Star, when i see you, i'm pretty sure my time is getting sooner. When i see you through my right eye, i know that today i won't wake up. If i see if through my left side, i will see the day of tomorrow and i hope tomorrow you will wait for me on my balcony.
I sleep with my blinds open to dazzle you and see that my blindness that follows me is clear by your brilliance. When the night get's tough, when the anxiety wait for me, when my demons penetrate my sheets, you are the one that clears my path to smile for my own good and allows me to survive through loneliness.
I cry when i don't see you anymore, either on my dreams, either on my last moments before you collapse into my deep sleep.
Don't vanish i say! I only ask you to come everynight to deliver the good night kiss. I have never been happy with my self but maybe you will get me back my years of sorrow back cleared by your mist. I didn't lose them by purpose, i only lost myself on the rivers that haunt me till since now.
The darker the night, the brighter the stars they say. Don't cover me with fully light, i need the darkness to continue to be a human being and i think you need your own eternal light to come visit, ain't that right?
I don't know, i fell will to see you everyday, sincei started to think on that thing you told me yesterday. Not all my dreams have to be accomplished but they can be finished. I still wait for my answer from the sun because i don't see him in many years. I miss your green, you ignorance. I miss being a boy. I don't know what i am.
Celestial body full of fear of the following day, forgive me for what i have done to my people, for the sadest thoughts that plagued the millions and for the days of eternal rain that my brain tried to recreate.
My waterfalls of my eyes are getting bigger, i can't see right, only aside. How do i know what i see is my star or if is too pearls from the ocean's heaven?
Life, don't blind me, i want too see my path, my history, i want to see what i can do and what i will eventually can become. I know that i treated you bad and i don't open for rewards. Hoping that you let me cross paths by which have been stepped on but never founded, seen by ignored, felt but never reached.
Give me the eternal peace that you have been given me throughout the years, give me the courage that i haven being having, give me the smile and touch so i can give them to someone who deserves the most.
I knew that i ask little but that's all what i wan't to receive.
My mother waits for his children so she can say "Good morning", waiting for the day that her fruits can give her the satisfaction to listen to her last words:
"My effort was not in vain, all the sacrifices that i have done for them were worth it, everysingle tear dropped made their rivers full of joy... My life was worth it. I created myself on both of you and i hope that both of you can give your own best for those who cared about you. I will be the star of my son and i will the sun of my daughter. May my son shine but don't blind himself, may my daugher warm up but don't ignire herself. See you soon."
Make me immortal, even if it is my last request for mercy, i give you my scars and my treasures that i have digged.
I only hope that you continue to my star. My only star...
