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473 · Jul 2015
Ocean Blue Waves
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Please come closer
I wish to feel you near
I want to pull you beneath my ocean blue waves
470 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
Head phones in
Drama out
You don't need
All this doubt
Shut your eyes
It's okay to cry
461 · Jul 2015
Free
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I think I'm broken and I can't be fixed
I think I'm forever alone because no one wants this
My nightmares stare deep inside of me
They won't let me be free
459 · Jul 2015
My Love
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
It's crazy to say
But I love him so much
Thing is he's much older than me
He's just so flawless
He big beautiful blue eyes
That are sometimes green
His perfect smile
Oh so stunning
And his voice
His voice
Is oh so beautiful
It's safe to say I fall in love too easily. For I spent on day next to him and I was enchanted by his beauty. Does he feel this too? I will never know.
456 · Jul 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
The pain
Is too real this time
I wanna slit my wrist and die
448 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Oct 2015
Sitting in the dark
Make up running down my face
Crying so hard
My mind is a haze

Why do I do this
To myself
I think I'm crazy
I need some help

My hand is numb
And my body shakes
My wrist is ******
My wrist aches

I'm sorry
I know I promised
But I couldn't help it.....
430 · Sep 2015
How Much
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
How much self hate
does it take?
to take that razor
and slice open your skin

How much self hate
does it take
to be desperate
for the end

how much slef hate
does it take
to want to take
your last breath

how much
does it take
from your soul
every time
that blades brakes the surface
of your beautiful skin

How much
does it take
to walk around
acting fine
when really
your head is pounding
your hands are shaking
eyes are tired
from loss of sleep.

How much
does it take
to close your eyes
and finally sleep?
428 · Jul 2015
She's Me
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
she said she was fine
that she had stopped
stopped slitting her wrists at night
but she lied
she lied to get you off of her back
she's gotten better
at hiding the evidence
with long sleeves
and bracelets
she feels lost and unloved
she's alone
she's me
I really feel like cutting..... and I have no one to talk to
419 · Jul 2015
Already Dead
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I don't regret it
And I don't regret you
I understand
You're a guy
It's what you do
Find a broken girl
Make her trust you
Lie
Just to get what you want
Tell her you love her
Then tear her apart
You told her you loved her eyes
But now she cries
You said you loved her smile
But she hasn't in awhile
You told her you will always be there
But where are you now?

You got what you wanted
Took all that she had
Why did you have to leave her
So very sad
She's broken inside
Now she wants to die
But she's already dead
419 · Jul 2015
You
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
You
You're distant
You're gone
You don't talk to me
Anymore

I opened my heart
And let you in
You left me
Hanging by a thread
Like a loose tooth
In a child's mouth
404 · Nov 2015
Winner
Darlene Chavez Nov 2015
I knew of girl
three months ago
she was hurting
broken by society
she felt as though
she would never be enough
she closed her eyes
and died inside
and when she opened them
I arrived
Slowly putting back the pieces
of the girl she once knew
piece by piece
she became bigger
now I'm here
and I'm I winner
399 · Aug 2015
I Just Want to be Free
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
I am going through more than you know
And when you call me a ***
it hurts me
more then you think
It makes me want to give up
to give in
makes me want to let death win
maybe he should
just swallow me whole
because this life im living
Is just creating a whole
deep inside of me
I just want to be free

Your words are like a sword
cutting deep inside of me
ripping through my flesh
like a disease
what am I supposed to do
when you say these words to me?
I just want to be free
free from you
free from this world
and free from me.
I'm so close to giving up it's not even funny. It never was funny. I'm so close to carving this blade into my wrist and saying goodbye.
388 · Sep 2015
I imagine
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
There are times when I imagine
Slicing my wrists open
There are times when I imagine
Never waking up
There are times when I imagine
My body hanging from a rope
There are times when I imagine
My grave with no flowers
384 · Aug 2015
I Believe Her
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
She told me
It's all in my head

And now I believe her
382 · Jul 2015
Mirrors
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I'm not wearing black
I'm wearing mirrors that reflect my soul
377 · Jan 2018
I Dont Really Know
Darlene Chavez Jan 2018
I lost a friend yesterday to suicide.
He drove through a telephone poll.
This is for you Jake.

I've never felt so lost or so broken
I can't even think of words to write a poem
My heart goes out to all of his family and friends
Who knows if the pain ever ends
I wish he was here
Why did he have to disappear?
We love you Jake L.
375 · Jul 2015
Skin
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I'm so close to the edge dear
Because no one needs me here
The blade will miss my skin
And I'll feel better from within
372 · Oct 2015
Dear
Darlene Chavez Oct 2015
Don't worry Dear
I'm right here
You can cry
I'll dry your eye

I'll be here through thick and thin
and love you till my chest caves in
Even though you're not always near
I keep you in my heart dear
372 · Sep 2015
Was it a Joke
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
Was it still a joke?
When she slit her wrists and wanted to die
Was it still a joke?
When all she did was cry

Was it a joke
when she didn't even kiss her mom goodbye
362 · Oct 2015
All my life
Darlene Chavez Oct 2015
All my life I've been told
That in the end it will all get better
That if I keep living my life and only worry about me
I'll get better
All my life I've struggled
With depression
With anxiety
And even with people
My every day goal
Is to make it through the day
Without seriously injuring someone
Especially me
It's almost all I think about
So why tell me it'll get better with time
Because so far it's only getting worse
Yes, it does get slightly better
But it's hard to breathe with this anxiety
So why did you give it to me?
It's hard to live with this depression
So why do you insist I keep it?
Just because I'm strong enough for all this pain, doesn't mean I deserve it.
359 · Jul 2015
Let there be love
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
When will he come
And save me from this funk
Remove the misery
Let there be love
357 · Oct 2015
You'll Always Have Me
Darlene Chavez Oct 2015
If you're hitting rock bottom
There is something you need to know
I'll be here for you
Even when you're feeling low
Because baby
You don't have to fight this war alone

You have me
I just want to make you happy
As happy as can be
Baby you'll always have me
I love you
354 · Jul 2015
Imortal
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
My body refuses to die
So many time I've tried
The blood just refused to run dry
I've decided I'm imortal
At least to myself
351 · Nov 2015
Concrete
Darlene Chavez Nov 2015
I am like concrete
People walk on me
Stomp on me
And even rub their feet on me
But I still hold them up
Because
Even though I am hurting and upset
I don't want them to feel the way that I do
351 · Sep 2015
Your Love
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
She's a girl
yes
she cries
yes
she's wanted to die
but she's strong
and she's beautiful
and she's wanted
he wants her
to live to smile and most importantly
to want him back
and she does
she always will
even after she takes her last breath
she loves you
with everything she has
keep her
hold her
she was once broken
and she needs you to fix her
put her pieces
back together
and seal them there
with your love
347 · Jul 2015
Mystery Guy
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I looked into your brown eyes
And smiled
It was like a one night stand
But for my eyes
It may have only lasted for a short while
But I'll remember it always
346 · Aug 2015
Tired
Darlene Chavez Aug 2015
Why do you do this to me?
What do you get out of it?
Saying those hurtful things
I'm tired of it
325 · Nov 2015
Broken
Darlene Chavez Nov 2015
I really need someone to talk to, I am broken and I don't know what to do.
320 · Jul 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
You've forgotten about me
And it hurts so much
The pain in my chest
Is far too much
The emptiness inside
Is growing bigger
Maybe one day
It will become to big
It will explode and **** me
Then maybe I'll be happy
318 · Jul 2015
Talk
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I need someone to talk to. Anyone?
316 · Jul 2015
I need you here
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Lay me down
And hold me in your arms
Make me feel loved
If only for the night
At least be mine
Till the sun comes up
Because baby I need you here
312 · Jul 2015
I Want You
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
We live so far apart
But I feel as though you're here
I want you to hold me through the night
And chase away my fears
I want to be you're only dream
The only thing you'll ever need
I want you to be there
Whe n I'm sad
When I'm happy
And when I'm scared
But most importantly I want you
308 · Mar 2018
C.H
Darlene Chavez Mar 2018
C.H
You were the pain
A child is never supposed to feel
Wrecked that child's life like a hurricane
And expected them to heal
306 · Jul 2015
I Try
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I try
to be happy
to smile
to breathe
to laugh
to sing
to feel
to fix
and to believe
but its hard
when the only thing you know
Is betrayal

I try
to forget
to move on
to act like I'm fine
but it's hard
when you're dying inside

I try
so hard
To forget the pain I feel every day
But it's hard
when it constantly reminds you that it's there

I tried
but I can try no longer
because the pain and the misery have taken over
305 · Jul 2015
Can't
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
My hands shake and my mind becomes numb
How in the world could I be so dumb?
Anxiety has taken over my once simple life
I used to go to school happy
But now I get nervous when someone talks to me
I can't order at a restaurant
Or introduce myself
I can't smile at a stranger
Because I hate myself
I can't ask the teacher a question
For the fear of being wrong
I can't run in the hall
Because I'm afraid to fall
Then watch as every laughs at me
I can't wear short sleeves
Scared of what they think of me
Laugh at my scars that bury deep beneath my flesh
I can't laugh without feeling like an imposter
I simply just can't
297 · Jul 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
The pain is getting stronger
The days are getting longer
My body feels colder
She just wants someone to hold her

She's alone at night
Fighting a painful fight
Crying herself to sleep

She slits her wrist
As death whispers in her ear
Waking up in the morning
Will be her biggest fear
288 · Jul 2015
Heaven and Hell
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I feel so insane
I don't believe
So why try to make me
Don't ******* pray for me
If I'm going to hell
At least that's what you say
Heaven or hell
It doesn't matter anyway
288 · Jul 2015
What Would You do if I Died
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
What would you do if I died
You can't reach through the screen
to touch my pale face
because of course I'd say good bye
283 · Jul 2015
Spirits
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
There are spirits here
I can feel them
I can see them
and so can my dog
I guess I'm not alone after all
277 · Jul 2015
I Think I Can
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I think I'm done
Life is what I want
After years of pain and sorrow
And depression
This is what I want

Of course I'm not going to be happy everyday  
And of course there's going to be days where I'm down in the dirt
But that's okay
There are going to be days where all I feel is hurt
I just got to work through it
Because I'm stronger than it
I can do it
At least I think I can
277 · Jul 2015
Lost
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I just lost one of my online friends..  I'm not sure how to handle it
273 · Sep 2015
Why
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
Why
Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and said
"Why am I still alive?"
273 · Jul 2015
Can You Hear Me?
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Can you hear me?
Can you hear my silent screams?
Can you hear my hollow weeps?
Can you hear me?
Scratching on the walls
Can you hear my endless calls?
Darlene Chavez Sep 2015
The worst part about being adopted by someone who already have kids is the fact that you know they will always put their kids first. And it hurts because you know you're the least important. You could die and they wouldn't even care. So long as they're blood child doesn't die. I hate it. Its so hard sometimes
265 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Darlene Chavez Oct 2015
Hold me tonight
Build me a home
Make everything okay
Cause I can't I do this any longer
262 · Jul 2015
Conversation With a Friend
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Can you see me? I need a friend to talk to.. And no one is here but you. Can you see me?

"No.. No I can't..."

so you can hear me?

"Okay.. Yes I see you.. And I hear you."

Will you be my friend? Can we talk?

"Sure, why not?"

Do you know where my mum is? I have seen her in a long time?*

I look down at my shoes

"No, I'm sorry.. What's your name?"

When I look up she was gone. She vanished.
254 · Jul 2015
Goodbye
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Death is near
I hear it whispering in my ear
It's breath is cold
But very bold
It's almost here
My time is near
I'm sorry
Goodbye
253 · Jul 2015
Love (10w)
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I could never fall in love
With someone like you
239 · Jul 2015
Why
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
Why
I don't belong here
No one needs me
I'm just a waste of space
Why was a put here
Why do people hate me
230 · Jul 2015
You Don't Care
Darlene Chavez Jul 2015
I cry
You don't care
I could die
And you still wouldn't be there
Alone death sadness cry
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