There was a girl and she tried and tried

She would try to fix your broken bones with the bandages in her satchel.

But you looked away and never paid attention.  

She’d come to your rescue before you need her too, but you turned her away and sent her home.

She gained a voice in the back of her head, that told her all the lies she felt.

The lies felt like truth, so she listened to them.

She became abused and neglected, so she faded into the background.

She sharpened her knives and took havoc.

But she didn’t hurt you, no, instead she hurt herself because she loved to deeply and hurt so much.


She began to fade away, the scene became quieter and quieter.

You realized something was missing, when you were down and no one was around.

You didn’t know where she was, you didn’t know she was alone in her room, dark shadows around, feeling numb to the feeling while sadness overwhelmed her.

You needed her then and you need her now, but you pushed her away, and now she’s gone.

So you paid her a visit, hoping for a few sweet words and the sympathy stringing, but when you came inside you found her body beaten and bruised.

Because you weren’t there when she wanted you, you didn’t want her when you needed her, so she faded away permanently. Because the person she loved didn’t want or need her so she believed that was her fate.

Now she’s gone and there’s no coming back from this. You should’ve been there for her when she was alive and happy.

There was a girl and she tried and tried

People fear meaningless things,

An occurring fear occurs,

Everyone's afraid of death,

So they say,

But I say, what's there to be afraid?

I know my fate,

Just let it take me already,

I'm not missing out on much,

I'm not suicidal,

But death,

Tis so sweet,

It's ruby lips,

Poison dripping,

Calling my name,

Hair on end,

Goosebumps rising on my skin,

Chills dancing down my spine,

It won't take much effort,

To end it all.

Can't you see?

I'm not afraid of death at all

I break my own heart
Too pieces
Two pieces
As if heavens breath rescued my soul
It lived on within my bones
Deep down in the depths
That dark place
I don't know the name
But I do know
If I sprout wings
I'll fly away
Maybe
I'll stay
But too long
Too bad
I'm too bad
But I tell you I'm fine
Even though my heart regrets beating

you’re looking at me

but not really at me

your eyes take in the sight of me

but you never make eye contact

you look a little to the left of me

your awkward gait

your peculiar hair

your whole being

approaches me

your compliment

lights up my year

i want to get closer to you

but you

you’re lost in the crowd

i can’t make my way

back to you

We die everyday.

It's our choice.

Whether we care or not.

We're dying.

Right now.

So what's the point of waiting,

When I could die right now?

So you wanna serve your country, huh?

Well to me, it seems like nobody’s fighting on the front.

Their all waiting for their grand opportunity.

Click. Click. Boom!

He went out with honors, y’all!

So you better believe it was all worth fighting for.

Now you’re telling me, you’re going into the Marines.

The few, the proud.

But doesn’t that mean I’m going to lose you, too?

Of course you’ll be working to make our country safer, but I’ll working behind the counter of a fast food restaurant.

You’ll be making life changing movements, but me, I’ll still be behind the books in the university.

So tell me, is it all the risk?

To lose you, and still come home a hero?

Because if you die, you’ll never play the basketball game you promised my kid brother.

You’ll never swish him in a pair of purple crocs.

You’ll never get to see me graduate.

But I will be serving my country, just not quite like you.

I’ll be saving lives, just not like you.

It’s pretty selfish of me, I admit.

But I don’t want to lose you, because I already lost myself.

You’re my first hello and my last goodbye.

Goodbye soldier, fight well for us all.

I like women

I like men

I like everyone in between

I like people

I like personality

Where do I fit in?

Don't take her from my arms,

The only thing pure in the world.

Her laugh, so angelic,

Takes the depression away.

Flaming hair,

Icy eyes,

Hot and cold,

A miracle,

Love in a loveless marriage.

Her grace so mighty,

Rescue us from our stupidity.

Just a babe,

Winning all of our hearts,

Bringing smiles to our frowning mouths,

She is ours.

She is pure.

She is angelic.

She is Cheyenne.

Dear secret person,

I met you a few months ago,

Already I think I love you,

You make me happy when I’m sad

You’re funny just for me

You are so close to me

I can’t wait to see you again

Because you’ll call me, “Mine.”

I miss the abuse.
The tangled feelings of regret.
I miss the tears.
The words you said to make me cry, tore down my substantial walls.
You robbed me of myself.  
Leaving me empty and alone.
As much as I miss the pain.
I know if I return.
I'd be better off dead.
The minuscule amount of joy can't triumph the pain I'll feel every day.
But I still miss the abuse.
You told me "You ruined me."
You told me "You don't love me." You are right, I have ruined you, I don't love you.
No more.
No more.
No more.
I don't think I can ever go back to all that.
If you ever got close to me, I think I would crack.
I would break in a million new ways that I've never been broke before.
I will descend to the earth like the dirt I am.
Lucky for you, you never saw me cry everyday.
I was stronger than you.
You thought.
You never saw me cry.
I practically died.
You killed me on the inside.
Now I think I might have trust issues.
Will every boy abuse me?
Will every boy deny me?
Will every boy misuse me?
Will every boy be like you?
Maybe they will.
Maybe I'm a magnet for those guys.
Maybe I love the abuse.
Maybe I miss the abuse.

You see me plain as day,

Does anyone know the pain I feel?

It's hidden deep inside.

Engraved inside my skin.

Written deep in my bones.

It's black and it's ugly.

But it's beauty is written.

It comes in the form of flowers and suns.

It's written in black.

But it's not bad.

If you break my bones.

Open them up.

The light will shine through.

The light pours out.

It gives me hope.

Because I know, I'm with you.

These people are strangers,

My friends, family, everyone I see,

Nobody knows me,

I stay to myself.

I give them clues,

I let them win,

But nobody wins,

The prize inside.


I don't know why,

But the feeling inside,

Says I've got to stay silent.

And I do,

Because I'd rather not let people see,

The messy parts of me.