"ated" poems
They're huddled 'round their periodic lunch tables,
square and socially pyramidal,
and I'm at the bottom.
But they're just fluorine factions,
bullies at heart trying to steal my e-lectricity
with their negativity.
Because I'm light,
Ultra-violet violence to the eyes,
Magnesium burning.
Anti-matter meets matter.
And that catalytic, cataclysmic energy is attractive.
And they see me. They see, see, see,
But I've got too many Cs on this side of my false, metallic personality.
I'd better balance myself
Or I'm not getting a good reaction.
Classic ionic, ironic idiocy.
I've bonded with you,
just compounding the issues.
'Cause you're a complete acetate without a solution:
now all I've got are problems.
Dot Diagrams are dotted lines separating you from me,
because over the years what was a bond
became a partially negative charge
against me.
I was your oxygen, and you were carbon
-ated, bubbly and explosive.
We would Combust.
But now all's left but to see, oh, two
of your new girlfriends flanking your sides,
'cause we've decomposed, split, gone off to better things.
Monatomic monotones lace my speech,
and I'm pining for something to complete this emp-d shell
that is myself.
'Cause I miss what we had.
We had chemistry.
Mar 9, 2013
Mar 9, 2013 at 5:52 PM UTC
We were up all thru out the terrible night
sniffling like ******* addicts
like sick little youth 1930's depression oh the Great
our fat lips hung like dying mosquitoes in the coming brothel of winter and her long scorched dress
that I inflamed with my Vietnam stolen lover zippo of gasoline
in a Sober frenzy of jealousy
now her Glare is angled narrowly at lust
tobacco
coughing up and down side ways in dreams as if I were a butterfly addicted to cigars
we were up all thru out the night
counting our skin cells
watching the television laugh at our faces
He sobbed “how the orange metallic streets
bent to our theatrical emotions on 12th street”
oh the glory of our thoughts and touch was ransom
was devil
was god
was god watching in his leather seat?
Wearing his glasses
reading the Bible?
Or does he read Russian Literature
or does he only read Latin
I and I were up all last night
guessing Morphine
using the Sister's pay-phone copper to connect with silly 3 eyed hipster hookers
their eyes wide and green with white salt like a ***** lake
that you stumble upon drunkardly with a laughing Angel
High on Cough Syrup and mortality
amused
exhilarated
passion-ated by this new opportunity for Adventure's drawback which is death or Boredom
MY innocents
is deteriorating with Age
like the alcoholic richness of 100 year old Wine
sadly
money monday
didn't go to church
hope that lady with wisdom in her hands forgives me
then I ate
now I starve
clutching at the windows
painting a boy staring at me
wondering if I were real
As I wonder if his thoughts are my own
We were up all night
translating the moon's shadows and hiccups into finger paintings and strep throat.
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 3:14 PM UTC
your left breast;
we were talkin'
about cosmonauts.
heads in the clouds
with no want or
worry to never see
this sphere's crust.
we would disconnect
from they. with no
lies from the eyes
we open'd palms in
welcoming fashions.
your right breast;
lying on fetid couch,
nodding off and the
ambience was a dri-
ving bass line. little
trickle, claiming no
worse than usual.
nod, and trail'd off.
slurs and abbrevi-
ated acronyms. sta-
nding in awe of emoti-
onless lack of reaction.
Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 4:11 AM UTC
P erception of perfection you peep through,
Pasty pallid skin, polished and hairless too.
O rifices overloaded with objects inserted,
Onus on organs contorted and inverted.
R ated R for restricted but,
Revered in every racing, raving heart.
N o escape, never real, a never-ending reel,
Note now how it is the act and the squeal, never the feel.
I t is its own doom, on a breakfast platter, glittering,
S erving your imagination an unforgettable, unfulfilable fantasy.
A lways present to build a prison cell and still calls you free.
T rue to itself but a lie nevertheless,
R uinous rapture you have there, rupturing a future,
A way from the light to higher heights of depravity fly,
P ursue a mirage, put on its chains now.
*Did you fall too?
I was hoping you'd give me a hand.*
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 3:07 PM UTC
This earthly body is incomprehensible. Piles of cells which make muscle, bone and nerv(ous)es. This earthly body too heavy for a spirit--too light to touch the ground. I beg you not to weigh me down.
Please
don't weigh me down. I try in earnest to touch your face, to feel for only a moment sweet flickers of skin on skin, but I grasp right through you.
I felt about a ghost town,
ghosted around; marveled
upon shivers of what I knew
was dead. I walked
so insolently as the living
through fields that whisper
passage and rivers calling out
on moments gripped in sun.
I walked
right through
you. Ghosted around.
Scoffed at fading memories empty
pitying passages long since written down:
I read you like fiction,
ghost town: fancied myself
so solid among your intangible willows.
Ghosting around. Now
come to find seeking skin on mine I
breeze right through you.
I try a second time, a third and
come to find it's I
who's too light for living.
It is I who passes through the solid walls
and wails in caves; it's I
who fade into night irepperable by light.
I who watched the world so arrogantly
as the living
like it would pass before MY eyes. But
here I waver unbreakable in the shaking
shining of many tiny lights.
Ghost am I.
May 15, 2013
May 15, 2013 at 1:32 AM UTC
I gawk
at the way your calloused hands
can graze my skin
scraping apart
what little sanity
I've got left--
pieces
of fabric-
ated thoughts
and memories
litter our feet like fallen
leaves in Autumn.
I laugh
at the way
you rock cliches silently
into omission,
cleaning the rest of the world
of originality
and three word stories
that play like music boxes
sprinkling magic
into my ears
like I was a child again.
I even dance
in rooms with that creaking wood
sound
we love,
easing into step
with our momentum
on heavy nights
of weary thoughts
that rattled our minds
tired,
breathing heavily and easily
all throughout
our little
drumming
and howls,
making songs from free
style instruments.
I think of how
I still hum myself to sleep
with our tempo
long after the music box
has stopped playing.
Apr 27, 2013
Apr 27, 2013 at 12:52 AM UTC
And it kills me
to know
that you would much rather
open a bottle
of raspberry *****
than open up yourself
to me.
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 1:05 AM UTC
“Life is, at its core, a smattering of multicolor streaks and blotches
on a knock-off Jackson ******* painting, don’t you think?”
you say between impossibly tiny sips
of your organic loose leaf herbal something-or-other tea—
or at least I think that’s what you said;
I was too distracted (by the general awfulness with which
your incomprehensibly long nose hairs
mingled with your bristly auburn mustache
as elevated nonsense poured out of your speech-hole)
to fully ingest your attempt at insightfulness.
But I reply:
“Aren’t you saying that what you’re saying doesn’t matter anyway?
Abstract expressionism, existentialism, nihilism, all that stuff?
Life has no meaning—so we better talk about it!”
Heh.
But my dialectical cynicism is no match
for your allegorical bullshit-ism:
“Ah, but we create meaning!
The lonely abyss of individual experience,
when shared, isn’t so lonely anymore—
Mon Dieu! This tea tastes like sunshine!”
I can’t avoid a sigh-and-eye-roll combo.
When my eyes return to the table,
I see my upside-down reflection in a dessert spoon.
I painted a Pollock-esque piece in 9th grade.
My art teacher adjusted her cat-eye glasses,
the gold parts of her hazel irises sparkling behind them
while she said something about the creative subconscious.
The first drip took some self-convincing;
the blank canvas on the floor seemed to taunt me
with the possibility of mistake.
At first I pretended I was ******* himself,
trying to think the elevated nonsense he may have thought.
It didn’t work.
My friend told me to “just go for it,” so I did.
I began with green for no reason at all,
and ended with yellow for reasons that I knew existed
but that I couldn’t explain.
Elated, I realized my painting made sense to me.
“Would you like a sip?”
I can’t avoid a smile because
****
this tea does taste like sunshine.
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 1:04 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel so lonely,
I just sink into the bed and bring the covers around,
fabricated an embrace.
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 2:37 AM UTC
I wonder about freedom.
A universal right to be,
who and what and where we want,
gripe and moan and even taunt.
Type in our own, homemade font.
Or, launch a raft into the sea.
To find a place that
is more liber-ated, still.
But greed turns choice to tyrany.
The motto? Give it all to me!
Need a house? Chop down a tree.
Each day is such a thrill!
Until those pitter patters
Turn into stomping boots.
Asking who will pay the bill?
Tearing down each homebrew still.
Whats for dinner. More pig swill?!
We're looking for recruits.
Who want to live a better way
In a world much less corrupt.
We'll have good rules to keep in us line
So prisons won't explode again this time.
With committers of some petty crime.
Or just failing to keep up.
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 9:26 AM UTC
I don't think about you at all, do I?
You are
imagine-ary. I imagine, dear reader, each
key
you see
strike sound in your mind one key ringinatime ring of rings
and one time and another
timed half
meant to be gin
but genius we
dis sip cip ated ante anti cipt
mist scryptic letter let us let this be true
me and you, imagine we liv in the words
we make peace as effort
an anomo nemo thingo non namable ibility
ifity boo...
that has worked several times for me I daren't say
it is in evit able vitaminwise
e-normous meaning lies in e, pluralized, unumus
easy and free are we,
the society so
named.
An I and I an I and I an III and eye am I
Horus was the story,
I, the eye.
Perhaps the one Odin made sacred,
the eye given for an eye,
the stories mention
with a wink.
Blink.
And we passed aha in a a a a a a a a
O
me
ga
damnitalt
erhell
For a moment there, I thought
this as real as it felt
at the time.
Jul 4, 2019
Jul 4, 2019 at 11:05 PM UTC
I'm not sleepy, and there ai
n't no place
I'm going to, this is it now, … then I come again, return,
interrupting my self with crosscurrents,
these are those
riptides in opposing forces shifting
enemies
to good fellow earthling survivors, spinning in the system,
pole to pole and back
never the same river twice,
but always the pattern,
meandering,
serpentine, path of least resisting
we know we are of the samesame value,
goodwise. truewise freemade with a will
to live in happy, the state of mind,
ever after all of that…
from now on
whatever ever changes, we are
in the mix,
this is id est time-ated, tict to
silent breathing commas,
in our mutual mind space
aloud
at any given instant
or moment, moment
works instant in season
out of season,
how did you make sense of that?
This way, right.
I knew at the moment then it was past,
this is ever after, never the same,
fluid-ity enticed to artifice interfaces,
knows to gnose, epistemic tehkne
sci-psy-psi
with use, knowing takes on a second nature,
less guessing, let the cloud calculate the tip, wait
what is this tip, this social debt, I owe the server?
Stupid question, certain
impulses
urge me to declare, look it up, but you know,
if you were the server,
you know…
if you were the aimer,
you know,
if you were the trigger, you wait
to be the joke that starts the whole world laughing.
------
Survival of the we-ity bits of wits,
was we an effort
to imagine?
We, the idea. Who imagined that?
I could not form an image,
imagine, yes
form, in form fit an
i-dea
ology **** where did she come from,
wait, is she the mother of all living?
who told this story, after whatever
resulted in now,
when we know, we all are related,
matrilineally,
mom-wise,
...?
if we were to reason, for a moment,
of the expansive sort, see
without the knack for vision my
people
perish. So seeing eyes and hearing ears,
goodsense forethought, backup
senses
great ideas in the ongoing perfection
of ever after,
post Disney ification of the servant corp,
and creds to Berners-Lee and the CERN
concern for how ideas may
evolve from necessity inventing
Frank Zappa in time to fix Romania's budget.
Dec 7, 2020
Dec 7, 2020 at 1:47 AM UTC
before my cause
cuz, because
we must, i must, he ***** she *****
can i be
cancerous society
imagery of sleepy kleepy
keeps me going with the system
is a few stains of you inside of me
I am not sure yet if we missed em
****** ripped, tipper
slick dipper keep tripper
keeptripper keeptripper
i am so laid down lay me so far down
im slipper gun skipper
cold finger, lead slinger
trigger me must me dont
never back down
never submit i must admit
that its a bit of bite good for ya main
to feel my blood run thru again
i am so beautiful
beauty collateral
every year i grow older i am three years younger
feeding your hunger
loose to fit my noose and pull it snug around my wrists
oh this is how it dis-
owns me
remember February
when your bones and joints was moving
looping into an ********
lost details you didn't mention
fool me once and if ya fool me
i think you're really rich believe me
fuller *** of gold below me
as if as if i'm really tripping
*** holer of my collar
irrelevant what is it
i like two eyelids
folding over one
free am asian
asian this asian that
every sip of it im taken
no i am not even im fakin
slow me broken roll me faded
like i Californ-i-ated
dosed politicians
my trippy **** im missin
it is my one and only mission
google Zechariah Sitchin.
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 5:04 PM UTC
See the reasons warring
who fools fools for money then makes the king pay
that one m'y be the culprit
whence came the king thing?
I mean it did not pop full formed
into mito mom one
fining
day as a re of sun set its eye on a
particular nail hole
in the tin roof corrugated
good word, rug ated, like walked on, y'llthank?
a collective loss of soul
noticed by the few
mad men who felt some call to lie'n when
facts,
camera obscura facts, proved they saw
I saw
light bent
through a nail hole
brought the sunset to my wall
or all of it that mattered,
the part I saw...
face? No,
yeah, I could see that,
If I could see what you say you suppose
supports your pre-sense presence if it ivity
whither Grammarelyearly versions
howled as I claimed the idle words holding true
riches from the stone re
jected jeckled and hidden, lapis,
was there a gem with in and a gen with out?
Ah, he sang that line
Ragpicker evolved to Recycling Frontliner Earth day Youtube stars
what a job. Save the world...
stumbled and
lost the thread
fracture ice cracked ice mud shrunk in from
hidden edges where the weakest
or most open
imagine you are with me in the mud
bubbling old ideas settle peace
fully here fully there, the ever over
flowing where
we met.
?¿ yen yanker ****** ain't it?¿
hiero-glyphic ifs effeing ity ness. per se.
mud shrunk in from
hidden n-degree edges where the weakest
or most open bonds are loosed on earth as they are
ever
let go let be let
until he be taken, obscureference,
Bubble Bible fact' never acted as if I knew
he who letteth shall let until he be taken out of the way.
may be today. lest we forget
imagine you are with me in the mud
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 10:23 PM UTC
{editer note: ******* title nixed as non sensicle, but his contract gave him title rights if the inner net ever was re-al-ized, so his title was:
De-fine ite religion to its ment tent,
intended to set a course on defining religion,
then faith and seeing what would happen next,
because we went some ways with that idea we
we, integrit I ated we
we know how important your valuing peace is to the value of peace.
Butterfly hurricanes in the Bermuda triangle,
that's just gas,
like when a newborn smiles at the twinkle in his grandma's eye.
But let your peace come into a place,
see if, still see if still be still again slower still your will be done on earth
how? right? who can do what God would do if he were you?}
In my mind, my perfectly calmable mind
I am culpable for drawing your attention,
claims the flame to the moth who
exclaims, idea, I die for do I care
que? sera sera
Madre mia sang that song right along
made her matter, like she was dancing for me,
baby,
who twisted that little head
who told you that little lie
why, why, why, baby, why
give me a reason for the faith that is in you or
we all die
anyway
the idea is first, always, right? The thought before there's a word or any
no, no. nothing is impossible, so something must be.
My thanks, a shout out to A. Conan Doyle, a sir or something I believe,
He gave us both the 5% solution and the Piltdown Hoax.
Timed for real ation, or revelation 20 years after 20 landmarks
surfaced. Holmes winked at Jesus, I know what you mean.
Something is possible. Nothing is not.
Yes. Good News. Quite.
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 10:06 PM UTC