It was not sadness
That caused the tears to fall,
But the transcendent fear
That belittled the crushing
Weight of the world.

The gentle rocking of the boat
Was the only thing that reminded
Me that I hadn't died,
That I hadn't plunged beneath the
Very waves that swayed me softly,
It still burns vibrantly in my head,
The fire,
The agonising cries of metal
And people intertwined
Until their heads were under the surface,
There was nothing I could to help,
I let them drown,
Let them fall to the dark depths
Far beyond the reach of the moons rays
Trying to grab them and haul them back
To life.
I am left alone,
Nestled in the neon orange lifeboat,
The only one who was able to board it
Before the cable broke and I was falling.
I wish I could have fallen forever,
Rather than floating away into the night,
Never to be heard,
Never to be seen,
Never to be saved.

Your back is numb and cold
From hours of lying on the wet grass
In the dark,
The sky is clear,
Just like your mind
As your glazed eyes trace the
Constellations that swim
In the eccentric vastness of the night sky,
An aching feeling captures your heart
As you realise that all of the wishes you made
Were lost in the universe,
Slowly disintegrating and burning,
The stars were not meant to be dream catchers,
You feel lied to that this horrible cliché has
Become existential by a hopeless romantic
Or a child who yearned for hope
Somewhere in the farthest reaches of the Earth.
Like many you still wait with your
Grass stained and dew soaked back
Firmly planted to the ground,
Not caring that the force of gravity
Is rolling beneath you,
Anchoring you so you're not able
To follow each and every thought
That escapes your mind into
Oblivion,
You just hope that there is a miracle,
Some explicit and fiery moment of realisation
That will shift you from anguish and into
Happiness