Van: Favorites

Jul 2015 Van

Lachrymose and Lies

It's almost like
I close my eyes and you're gone
I don't feel you anymore
Like I used to
It's been too long
I reach out but all I see
Is darkness
Surrounding me
A void of which I can't control
You were all I had
I gave it all
Heart and soul
Only to close my eyes and have you go
Just like that, it's crazy
You know
To think
Once was there like the loudest drum
Only to murmur now
The slightest hum
It beats for you no more
You see
It's ok, I'll be right
I can breathe
I'll open my eyes for all to see
In hope that someone
Is reaching back
for me
x

#love #depression #lonely #thoughts #her #him #you #me #heartache

May 2015 Van

Perhaps a Stepping Stone

May 2015 Van

L Marie

Perhaps a Stepping Stone

Perhaps your duty in my life
Was to serve as a stepping stone
Between the love I leave behind
And the one that has yet to grow.
Perhaps you were meant to tempt me
From this oncoming disaster
But push me far enough away
Into the arms of my soul mate.
Maybe I should be thanking you
For this disappointment I feel
But I know that in the moment
I just wish I was in your arms.

#love #lonely #future #forward #stone #arms #stepping

Apr 2015 Van

Friend

Apr 2015 Van

Katie Biesiada

Friend

I don't feel supported,
Or loved by your words.

Friends should make each other feel good, that's what we're here for.

I never hear "you're beautiful"
Or "you're perfect the way you are"
When I need it most,
When I'm struggling with my sense of self.

I don't need a pity party,
And I'm not an attention seeker,
But every now and then a nudge
From you
Would mean the world
To me.

I'm not as strong as I like to think,
I'm very apt to break,
And I've become weaker
Without the love I need to grow.

I don't want to lose you,
That's the worst that I can fear,
I just want you to gently remind me
That you care.

#sad #lonely #sadness #depressed #alone #dark #friend #thoughts

Apr 2015 Van

The End.

Apr 2015 Van

Mavis Mayhem

The End.

The End plays softly,
Dancing upon my ears.
My soul rests gently
There are no more tears.

Up and down like gentle waves,
Breathing deeply: no pain remains.
Drifting away, lost at sea.
What do you see when you look at me?

The hurt in my eyes,
Or tear stains on my cheeks?
The heartbreak you left me,
In volumes it speaks.

But alas, sadness does not forever last,
The sun will shine again and help me move past.
Your hold over me is broken for good,
My heart is mending, just as it should.

#love #sad #life #end #loss #happiness #new #heartache #beginnings #mending

Apr 2015 Van

Sweet Dreams

Apr 2015 Van

Bernhard Tischler

Sweet Dreams

I know.
I should be happy for them.
After all they are my best friends and
they found each other.
They deserve each other, deserve someone good.

It's just that I want her.
So much.
I will miss the nightly chats with her,
because she won't have time anymore.

She didn't know it,
but talking with her saved me.
She filled the gaping hole
my former girlfriend left.
She fixed the broken mirror
which was my soul.
She is the reason
I got sane
again.

It hurts.
Why?
She never told she loved me anyway,
so why does it hurt?

How many days will it hurt, how many months?
My stomach crumbles, sun goes down.
I just want to sleep, sleep sweet
and dream that she chose me.

#love #broken #sad #sadness #heartache

Apr 2015 Van

on clashing sadnesses

Apr 2015 Van

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on clashing sadnesses

sometimes it is hard to be a person

trashing my bedroom because
i lost my photo album
full of pictures of my dad and i
and the speeches my uncles made
at his funeral

laying on the couch and watching tv
crying when a character attempts to end it all
because i'm taken back to october
and the hopes of what would have happened
if he decided not to jump

getting accepted into 9/10 of the colleges i applied to
and having no idea what to do next
desperate desire to talk to him
or voice how terrified i am to my family
but trapped inside myself

it is very hard to be a person

#sad #death #college