I always feel like I have to decide
as in right now
like I would need to have an answer ready any minute.

But decisions take time
you don´t just decide
you create pro and con lists in your head
or in reality

you think of every possible outcome
of everything that could go right  
and everything that could go so wrong.

And it is possible that deep down you already know the answer
actually it is most likely you do
so why not stick with that decision.

Maybe because you thought about it for too long
maybe you didn´t thought about it enough
or maybe you just dont trust your own decision

so it is now or never
it is always or gone
it is clever or foolish

Is it, tho ?
Decide.

I just wanna feel something
something other than now
something other than this
something other than me

I am so full of me
me and my mood swings
me and my anxiety
me and my stupid mind

I wanna get out of here
here, where the flowers don´t bloom
here, where the sun doesn´t shine
here, where the wind doesn´t blow

I want to feel
to feel the clouds cry
to feel the wind howl
to feel the sun burn