I don't remember the exact moment when the lines between friendship and love became blurred, when I started losing myself inside these lines.
All I know is that you are all I can think about, day and night. I breathe you, I taste nothing but you, I want you.
But I need you more than that.
It's this incessant need, the way the moon needs the sun, fire water, salvation destruction. And this need scares me. As I am a bird of flight, never to be tied down by any one rock.
But now I want to be held by you. I dream of being in your arms, lost in your smile. You have changed me, love.
That's why I need to forget you, to dispel you from my system, shatter your image in my head, so that you no longer are my inner song but another broken lyric.
I'm saving myself.
Building these walls again.
Running away.
Because I can't wait for you anymore, Shane.

When did you become more than just a friend?
I don't remember ever giving you permission to drive me crazy...
I never asked you to make me fall madly and helplessly in love with you.
I blame you, it's your fault!
Because of you I can't look you in the face without hurting.
I can't speak to you without losing control of what I might say.
You make me nervous, you drive me nuts.
I want to love you...
I want you to love me!
I want you to share what I feel. The pain, the passion and the lust.
But this is too much.
I have to forget you, I have to keep you away.
I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry for what I said.
I'm sorry for the pain and the tears I made you cry.
I'm sorry for losing a friend, but in the end,
You will always be more than just a friend...