And I think I love you
But I don't ever think I can
Ever learn how to love just right
So run away from me
Run as far as your Dark brown eyes can see
Just as soon as you know
-Matt Maeson-

And I think I love you
Which is what scares me
because you are good
and I am me
I am bad at love
and I will always be

But I don´t ever think I can
tell you that I do
because I won´t believe
believe you do it to
since nobody ever will
at least I think this way

Ever learn how to love just right
because I love too much
and then to little
I push you away
to let you back in
it is how I am

So run away from me
or I will do
and then I stop
because I love you
and I hate you
with every inch of my body

Run as fast as your Dark brown eyes can see
those beautiful eyes
which I fell for
once and then twice
the way the shine
it drives me crazy

Just as soon as you know
how difficult it will be
how I cry in the night
and the things I don´t like
how I laugh when I´m scared
and cry once I´m mad

This song puts it in words
the things  I can´t say
The constant fear I hold
The fear of you and me
The fear what may be

It feels like I´m suffocating
being oppressed by my mind
so I will hideaway
till it gets better

And if I tell myself long enough
maybe I will believe it
and I will drown these demons
but I´ll drown with them

Please let me breathe
I wanna feel
but I am too afraid
of what will be

I know you, you´re like this
I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish to make you happy

Because you make me happy
and I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish you didn´t

So I will try my very best
and I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish we were happy

This will be the first poem
the first one I´ll write about myself

or at least I will try.

I feel like I am a stranger stuck in this world
like I don´t know nothing
just a stranger to this world
a stranger to myself.

I´ve been thinking
is it my fault
everything
I mean it could be

Isn´t it weird, I had no problem writing about you
It was like the words just flew out

but writing about myself
hours past and I didn´t come any further

Who am I ?

I miss you
every second, every minute...
every hour of the day I am not with you

looking back at our pictures, it hurts
like ropes tearing me apart.

Seeing you slowly fading away...from me
from my life, from us

I want to hold you
want to press your body onto mine
I wanna feel your kiss
I want to be one with you

All I can do is think about you

And how you look at her now,
the way you used to look at me.

How you´re holding her,
the way you hold me that day.

And I can not stop thinking about you kissing her,
like we did.

And I miss you
Oh god I miss you so much
and I hate you.

But mostly I hate that I can´t hate you
not even a little bit.

I loved him so much
And he loved me
But sometimes love isn't enough

When the fire distinguishes
And your left behind with ashes
Sometimes letting go hurts less

But we let go
And it hurts
It hurts more than before

And everything around me
It makes me think of him
And it feels like I forgot
Forgot how much we meant

And I can it feel it in my chest
My heart longing for him
But we both know
It was right to end it

But that doesn't make it easier
Because this feeling it won't go
And it hurts
A real physical pain

It feels like my heart is being torn apart
Like I could have a heart attack any second
But the worst thing about it is
I wouldn't even mind if my heart stopped