Iv been there for you
Iv been tough for you
Iv been happiness for you
Iv been caring for you
Iv been you for you, when you couldn't be you.

Iv been everything for you..

But iv also been

Alone
Sad
Depressed
Hurtful
Angry
Watching you hurt yourself, ruin your self crying out for help from everyone but me like I was never there, taken for granted and you couldnt care less.

I just want to love you, but if it isnt right, what can I do?

My heart hurts for the girls wishing to be done.
But mostly it breaks for the innocent one.

Crying over the boys who dragged her down.
She's trying so **** hard not to drown.

My head pounds hard like a fist knocking on a door.
I'm feeling the sting as I sink to the floor.

Broken and beaten is all I can feel.
Wishing this whole thing wasn't even real.

I realize I am too falling for a boy.
Who's been using me for the sheer purpose of joy.

My stomach is hurting like I'm going to be sick.
It's like he's a team captain and he gets his first pick.

I guess I should be lucky I was his number one choice.
But I can never stop hearing his deep raspy voice.

The buzzing in my ear never disappears.
It's as if I'm living my worst fears.

Soon I begin to understand the pain.
I understand why people are in love with the rain.

One thing is promised, to me it's a fact.
I will be ****** if I ever turn back.

His voice reminds me of blades, sharp yet slick.
It can cut through skin but never can cut through brick.

His hair reminds me of silk, soft like his lips.
Sometimes it sends tingles through my finger tips.

His smile reminds me of my dreams, constantly following me.
He is so **** beautiful but he can't even see.

Every piece of him just remindes me, that I can never call him mine.
Its like I'm always lying, when I tell him I am fine.

Goodbyes are never wanted by us,
But instead they are our deepest fears.
Leaving us broken and afraid,
Hoping not to shed any tears.

But when you're sitting alone in your room,
And you feel a part of you has died.
"Take deep breaths," they tell you,
"At least you can say that you've tried."

But it's almost laughable,
Because no one knows the pain in your heart.
It's a salty smile you taste,
You might as well tell him he has torn you apart.

Knowing he will never hold me like that again.
Knowing it's possibly the very end.

Knowing he kissed me and left me alone.
Knowing that I am now on my own.

Knowing how easy it was for him to just up and leave.
Knowing how hard it was for me to even breathe.

Knowing is the true power that can conquer all.
But knowing he's gone will be my greatest downfall.

I have wasted my life away.
While you looked the other way.
I sat alone and cried, man it was rough.
You made me feel like ****, I wasn't good enough.
I eventually gave up on a happy life.
Screaming for you, while holding a knife.

Because when you lose your drive...
It's hard to stay alive.

She's a lot prettier then me.
Anyone can clearly see.

Whereas I am just a broken heart.
You knew this from the very start.

I was waiting for someone to come by.
Hoping that one day, I too can fly.

Then you showed up and I smiled more.
Hoping it was you knocking on my door.

But she's more open and outgoing.
It's like she's all knowing.

I'm afraid to be in her shadow.
Because it makes me feel so ******* low.

You began to fall.
And that's what ended it all.

You spin her and kiss her perfect lips.
And each time you do so, my heart rips.

That girl doesn't deserve you.
Because the truth is I do.

I loved you from day one.
Little did I know it was just for fun.

I've fought for so long.
This all feels so wrong.

You're supposed to be mine.
So no, **** it, I'm not ******* fine.

One day they're going to forget about you.
They're going to move on.
One day they're going to disappear.
They're going to be long gone.

One day they're going to be with someone else.
They're going to start a family.
One day they're going to have everything.
They're going to be happy.

One day they're going to sit and think.
They're going to be listening to music in their car.
One day they're going to hear your favorite song.
They're going to wonder where you are.

One day they're going to see that the lyrics finally make sense.
They're going to think they should have noticed before.
One day they're going to see the connection.
They're going to realize you're the one they're meant for.

One day they're going to have sadness growing in their hearts.
They're going to try and blame fate.
One day they're going to feel the pain.
They're going to be already far too late.