loving you is like picking
the petals from a flower
i hate you, i miss you, i
hate you, i miss you
but whichever petal i end
up with, will you please
come back?

When I consider, pro and con,
What things my love is built upon--
A curly mouth; a sinewed wrist;
A questioning brow; a pretty twist
Of words as old and tried as sin;
A pointed ear; a cloven chin;
Long, tapered limbs; and slanted eyes
Not cold nor kind nor darkly wise--
When so I ponder, here apart,
What shallow boons suffice my heart,
What dust-bound trivia capture me,
I marvel at my normalcy.

I have wasted my life away.
While you looked the other way.
I sat alone and cried, man it was rough.
You made me feel like ****, I wasn't good enough.
I eventually gave up on a happy life.
Screaming for you, while holding a knife.

Because when you lose your drive...
It's hard to stay alive.

She's a lot prettier then me.
Anyone can clearly see.

Whereas I am just a broken heart.
You knew this from the very start.

I was waiting for someone to come by.
Hoping that one day, I too can fly.

Then you showed up and I smiled more.
Hoping it was you knocking on my door.

But she's more open and outgoing.
It's like she's all knowing.

I'm afraid to be in her shadow.
Because it makes me feel so ******* low.

You began to fall.
And that's what ended it all.

You spin her and kiss her perfect lips.
And each time you do so, my heart rips.

That girl doesn't deserve you.
Because the truth is I do.

I loved you from day one.
Little did I know it was just for fun.

I've fought for so long.
This all feels so wrong.

You're supposed to be mine.
So no, **** it, I'm not ******* fine.

Every day I hear about your love for her.
Because everyone knew you were gay.
And then suddenly you changed your mind.
You aren't supposed to ****** him away.

You told everyone you knew what you wanted.
Never did I think it'd be a man.
Because I thought you were in love with her.
And I could have loved him more then you can.

Confusion spins around my head.
Its almost as if everything was a lie.
But the pain will eventually leave.
Because everything does eventually die.

But in the end I thought we were friends.
Clearly that was a mistake for me to think.
Its almost laughable at first thought.
As I drown my tears in another drink.

Friends aren't supposed to hurt you.
They're not supposed to make you upset.
If anything they're supposed to be.
Your only safety net.

Now the final game is over.
And the deed has already been done.
You've completely ruined everything.
I guess you have won.

It appears your victory is present.
You broke a selfless heart.
By simply taking away the boy she loved.
And tearing her apart.

I know
it doesn't
matter
now.

I can't
remember
if it
ever
did.

My Love is like a Star
But why do you seem so far,
I don't think you should know
But I'm crazy about you so,
My heart melts into tiny bits
When I see you on the street,
Can't you see?
That my love is like a star.

My eyes has beheld the sight,
Of a thousand blue light,
And I want to wander
Into your glorious danger,
That your perfect smile,
Which makes me stagger for a while.
Can't you see?
That our love is like a star.

You're my star,
You ****** my mind so far.
And you're my favorite song,
I want you to sing along.
I shiver when you kiss so hard,
So take my hand.
Let us expose our silliness,
Our love is a madness.

your sadness is showing,
put it away.
no one wants to see
your depression today.

it's not time for that,
some might say,
its so unbecoming
to act that way.

your anxiety is showing,
tuck it in.
the world shows no interest
in what's under your skin.

take a deep breath,
that's where you begin,
or, that's what they say
with a pat and a grin.

your illness is showing,
keep it away.
no one is interested
in that anyway.

but by letting it fester,
and by letting it stay,
it might make me
disappear some day.