You're hurting me more than you'll ever realize
You're causing me more pain than you'll ever imagine
but like the candle to the flame
the flame gives the candle life
and yet slowly brings upon it's death
You deteriorate me
Break me down to dust
And yet like the pheonix
I am reborn

Lost in my writing you peered
Left me my devices but neared
She wanted to know
How I love her so
But she doesn’t know what I’ve cleared

She wanted a poem to her
And out this one came in a blur
And yet she won’t know
How I love her so
For previous ones I am sure

I hope she can see what I see
How she’s so important to me
Just please let her know
That I love her so
And how my heart belongs to just she

We all feel
Whether it be to others or yourself
Feeling encompasses all
Swaying decisions
Changing us
Hurting us
Saving us
The more we feel the more we learn about ourselves
The more we understand about others
We all feel
Don't hide it from those who should see

What is love?
A chemical?
A feeling?
The rush of knowing who is there for you?

no.

There is no comprehensible way to describe love

There is no single feeling to show love

There is no definite's in the world of love

but.

When you know love?

Don't let go

Doesn’t matter what it is
Who it’s for
Or when it comes

Just don’t push it out

You came to me like a stranger in the night
Alone left with my thoughts and emotions
You arose from the dark
Pulling me into your snare

I had gone so long without you
But your embrace of death constricted
Reminding me of the time
Keeping me in your clutches

I had struck you down
I had pushed you away forever
We still haven’t yet met again
A shadow of a past eternity

.
A period
The end
I don’t want it to come
Yet I know it looms over

I don’t know who I mean to be
But I want to move past who I am now

;
A pause
But knowing you’ll continue on
Simply a break from reality

I know we aren’t as close
As we used to be
I know we fell apart
Into the sea

I know I should have been better
And done more for you
I know I feel it’s all my fault
But you think the same for you

We push through this abyss
Running from the pain
Hiding from our monsters
Not seeing our true potential

We are our own main hinderance
We hold ourselves back with fear
We keep ourselves innocent
This dark world that we hold far too dear

But through all the pain
Through all the hardship
We pushed through
And made it history

I can’t stop my thoughts
From penetrating into my brain
I can’t shake this feeling
That I’ll be lost without you forever

You say I’m ignorant
Or I’m overreacting
But I just can’t
Get out of my head

I’m trapped
With you
In my mind
And I need my way out

I saw you as an angel
But now Lucifer is with you
You fell from your Grace
And I got rid of you

But just like an infection
Pulling at the walls
You tore my foundations
And killed me with thoughts

I’m trapped
With you
In my mind
And I need my way out

I was holding on
Until I realized
Your toxic lies

I was reaching out
Grabbing for your heartstrings
But they had already gone

Gone in the breeze

Why am I the way I am
Why don’t I like my choices
Why am I so regretful in life
It’s simply my nature

It’s just the way I am
It’s just the choices I make
It’s the regrets I face
It’s simply my nature

If that’s just how you are
If those are your choices
If that’s the reason for my regrets
It’s simply your nature

If I still can’t let go
If I overthink everything I do
And keep looking at the past
I can’t stand my nature

Music is the root of all
Inspiring good and evil
To show people the light
And the dark
Pain
Happiness
The drummer boy
Pushing the dreams of the troops
The beginning
The end
Music
Silence
Nothings

When Icarus fell from grace
The waves did not catch him
When you cast a glare upon my face
My hope began to grow dim

You crushed me
You destroyed my inner self
You killed me
You’re bad for my health

I thought I could love you
I was wrong
For once in my life
I thought I was in control
So just leave me with my empty soul

I grew up to trust you
You made me who I am
I thought I could be made new
But you were the slaughter and I was the lamb

But I’m coming back
I’m defeating who you tried to make me
I’m stronger than I was before
Back when you used to berate me

And now that life is different
And I’ve moved past
After everything you did
why do these feelings still stay

This used to be about you

I wiped it all away

Like the rain from a windshield

Your poem, my dismay

And yet with it still gone

And all the memory cleared

You will haunt this poem now

Exactly as I feared

Those who are lost can be found
Those who seem found may be lost
Those who may help the lost be found, may be both

Some will make others feel lost
Just to try and find themselves
Even if they can’t

Be the light
Show those who may be lost
Help them find the way to where they can be found

I don't have a great memory

That's how I forgot all the pain you caused

That's how I forgot the using

That's how I forgot the sleepless nights you caused

That's how I keep forgetting why I still love you...