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Dec 2019 · 192
DONE IT AGAIN DAY 1 AGAINNN
Laiba Dec 2019
I done it again
Induced my pain
Onto me.
I hate me
I wish I could see
The day it all ends
Dec 2019 · 239
My best friend RIP
Laiba Dec 2019
The person that saw my worth
Liked me for me.
Passed away without me
Telling him
I saw him the way he saw me
My best friend sadly passed away. And he had a crush on me I  was there for him throughout his worst days. He had Depresion. He died from an astmah atack
Dec 2019 · 408
Joke
Laiba Dec 2019
I am a joke
To people
Feelings for me I find
Dec 2019 · 250
I
Laiba Dec 2019
I
I






















Hate life
I really desire a knife
Dec 2019 · 116
Waited
Laiba Dec 2019
I waited
4 years
4 ******* years
To get better
But now that the opportunity has arisen
People in my life are Against it
Dec 2019 · 237
Life
Laiba Dec 2019
Life is a small word

But we take its meaning way too far
Sad truth
Dec 2019 · 229
Untitled
Laiba Dec 2019
When am I going to be me
In a world full of somebody else's
Dec 2019 · 417
Untitled
Laiba Dec 2019
Help me God
I feel so alone
I am just a kid
I can't take it on my own
Sadness filled my heart  I am sourneded by people but cannot see people
Dec 2019 · 273
Humble request
Laiba Dec 2019
Please to all the users of hellopoetry.
Please pray if you beleive in god
I die.
Please.
The only thing I want
Is that.
Please.
Please for me. I don't want anything else
Dec 2019 · 209
Untitled
Laiba Dec 2019
I can't
I really cant.
I can't
Dec 2019 · 346
HEY
Laiba Dec 2019
HEY
Hey.
It's laiba.
The girl
Who is so broken
No glue
No tape
Can fix
Her
Sadness is hurting me worst days
Nov 2019 · 248
Words hurt too
Laiba Nov 2019
IS
IT
OKAY
TO
HURT
ME
WITH
YOUR
WORDS
Idk what to say or do
Nov 2019 · 245
PLEASE
Laiba Nov 2019
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE


SOMONE **** ME
I EVEN USED MY MANNARS
What I really want
Nov 2019 · 179
Stopped crying
Laiba Nov 2019
I stopped crying
Because people saw your name in my tears
UGH
Nov 2019 · 667
Why did i bother?
Laiba Nov 2019
When he said to me
Do u love me
I said Yeh more then anything
When i asked him
Do you love me
He laughed and said
No you sket
Dad why did u say
Why did i bother
Nov 2019 · 527
Being laiba
Laiba Nov 2019
The saddest part of being laiba
Is that even  if the world told me
It's not my fault
I would sit there
And say it is it is it is it is it is it is it is it isit is it is it is it is it is it is it is it is it is
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MY FAULT
Life is ****
Being a **** survivor is even *******
And being laiba Is the shittest
Nov 2019 · 149
I am not sorry
Laiba Nov 2019
I am not sorry
For being
Me
Deal with it
Or leave me
Can't give a crap no more
Nov 2019 · 1.0k
Monster
Laiba Nov 2019
To the monster under my bed
I know your not real
So leave me alone
And let me sleep
Just one minute in peace
Monster is my dad he haunts me every night
Nov 2019 · 526
Trigger
Laiba Nov 2019
One cut
Two cuts
Three cuts


Day 1 cleen  
Day 2 clean

Relapse trigger by words
Just once more time


Day 1 clean
Soul has gone
No soul to cut
Day 2 clean
Day 3 clean
Death has erupted to the wrong vain


But
Isn't
That
What
I wanted
To end
This war
In my head
Nov 2019 · 526
Love
Laiba Nov 2019
Why is it that the people
We love the most
Hurt us the most
Dad
This aimed at you
Sorry i had to do this thoughts of the might
Nov 2019 · 193
I forgive you, you love me
Laiba Nov 2019
You hurt me
You slapped me
But It doesnt matter because you love me
You bought me flowers
You hurt me again today
You punched me
But It doesnt matter
You love me
You bought me flowers
You stabbed me
It doesnt matter because you love me
You bought me flowers
To my grave
Sad realty really domestic abuse
Nov 2019 · 438
PIN DROP
Laiba Nov 2019
DRIP DROP
DRIP DROP
THE PINDROP SILENCE
OVERTUREND BY MY TEARS
Broken
Alone
Tears
Crying
Anger
****** abuse truama and its everlasting affects
Nov 2019 · 183
Compliments
Laiba Nov 2019
I can't take compliments
But when its negative
I grab hold onto it
And keep it with me forever
Nov 2019 · 205
A sad of a day
Laiba Nov 2019
I
Am tired
Of crying
Myself to sleep
It hurts.
Crying myself to sleep again
Nov 2019 · 111
Live or to die
Laiba Nov 2019
It's a war in my head
One says to live
One says to die
Which one  should i choose?
Nov 2019 · 410
Mummy
Laiba Nov 2019
Mummy
If Only you knew
The pain he inflicts on you
Hurts me
If Only you knew
How much I love you
He ***** her I saw
I hate her she thinks
He is dad.
Nov 2019 · 1.0k
Want
Laiba Nov 2019
What I really want
What I really really want
Is to die
I HATE LIFE
Nov 2019 · 102
Pain
Laiba Nov 2019
"All this pain is temporary
It's not permanent
We haven't lived life yet
To know any different"
I look at her and say
What do you know
What I go through
Every
Single
******* day
Nov 2019 · 185
Lovers court
Laiba Nov 2019
If there was a court for lovers
You would get death sentence
For breaking my heart
Nov 2019 · 170
Rejection
Laiba Nov 2019
Even the darkness has rejected me
I am a punishment to myself
I need
You
I really do
I feel worthless
Nov 2019 · 239
Happy Birth day
Laiba Nov 2019
Happy birth
Day
To me
Is today soppused to be a happy Day?
Celebrate the day you was born
What if I didn't want to be born
Only if i wasn't born
My dad wouldnt **** me
Worst day of my life
Nov 2019 · 127
Who am I?
Laiba Nov 2019
I was never daddies little angel
Does that mean I am daddies little ****
After all that's all he ever called
Me while abusing me
Nov 2019 · 121
It hurts
Laiba Nov 2019
How are you feeling?
What is going on in your mind
Is that your dream that is hurting you inside?
You wake up yelling in your room
You look around wonder who it is
You realise its you
Nov 2019 · 1.2k
Daddy
Laiba Nov 2019
Daddy
If
Only
You knew
I wait
Even
Today for
You to
Tell me you love me
Nov 2019 · 675
Believe in yourself
Laiba Nov 2019
You are somebody's reason
To smile today
Nov 2019 · 180
???
Laiba Nov 2019
???
Feeling low
Is not a joke anymore
Or temporary
When all you can do is
Pray your life ENDS
Sadness
Nov 2019 · 136
SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME
Laiba Nov 2019
I AM NOT OKAY.
I AM BROKEN.
I AM DYING INSIDE.
I CAN NOT FAKE MY SMILE ANYMORE.
ALL THE DREAMS I SAW HAS BROKEN.
THE TEARS ARE JUST FLOWING AND FLOWING.
WHY OH WHY IS CRYING IN MY DESTINY.
LOWWWWWWW DAYSSSSSS
Nov 2019 · 175
AGAIN
Laiba Nov 2019
00:41
I can hear the footsteps again
The whisper of my name
And 41 minutes of grounding myself
Its back again
AGAIN
The footsteps and the voice of my name is here to torment me again 00:42am
Nov 2019 · 120
when
Laiba Nov 2019
When I love you i mean it
When i trust you i mean it
Saddest truth is
I don't love
Nor trust anyone
And  i mean it
Nov 2019 · 129
has anyone told you?
Laiba Nov 2019
Has anyone told you the pain we all feel?
when we sit in the darkness of our rooms
and we burst out the rivers that are compressed by the masks we hold
Has anyone told you that we are not attention seekers?
when we inflict the straight lines on our innocent skin and we cover because it's our secret
Has anyone told you that words are the most powerful thing alive?
so when you throw your words like a ball in the air
and we cry in your face
its because it hurts, it kills
it breaks us.

Has anyone told you that feeling low is not a joke?
so when you tell us to move on its been years, weeks, days even minutes we cant push the sadness hiding the monster sleeping in our black hearts away.
the monster isn't letting go of us.
Has anyone told you that we are one step to shooting the pain away as each day goes by
Our heart cries and our sadness laughs
we are on the step to ending the brutal suffering
after all how much can one take?

Has anyone told you that anyone with mental health no matter how bad is one community?
we are in this journey together.
so if you judge them, you judge us.
i try to emphasise as much as i can at 14
Nov 2019 · 130
You don't know
Laiba Nov 2019
I CAN'T SLEEP
I HEAR FOOTSTEPS WHEN THERE IS NOBODY THERE
YOU DONT WANT TO KNOW
WHAT I SEE
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
I AM NOT SUPRISED SHE KILLED HERSELF
HOW MUCH MORE CAN I TAKE
Low days
Nov 2019 · 123
TRUTH AND LIES
Laiba Nov 2019
A mask covers my true emotions.
Why should I tell you how I actully feel?
Because every time I do
You look at me like I have committed a crime
By
Saying I am not fine
My life
Oct 2019 · 237
Depresion in a few words
Laiba Oct 2019
My heart cried
And my sadness laughed.
Oct 2019 · 301
WHY OH WHY
Laiba Oct 2019
WHY CANT I BE JUST NORMAL FOR ONE DAY
SMILE WITHOUT NO TEAR
LAUGH BECAUSE I MEAN IT
AND LOVE MYSELF FOR ME
WHY DO I NEED TO BE
SO
ABNORMAL
FOR
SOMOENE
TELL ME
LOWEST DAYS
Oct 2019 · 134
Today
Laiba Oct 2019
Is today going to be a happy day?
7:44 am
Oct 2019 · 1.0k
I am scared.
Laiba Oct 2019
I am scared
Terrfied
In fear
That
If i close my eyes
The **** scenes
Will play again
I have no energy left
HELP me I feel so alone I am just a kid I can't take it on my own
Oct 2019 · 209
i close my eyes
Laiba Oct 2019
When
Will
My
Nightmares
Give me a break
Becuase
Its destroying
My head
Thoughts this morning 7:48am
Oct 2019 · 980
Letting go
Laiba Oct 2019
"Let go now"
"Why you letting the monster win"
"How long does it take to move on"
To the people who say that to me
The monster you want me to let go off
Isnt  letting go of me
I don't know
Oct 2019 · 161
Thoughts
Laiba Oct 2019
I plead with you
My dearest head
Detach the voices
You send
Thoughts this morning
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