I have so much love to give

Like the sun gives to us

A light so bright, we can't even see the other side.

But pieces of my heart
Have burned
And flown away
From ash to dust.

There's a light
that still shines through
In my hopes of belief
That there could be a me and you

I empty myself out
And let the universe fill me
With her maternal love

Each breath of oxygen
Mother Earth fills our lungs.

So we must thank her
And never forget
Her love is what keeps us
What bounds us
What keeps our hearts beating
As one.

Time has passed now,
I hope you are a part of the waves crashing down
At peace
Hope you are a butterfly flying around somewhere
Forever wandering
Hoping you are the color of deep red since you loved it so much
Filled with passion
I hope you can hear me
And i hope you have let go.
You deserve to be at peace.
Finally.
I hope you are drinking wine and eating tacos with Marilyn Monroe while dancing to your favorite songs
For eternity

I never realized how much you did for me, the little things.
Im a mess now.
I just wish i could talk to you
The only one who knew what to say
When all came crashing down

I miss arguing with you about little things
And laughing til we cant breathe
You seemed to be the only one who really knew me.
I would do anything to have you back, but i cant keep reflecting on the past.
I have to let go too, but i cant let go of you.
You were my life. All that i knew.
Gone far too soon.
God i wish i woulda knewn.
I would never turn down an outfit you picked out for me,
Just because i love you.
I would never turn down an opportunity to come see you,
Which i know i did towards the end.
Too involved in social dynamics and friends.

I regret it all momma.
What i would do, if i knew, that i would never see you again.
I would have never missed your birthday.

It cuts me to the core.

Just know, i love you so.
I hope you are singing a song.
With not a worry.

Dont stress about me,
Ill be okay, eventually.
I love you infinitely and appreciate all you do for me.

Still sending signs to me.
I love you so.
Like rose said to jack, ill never let go.

I cant wait for us to meet again.
You always called me your angel baby
But you are my angel now.
I can feel you watching over me. <3
I love you my butterfly.
~ To the ends of the universe, til’ the end of time.~

Youronlydaughter -- ~

The slight flicker in my chest

Empowers me with enchantment

Tells me there is hope
Grants me with drive
To find my purpose

To do more,
than simply stay alive.

This feeling,
It tells me
There is something divine
Within my etheric being

I will chase this flicker
Until it’s light takes over me.

I just know,
It’s
Waiting,
For
Me.

I expected you to bring me flowers

but all I got was a two page text

explaining how you and me can't be.

A week later and there's
no new messages
and dead crickets
where I once thought
the roses might be.

Now I have
Insecure thoughts,
wondering who you spend your time with
and restless nights.

welcome to
my new life.

A man who’s not ready to commit
Will always find a way
To make you feel not good enough

With an empty
Aching heart

That just wants to be loved
Held
And understood
From the start.

My intent is so pure.

But with each piece of love i give away
I don’t think
It gets returned
Back to my heart.

How do i feel so hollow
My chest like a drum

Yet filled with passion
And sadness
To my very core.

I’m a balloon filled with water
I’m a volcano ready to burst

I have let the poison of my own thoughts travel to my heart.
They build until i explode
I will burst, and fall apart
But once the mess is over

My tears fall like a river
they will cleanse the scars within
And now I can smile into the fire that you once burned me with
And walk away with just a scar

And Now, i am free
Free to restart again.
Free to be
My own friend. - k.c. 10/27/19

Dear Nicotine

Why do I feel like I need you

Like the air that I breathe.

You feel as good as oxygen

Yet

You are slowly killing me