There once was a little girl
Always smiling just perfect
Had friends, family just everything
She was loved by everyone else
She knew how to love herself
Surrounded by myths and sweet lies
day by day, year by year, time flies

Soon she grew up
By the expectations of society she was surrounded
Upon learning the awful truths left dumbfounded
Trying to fit in with everyone one else she forgot how to love herself

When I was seven, I was afraid of the dark
My biggest enemies were the moon and stars
So, to sleep better at night
I had a night light

Now I’m fourteen and I can’t stand the light
Now that’s the enemy I got to fight
I am scared of the day
Because I can’t stand what people have to say

I love the night
Because then, I get a break from the fight
Don’t have to hide my tears
Don't have to face my fears

I now realize, in the dark
under the blanket of stars
You don't have to hide your scars
Because no one can see
just for a few hours, in the dark
I'm free

Standing beneath a thundering rainy sky
A similar storm of thoughts raging inside me
Like birds trapped in a cage
My emotions are struggling to be free

Like clouds flooding a piece of land
Have finally went away leaving it dry
My eyes have stopped watering
Because no tears are left to cry

Like a volcano silent for ages
Has burst out of a sudden
My heart's door, which has been closed for so long
Has burst open in a fit of rage by emotions and burden

Like all the fallen autumn leaves
Taken by the wind, far away
My courage has also left me
Leaving space for fear to stay

When the night comes with the moon,
And you shiver by the sound of a loon,
Hold and squeeze me tight,
Let me comfort with divine's light.

When the candles extinguish,
And death arrives to languish,
Let me bear it, if my soul be pure,
And let divinity grant your death's cure.

I question with wrath -
My friend, where's my fiend?
"Buried alive" he said walking by the path.
Rushed I pulled by the collar,
"Where's my fiend?!" I was ready with a roller.
"Why do you care?" he asked with no fear.
She was there when none stayed, she's my dear.
"A literal murderer, your dear?" he laughed.
"Answer my friend, where's my fiend?" I glared.

Everything is aching
My heart is breaking
I'm suffocating
I'm crying for help
Because i can't save myself
Help me please

I'm dying
I'm crying
But i have to keep smiling
It's getting on my nerves
I'm just so hurt
But this scar is not the first

I have to keep up this mask
It's a difficult task
I see no light, everything is dark
Everyone feels like an enemy
I'm drowning in jealousy
Please Help Me
.............

I can see nothing
Everything is hurting
I don't even know me
Can't find me
Come get me
PLEASE,
...

Help Me

Always feeling like a failure I'm so tired
fears, tears , anxiety burn inside of me like fire
through my words I wanna inspire that is my only desire
in and out, the darkness swallows me
caught between reality and fantasy
burning in  fire, turning to ash, see
falling deep down with no one to catch me
And they say life is easy,

The expectation and pressure of society surrounds me
The burden of my failures drown me
My head is underwater but no one can see
I cry out so loud but no one hears me
The lonliness and self doubt tears me
I scream and scream but no one hears me
The scream of silence has no sound
it breaks me but is unheard all around
I cry and shout but in vain
So I have no choice but to smile through the pain

There is a hurricane inside of me
It slowly destroys me
All my friends just use
The guilt consumes me
Once more my heart is shattered
Felt on the ground, scattered
So now i have to clean up this mess,
And pretend i'm fine
Deal with this **** one more time

Will this ever end
even though i'm breathing,
I am already dead
And they say life is easy