Jan 7 Äŧül
Once when I was drunk
I held my hand to a flame
And it didn’t hurt
Ohhh it burns so bad but I pretend I don’t feel it
Every day she goes out
Putting on her red coat
She gets her things together
Heads outside and starts her day

Woman in the red coat

She visits her favorite café
Slowly sipping her coffee
Thinking about her day

Woman in the red coat

As she finishes her coffee
She gets ready to leave
Putting her coat on
Packing up her things

Woman in the red coat

She has had the coat for years
It came with her to a new land
When she wears it it feels like an old friend
Red is a favorite color of her
In a way the coat helps define her

Woman in the red coat
 Jan 5 Äŧül
Pitch Hiker
The rain felt beautiful.
I grass stuck to my body itched
But I secretly miss that feeling
On any sunny day
I feel meaning in the way the field slants
Its always done that
The white paint has faded away
I love it when it stains my fingertips
Every shot leaves a tail of water
And the rippling sound of the ball sliding down the net
The way that the rain falls on me
Feels beautiful
Literally washing away my worries
As I never feel truly tired
As if every drop was distracting me
From my physical state
This makes me feel strong
 Jan 5 Äŧül
Pitch Hiker
I won't feel like this tomorrow
I'll be happier
I won't feel this empty sting when I wake up in the morning
I will just feel tired
But in another week or so
Maybe in just a few days
It will be back
And I will have to hide away
Like dreams you can't remember
There is no record of my pain
except in my journals
But they to will never be found
 Jan 5 Äŧül
Pitch Hiker
When do you realize
You are all alone
When you have to keep your distance
From your friends
When you have to smile even though
You want to throw a fit and yell
And scream
When you put distance between
Everyone else and yourself
To protect everything you are
Everything I am
I now realize
That I am alone
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
colors of you
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
sing me your inspiration,
so that words may blossom
through the rings of the tree
in my paper.

gift me your passions,
so that pathways may carve
through inked rivers
and graphite daydreams.

paint me your love,
so that I may palette
your rainbow
and color my canvas

with my favorite colors of you.

the soft pink
of the inside of your lips,
and the offset grey
haloed through your eyelashes.

tiger lily freckles framed
by sweet peach
and wallflower blushes.

rainfall wrists
and dutch cocoa silk.

all my canvas needs
are the colors of you.
acrylic affirmations and watercolor whispers
I'm stuck in two different realities,
It's crazy what a blind eye can see,
Time froze on that path of new beginnings,
A whole new life.

Haven't had the time to write, I'm learning how to make time for the things I love, which is poetry.
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
your mind is
still my favorite book
to read...
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
It was a cold and silent night,
When a girl lost her sight.
She cried and screamed with fright,
then there were arms that held her tight.

Why is this happening in me?
Why I'm stuck in a place where I can't see?
Is this a grace or a  curse to me?
It seems like the word is playing tricks on me.

Oh holy one,
Dear Lord if you're really mighty one.
If you really exist in this world,
then why does it seems you can't hear my words?

Then a voice answered her,
My dear I'm here your mother.
Don't judge him for faith is always tested remember?
Believe in miracle and have strength in prayer.

You may can't see but you can feel,
You still can hear and I'm always here.
There are still people who loves you everywhere
There's the Almighty Father no need to fear.

Just open your eyes and you can see,
The ***** eyes can't see.
Think what happened to you as a grace
and all those sorrows in your heart will come at peace.

Have faith !
have Strength !
'cause after the night where there's no light,
comes the morning when the sun shines so bright. :)
to those who runs out of faith...Stand still keep hoping there are still beautiful things that are bound to happen...not now,maybe later !

#throw back high school...
#faithfulNUMB ;)
 Dec 2018 Äŧül
You are someone I call  FRIEND,
You are someone I truly trust and depend.
You are my cheer leader and comforter,
my life for you is always better.

Together we had failed and succeed.
You always give ,I always receive.
You lay you my problems,
You give me motivation.
I lost my hope you've given me motivation.

I never felt alone for I have you,
But things have changed between us two.
When I slowly learned of loving you,
you started avoiding  me too.

I was on the verge of falling,
but you haven't  any plans on catching.
I lost everything because of this feeling.
The bond that we had was now being broken.

I'm sorry if I betrayed you,
I crossed the line that friendship shouldn't go.
It was never my intention to have special feelings for you,
But what can I do ?
My heart longs for you.

It started with a friensdhip
But never ended into a romantic relationship.
Instead of a happily ever after,
It ended as two people back to being stranger.
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