurting

maybe
when you left
those scars
on my heart
i became
a beautiful poet.

the only hands
that are worth
holding this heart
are my own