Shea: Poems

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Shea Apr 2019

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While you spent your night
Having bar room brawls,
I was home alone thinking
What not to say
When you came home.

#jaded

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Shea Oct 2018

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I am simple, may be common.
Blue eyes, brown hair.
Like a blue jay in the air.
Though I am common, it does not mean
That I will not stretch my talons,
Or spread my wings,
And fly far away from here.

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Shea Dec 2018

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I still want to
**** myself,
This Christmas Eve.

Sorry.

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Shea Mar 11

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I was made for hopeless dedication, for love that feels like poetry. And it exists because I carry it with me. It's heavy and I can't put it down.

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Shea Feb 2019

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I could run away or stay
Living like a moth to a flame.
I always try to chase the light,
But the light has burned out.
And these days I'm stuck in old ways,
So where a light used to be
Is where I sit patiently
In the dark
Hoping for a flickering flame.

#moth #flame #old #ways #jaded #faded #run #away

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Shea Mar 2019

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No one is alive.

And when you wake up to a scream,
Forget it.
It's me, making you, after making me.

Choke on blood.

My opinion is invalid,
Declined like your debit card.

Your opinion is biased by
Having never been loved
Or listened to in youth.

You're not my problem,
Do not think I won't stab you
In the front too.

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Shea Jan 2021

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This feeling could be painted
Like the Renaissance

Breathing every breath
As i slowly slip inside the essence
That you give
And I finally know what love is

#poetry #2021 #poem #jaded

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Shea Dec 2018

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"Grew up in that war zone
Wonder where my friends go..."

I feel like running,
Running from what I did to you.
Though you come in drunk
It upsets me,
I still feel like I need to do what makes you happy,
Cause when you're upset,
You get real low.

I want to run,
But got nowhere to go.

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Shea Jul 2023

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Will God leave the light on for me
If I never believed?
Would he be so kind as to walk me
To where he ****** me?

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Shea Jan 2019

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"I'm thirsty anyway,
So bring on the rain."

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Shea Dec 2018

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I'm pouring out my heart
For what I cannot afford.
No, I spent tokens on a cheap
Pair of happiness
For about an hour,
30 minutes to kick in.
Yeah my tokens were stolen,
My hands,
Remain broken.
My tongue still tied
And my mind remains fried.

#untitled #jaded #faded #broken #bipolar

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Shea Apr 2019

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I've got cotton on my back
Sixteen years of looking back
Fingertips full of ******
And a fire
Full of sticks
Where I lay my head

I'm the son of a poor man
And born into my own prison
And sing the blues
Like cool hand luke
Hold onto my plastic Jesus

And I've got weight
On my shoulders.
Lord,
Where are you now?

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Shea Apr 2021

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This desire for connection
Is insatiable

When it comes around

Shea Jan 2019

When it comes around

I did myself today
Woke up and felt okay
I did myself today
Stood up and put on perfume
I did myself today
Walked out and felt okay
I did myself today
Broke down and made this..song

Lyrics to a song I recorded. If you want the full lyrics just comment below, not that anyone would.

#song #birthday #sad #miss #family #jaded #cynical

Whiskey River

Shea Nov 2018

Whiskey River

I'm searching but I can't find
A single life
That wants to deal with mine.

#ocd #mind #poetry #poesy #poem #anxiety

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Shea Nov 2018

X

Now I know you're okay,
Now I know you're fine
But I've lost a few friends before
And when I held your head I was afraid
To face the fact that one day
We'll split apart by age or death
And I was scared to lose my friend
I realized then that I still have you,
But it scares me when you do not reply to your name
It scares me to think that I could lose you any day

Today as I helped my friend as she was having a seizure, and I realized that this is real. I realized that even if I'm lucky enough to be her friend through adulthood, I could lose her at any point in my life.

#poetry

X #3

Shea Apr 2019

X #3

The biggest wings I've seen,
Lay comatose on your shoulders,
Held down by the weight.
The weight of your own body
Causing it's own fatality.

They yearn to stretch
And fly and play,
But you have to pay.
You've got nothing left to give,
And all we wish
Is for you to live.
Who knew half an inch
Could do this damage?
Emotional famine,
I cannot cry.
I haven't figured out why.
All I can do is try
To not let it get to me,
You see,
I love you with all my heart.
All I want is your wings to stretch
And fly
I still have yet to figure out why.
Why you?

#jaded #poem #poetry #freeverse #friend #love #wings #angel

X Number two

Shea Mar 2019

X Number two

Every time you faint
I feel a piece of me die
I love you with all my heart
And you're the only person
That I know for sure,
I love.
What did you ever do to deserve
All these diseases?
Nothing.
You've done nothing to go through this
And that's what I hate.
All you've ever done is heal
And bless other people.
So I'm sorry life never blessed you.

#jaded #love

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