You make me feel blue
Not as in sad
As in I drank up the sky and took on another hue
You are my muse and I’m a girl in a notepad
I feel blue like the kind airplanes travel across
They are fleeting but I will last
We are the cause of beautiful and mad chaos
Sunny days and hurricanes in the forecast
The feeling of blue goes farther than the sky
It dives into the ocean, it brings things to life
It drips out of the eyes in a joyful cry
You see, the feeling of blue is not a feeling of strife
Blue is simply the color of love
And into it’s waters, you give me a gentle shove

Your expectations are a plate I cannot finish
I eat until I am full
Until I am sick
What they say is food
feels to me like poison
I try to leave the table
But my plate is still unfinished
Eat
But I am full
My stomach can not handle
The words you try to feed me
They are watching
Plates are empty
But their portions are smaller
Don’t you understand
It’s not possible
Anything is possible
Those words will bring more suffering
And I will eat them until I *****
Every morsel of food expelled onto the table
The neatly folded napkins in disarray
The disdainful looks
What my body did to heal me
Is what lead them to disgust
I am now alone at the table
empty as I was

He called me his harmonica.
A name I used to giggle and blush when uttered from his honey-colored lips.
I thought that meant I was his music.
He called me his harmonica.
And we seemed like a good pair in the beginning.
We completed one another.
He breathed his life into me and I performed ballads for him.
He called me his harmonica.
He had other instruments.
He had other instruments,
and he found that I no longer played the right notes.
He had learned all my songs and could play them by heart.
But to know something does not always mean to love.
He called me his harmonica.
I sat on the shelf collecting dust and my silver finish turned to rust.
I was a relic and he was interested in newer things.
He called me his harmonica.
I could not move if I wanted to.
I was inanimate without his air and I wish I learned to breath without him.
But his air was his alone and he left me suffocating
while he played the most beautiful music that I could never make.
He called me his harmonica.
Sometimes he’d pick me up and play me beside the campfire,
my music diluted with smoke and the remnants of an old forgotten song.
His friends would laugh and he would laugh and then he dropped me in the dirt.
I did not get the joke.
He called me his harmonica.
But he never picked me up.
I depended on him and he left me in the woods behind a trail of tire tracks.
He called me his harmonica.
Others picked me up, but I lost count of how many.
I played my songs and they had their laugh and they dropped me
back into my pillow of ashes.
I remind them of their past and they like me until they remember
the past can be painful and I am only a reminder of some unbearable memory
that cannot be uncovered.
They call me a harmonica.
I used to be a harmony.

My love has daggers for teeth

When he smiles it stabs me

When he laughs I bleed

When he kisses my neck I no longer breath

My love is a beautiful thing

So beautiful

That it brings me so much pain