I feel nothing but emptiness. A black hole filled with sadness. Consuming me leaving me with loneliness. Eating me inside out to become nothingness. I seek revenge in this bitterness.
Lost in the bitterness
Free because I’m found
Surrounded by silence
I hear the intense sound
I got a one way ticket
I’ll go there, back and around
this is the complication
of travelling to where I’m bound
Climbing a mountain
while the path doesn’t bend
ripping up a letter
that the mailman still will send
but my thirst will not amend
this is the frustration
that my life won't cease to lend
Miles, countries away
but still you’re at my side
Just when you disobey me
you do start to abide
Of course I’ll tell no one
but in you I can confide
This is my pleasure
when the pain will not subside
we fought again, inevitable difference
this one was the hardest
took my sober soul and cleansed my thoughts with evil
i sit and cry on a beautiful summer's eve
i blame myself for all of this
because i hurt you again, i think
i am so sorry for the
that you did not deserve
i know i fucked up again
because my mother started asking questions
and i lost one of my only friends
thank you for enduring my bitterness
and hurt i inflicted
this cancer is healed
but the cancer-disfigured-wounds lay behind
and all we can do now is forgive the cancer for existing and forgive each other
I'll play thief
To the home
Of a rich man
Malt for my
Bitterness and ale
For the happiness
That was kept
In the mug
Are a lot cheaper
But mansions store
The most flavorful:
From the source
On the plate
The bitter rain in which
I once loved,
They run down my face,
The face with the mask
Of joy and contentment
And yet beneath is
By loss in something
I believed was everlasting
By a love that was always
Incompleted because of reality
Is it true.
That only you.
Can heal the piercing holes.
That corrupt me within.
My fragile heart.
The one who has caused my heart.
Such known pain and misery.
Yet I still do not hate you.
For your face brings me joy.
Happiness and nothing less.
But my febil ambitions weaken me.
My body yearns for your embrace.
Something that I cannot acquire
Contorting my heart to blackened bitterness.
Such dark tragedy.
As I rot away with the winds.
My bitter soul wanders with no desire at all rather then to simply die.
Death because life empty of you causes nothing more then destruction to me.
It will be my only solace.
...Then the distance mangles the appearance,
And then he's not my everything since I mustn't allow it.
I do not believe in perfection anymore.
I mustn't show I could wait forever;
I musn't allow anyone to trample on me...
Above all pleasant, comforting falsehoods.
I don't think I have ever been so powerless
I will spend every morsel of a moment with you before you go
If you want me to
I'll do anything you want to make this sweetness last
To make the agony of you leaving me last
before it turns to numbness
You are great to be powerless to,
You are so easy to love
And so easily love.
This is the bitterest sweetness, I've ever had.
The only sweetness I've ever had,
Losing my only sweetness,
Makes the taste of loss so bitter.
I never knew I could love like this.
I never knew love could mean honesty and trust.
I never knew it could mean tenderness and lust.
you make me a person I want to be around
You helped me widdle away the stubborn
and smooth out the self,
in self esteem.
Without your patient and hard working hands,
my Self will turn rough and dull again.
I'll have to face myself
while you go off
and carve out you're own dreams
And leave me after you have shown me how sweet it all could be.