Screaming at the top of my lungs,
Screaming for help but nobody comes.
Throwing up my insides, covered in blood
Drowning in my shame, consumed by the flood
Into the darkness, my soul is devoured
Taking my own life, some call me a coward
The pain is too great, the shame is too real
I’m tired of emotions, I don’t want to feel.
Destroyed are my walls of protection,
Vulnerable and open in all directions
Stab at me with your knives
Watch me suffer, scream in pain and die.
I’ll never be good enough, I’ll never be right,
I deserve to suffer every single night.
I can’t be strong anymore, I’ve lost the fight.
And tonight is the night when I take my life.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012