All that's left in her cold veins
Is what hasn't been excised
She stares off into the crowd
Wondering what it's like
To have a soul.

EDNOS is:
 confusion.

-starving for days,
 then bingeing every day for a week.

-puking until you see blood, 
because you failed yet again.

-starving again, 
because you’re too fat to function.

-puking some more,
 because you’re not strong enough.
EDNOS is: 
manic.

-running for hours,
 because running makes you thin.

-exercising in the early morning,
because every minute counts.

-constantly fidgeting, 
because moving burns calories.

-counting calories like a pro,
 because everything has to be exact.

-organizing everything,
 because it calms you down.
EDNOS is:
 horrible.

-pulling your head out of the toilet,
with tears running down your face and puke all over.

-fake smiling at everyone,
 because no one would believe you if you were honest.

-your mind spinning 100miles/hour,
 because demons control your thoughts.

-comparing yourself to everyone you see,
 because you’re too fat to be a part of society.

-wanting to die every second, 
because you’re not perfect.
EDNOS is:
 me.

We are who we are, because of what they are.
The need to be perfect. The need to be thin, skinny, beautiful and popular. The need to be in control. Self-destruction our only friend. Anorexia, bulimia, and ednos, our sicknesses. Self harm - the only way we know how to control our pain. Suicide... The the only way we see as a means to escape. ****, molestation and abuse filled our sick childhoods and now we all pay the price for it. We pay with the blood from our veins, the ***** from our stomach's, the tears from our eyes... We pay for their crimes until we are empty and can not give any more.
We are what we are, because of what they are. And we scream out for help. We cry for forgiveness. We do anything we can to beg for mercy and yet, no one answers. So we cut, and we starve, and we purge until we have withered away to nothing but scarred up bones. Just empty shells of the kids we used to be... And still they don't notice. So we try to **** the pain inside... Over dose. Hanging. Gunshot. Slit wrists.
And then... they notice... But for us, it's already too late. They made us who we are. Whether or not we succeeded, we are already dead inside.

Far away
Wearing the eyes of me
Listening to the mass destruction
Of something that could have been
Should have been
Now watch me die
Even though it can't be right

Now hold the blade
One swift cut
And a velvet obsession
With a sweet seduction
And scarlet temptation

Drinking
Never goes fast
What don't I
What don't I feel.

It calls to me in the wind,
Like a soft, warm whisper,
Beaconing me home.
It wraps its cold hands around my throat,
And I am at it's mercy.
I am free in its chains.
I am powerfully weak.
Like a threaded puppeteer,
I am no longer in control.

You're beauty radiates through your mahogany eyes.
They are the portal to your glimmering soul.
Each time I see them, a candle is lit in my heart... A light in the darkness to keep me alive.
Your skin, so perfect - a porcelain silk.
My fingertips crave it's touch with each passing moment.
My lips quiver at the sound of your name, it melts my heart and calms my soul.
Your smile is by far, the most beautiful I've ever seen, lights up my day like nothing else.
Just to have you in my arms, Just to feel your heart beat against mine, would make my life complete.
You are the air that I breathe.
You are the life that fills me.
I love you now and forever.
You're beauty radiates through your mahogany eyes.

Look inside.
Watch me pry my soul out for you.
Walk on by.
Watch me bleed and die for you.

Cause I bet you know this pain.
I bet you know this line.
Call my ******* name.
Yea. I'm ******* fine.
All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to live again,
All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to...
I don't know.
My heads a ******* mess.  
What a show...
This false smile burns my flesh.

Look inside.
See the emptiness between my ribs.
Walk on by.
Go away and see my face behind your lids.  

Cause I bet you know this pain.
I bet you know this line.
Call my ******* name.
Yea. I'm ******* fine.
All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to live again,
All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to...

I want to see you cry these tears.
I want to see you fear these fears.
I want to see you scream in pain,
I want to see you once again.
Blood dripping down your face.
You make it look so ******* easy.
You make us look like a disgrace.
You make us feel so ******* queasy.

All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to live again,
All I want is to feel again,
All I want is to...