she's an angel
but
her wings are wings of the devil
her smile is inspiring evil
her glare was piercing , furious
hiding behind a mask
lacking affection
seeking love
that broken little heart
that poor little girl
a deafening noise
a blinding light
rose her head
a warm perl ran through her cheek
a sarcastic curve on her face
kept walking
yet walking towards a wall

she resisted the urge
waited for the end
laying on the ground
looking through void
the sun interrupted her peace
lifted her hand
to shield the blinding rays
right through her soul , they went
messed up with it
manipulated her thoughts
controlled her mind
her soul was up there
between the rainy clouds
feeling pity toward the used body of hers

curtains of rain
soaking wet
non-existent tears
an overwhelming storm
will it end ?
head down
drop by drop
loosing her sanity

living by it
trying to adapt herself to the new mask
getting bored maybe
but careless surely
something is bothering
but nothing it is
overwhelmingly quiet
yet quietly screaming

it is what it is
it is what it's meant to be
nothing to do
nothing to say
lacking affection
seeking love
wandered alone
slowly walking toward her end

welcoming darkness
with open arms
unwanted it is
yet forcing itself
invading the gates
gates of her mind
gates of her soul

"it's" touch left it traces on her soft skin
she was relieved
yet felt imprisoned
her breath became heavier
closed her eyes
bit her lips
felt tickles all over her body
her body was numb
her legs were shaking
the smile formed an unrecognizable curve on her face
but that touch wasn't enough
she craved more
she was starving

through the light she saw the darkness that no one could see
lost in that crowd
hearing voices she didn't recognize
the street seemed endless
cars were speeding like the road were theirs
careless people walking around
trying to get out of that crowd
succeeding but finding herself in a dark alley
blinking several times to remain consciousness
but failing
using the ***** wall to walk
yet , her steps were uneven
blurry sight and dry mouth
trying to find the good flavor of life

trapped in a body that isn't hers
running away from darkness
emptiness and void
slowly losing strength
fighting back became pointless
losing hope
losing faith
day by day , disappearing

memories hunting her
'it's" touch on her skin
"it's" breath on her neck
"it's" lips on her chest
dancing to "it's" heart beats
following the rhythm of "it's" soul
looking from afar
eyes full of desire

shame running through her vein
guilt as a heart beat
afraid of what she is
denying her existence
looking at the mirror
reflection of a monster
no pity to be found
sorrow all around

lonely but surrounded
sad yet smiling
mind drowning in void
nonexistent feelings
thought everything ended
she's still far away from the end
her end ....

eyes full of joy
yet reflect her damaged soul

infinite thoughts
stuck in a gaze