Speechless beyond imagination.
Praying for reincarnation.
Rest peaceful, your beautiful soul.
I will never again be whole.
Shattered pieces, but only half.
You have the rest, Dad.

Missing you every single day.
I love you I love you, I pray.
Echoes of your voice in my head
Listening to all the things you said.
Wishing for one last hug and kiss
Everything about you I miss.

pick my lifeless body off the ground
you know who did it, he beat me down
I tried to stop, but the words slipped out of my mouth
There was no stopping, the secret is out.
Take this body, turn it into ash,
Punch through this life, can't promise no cast
Kiss me on the cheek, it's poisonous.
**** me under your sheets, it's dangerous.
My insanity will go from me to you
Passing for only a moment to see the view.
Cry to your family and friends
Go ahead, beg me, this isn't the ******* end.
Now let's try and pretend this broken heart can mend.

Frail is life with its deceptive elegance
As we live off the tranquilizing ignorance
Unconvinced of the reality we choose to accept
But unwilling to change, there is nothing left

Words amalgamated cannot be separated
They cannot be taken back, nor cremated.
As you set your delicate hand above the flame
Sacrificing flesh for your hearts reclaim

It’s hard to imagine that seven months ago you were here
Only a phone call or a drive away
It’s hard to imagine that although you’re gone our lives continue to move forward
Still dealing with the trivial problems of the living
Still looking at the small framed pictures of our lives
Still unappreciative of the time that we have with one another
I’ve learned a lot through all of this, the true nature of human beings.
How easily amused by material and lust
And how easily agitated with the past they cannot change
And yet when those who have passed come into our minds like shooting stars
We realize where we are, who we’ve lost, and how far we’ve come.

I miss your eternal soul that was once connected to this earth

At no time did anticipate the discovery I made through loneliness
How exceptionally comfortable I felt concealed in its presence;
Yet drained of all my accustomed, conventional thoughts on happiness
Trapping myself in the confines of these four wheels awaiting guidance

Another year, another celebration, another reason to drink
Sobriety; A term no one dare speak
To get through troubled times, you’ve got to get high
Or something of the sort, a level to abide by
Memories of years past are mostly a blur
Just a few characters I was or were

Another year filled with more celebrations
So we can all get our fixations
What’s new, what’s cool, who’s dead now?
Stop these emotions, I will not allow.
We can’t keep thinking that we are free
So many situations that we can’t see
Nothing is certain, nothing is forever,
We are just on this endless endeavor
Until we are lead into the next plane of existence
Don’t struggle don’t fight, they don’t like resistance.

No longer wearing my heart on my sleeve, it gives me nothing but an infectious disease.
A disease called caring and giving a ****, something I can’t do anymore, I’m not fit.
Back in the shell I created long ago, don’t expect a smile; I’ll never let it show.
I burden I can no longer bear, a sense of loneliness that’s always been there.
I just want to be loved and thought about, but this is my punishment, no doubt.
This feeling of being hated I can’t shake, I don’t know how much more I can take.
You’re being so cold, so distant, why should I try if you’re not going to listen.
I want the throw in the towel, just give up, but I love you too much.
But love isn’t a one way street, and I’m the only one on it, where are we supposed to meet?
Or are you not here, are you far away?  Waiting for me to die and decay.