Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
Nikki Jun 2013
The way that you make me feel doesn’t make sense.
I look into your eyes, and the whole world falls into place.
And when I’m not with you, I feel this dark emptiness grow inside of me.
It smothers me and causes so much pain.
Is this love that I feel? Or am I just insane?
I want to continue, carry on with the plan.
I want to love you endlessly, unconditionally and deeply.
And I’m hoping you’ll love me back if you can.
You’re perfect to me, and I hope that’s all you need
To fall in love, and let our ignorance take the lead
copyright. nicole s.
Nikki Nov 2012
my moods are constantly
changing
an endless roller coaster
of emotions and I can't
hang on tight enough.
I'm being
thrown around
leaving me ******
and bruised
just hoping for
a moment
to breathe and
collect all
of the
broken pieces
of my
heart.



copyright@nicolelea
Nikki Nov 2012
holding you close as you breath softly in your sleep
love courses through my veins, so deep
your smile gives me butterflies I can't shake
and I can't begin to describe the feelings you create.

the smell of you still lingers on my skin and clothes
as it starts to fade, I start to loath
that your scent will no longer be around
as I say goodbye I've fallen to the ground  

you're not gone forever, I know
but I can't help letting my emotions show.
I already miss you, even before we said goodbye
I will get through this, or at least I'll try.

Copyright @ Nicole Stowe
Nikki Oct 2012
goodnight dark world, filled with rejection and hate
only using my deep emotional turmoil as bait
falling asleep is giving in they say
but I can't stand another moment of this day
fueling the fire of thoughts that devour my mind
looking for answers that I will never find
I should just give up and let the world destroy my heart
take it's cold deceptive hands and rip me apart.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
Goodnight my prince, the love of my life,
I wish that someday I could be your wife
To walk down the isle and see your face,
I would be in a beautiful white dress with lace
You smile at me and I smile back,
Love and admiration are things we wouldn't lack.
God I love you with every inch of my heart
Being away from you is tearing me apart
Can't we start over? Can't we start again?
I don't want to be out of your life forever, I'm okay with being friends.
But know ill always love you, lets make that clear,
You're all that's in my heart and soul forever my dear.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
Screaming at the top of my lungs,
Screaming for help but nobody comes.
Throwing up my insides, covered in blood
Drowning in my shame, consumed by the flood

Into the darkness, my soul is devoured
Taking my own life, some call me a coward
The pain is too great, the shame is too real
I’m tired of emotions, I don’t want to feel.

Destroyed are my walls of protection,
Vulnerable and open in all directions
Stab at me with your knives
Watch me suffer, scream in pain and die.

I’ll never be good enough, I’ll never be right,
I deserve to suffer every single night.
I can’t be strong anymore, I’ve lost the fight.
And tonight is the night when I take my life.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
I’ll love you forever no matter the case
Your trust and forgiveness is what I chase.
Shame and disgust is all I feel
Without you around makes it all so real.
I know you’re not gone, at least not forever
But I can’t stand the reality that we aren’t together.

My tears and apologies make no difference
The only thing keeping me away from you is the distance.
I just want to see you
And hold you close to my heart
But I know that will never happen because we are apart.

I wish that I could comfort you like you did for me
Standing close to my side and refusing to leave.
I took this all for granted, I had what everyone wants
My shame and hatred for myself haunts,
Every crevice of my life, every moment of the day
I’m sorry I wrote this for you, I’ll go away.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Next page