Once I was too afraid to
let go
of the things and the

People
that I loved and cared

Too afraid to set free
Or be free from my ego

I was not ready to be
reminded that all things
come to an

End

But fear not because the
greatest feeling
is to learn that

Sunset is as good as Sunrise

Have you ever felt anything more amazing?
The sun kissing your face
while your eyes rest
while you take a breath
lying down listening to the waves.
They come and go incessantly
but you like the sound of them
their rhythm takes you on a journey.
A journey you shall always cherish,
wisdom you got through pain and torment
And now it's time to let it go
You've earned your rest
Take a bow
Pull the curtains
Empty your mind and rejoice
You left your mark in this world
You touched people in your wake
And that's all you can ever hope for

It's just that I have to write.
It's not a choice.
It's a need.
I'm not looking to please others
I don't care if the only person who ever reads it
is me.
I'll do it anyway
I have to
For if I didn't
I'd tear apart
a piece of my soul.

Hiding is pointless
I have everything
yet I miss so much.
I want my grandmother.
Boy, do I miss her
Sometimes, oh yes, sometimes
even more than my own mother.
I remember carefree times
What if you're not here physically?
I want your soul
I know it's here
I hope it is.
It's been a while since you left
Not nearly enough to heal my wounds.
I hope you're in a better place now
Perhaps we'll meet again.
Just the thought of you not being here
makes me shiver.
I love you so much
And you gave away your spirit
without a fight.
Why? What were you thinking of when you did that?
Certainly not me
or anybody else.
I hope the next life
will give you something better than this one.
Truth is you were wronged a bit
Maybe part of it was your fault.
But I don't blame you
I think it's time for me to let you go
but it's so so hard
I don't want to
but I have to.
Only my name is left as a reminder
And all that's left in my memory
I fear I will forget
What can I do?
Probably nothing
Goodnight, nana
Perhaps one day I will see you again
Thank you so much for all that you've given me
I love you

Your Granddaughter

Sun
Spring
Light breeze
blowing in my face.
The sun is the most beautiful orange
I have ever seen
It reaches my eyes
my soul.
Peace
The wind is caressing the leaves
And I hear nature obeying
to the wind's rhythm.
Peace
Just for a little while
Until my mind is flooded with
matters of this world.
I smell the air
I can't get enough of it
Only a breath
and then I dive back in
Sometimes I'm drowning
and then I have to find some oxygen
Before I sink back down
Maybe I'll get out.
Once and for all I'll reach the surface
Maybe not
But I can't stop dreaming

I long for other moments.
Memories come uninvited
-as always-
The mind keeps going back
despite the profound resistance of the body.
I remember images, faces, smells
Some that I can never retrace
What could it possibly take to let it go?
Are mistakes ever forgiven?
Isn't the picture blurred
even if it's there?
We can never go back.
It's either a bad or a good thing.
So many dimmed lights
inside a dark room.
Can I find the door?
Can anyone?