I didn't expect you to meet me.
That was not permitted.
I didn't expect you to kiss me.
That was not permitted.
I didn't expect you to love me.
That was FORBIDDEN .

I was prisoner of my shadow.
When I met you.
I was warrior of my darkness.
When I kissed you.
I was soul of your body.
When I loved you.
LOVE.
Destructive .
Confusing.
Lonely .
Love.
You.
We.
I

We at the rock
Yeah that one
That big rock
Heated by sun
Beside the calming water
Nothing matters

Meet me at the rock.
Where we first met.
Where we first kissed.
Black coffee, white suger and ocean mist
Laying beside each other in the shade
Where we can just be us.
Under a shade with palms of a tree

Meet me at the rock
My mind’s favorite place to wander,
Because you’re always there
Waiting, welcoming.
Dreaming seeing.
Arms wide open
Words need not spoken

When I close my eyes
I can’t wait to dream
Because no matter the weather
Sunshine will be at the rock.

Meet me at our spot
I will listen to the waves waiting
By that spot, by that rock
By that shade, near that rock.
By that spot where we first met

The system Broke you
Without a scratch
Or a scar to show for it
You were vivacious creature full of the joys of life
But you just got quieter
that’s what they wanted
Isn’t it?
that system made you submit
It forced you to conform
It twisted your mind and contorted your soul
Into its little box
its perfect padded cells with cast iron locks
Say what you feel
But only it’s it’s correct
Speak your truth
As long as it’s what the memo says
They tell you they’ll give you an education
But it’s never what you’d expect
They take your soul
didn’t you read the small text?

Thank you father for teaching me.
Your subpar parenting and lack of anything taught me to be a much better man.
You see father I am a Dad.
This accomplishment didn't come from books or any sort of guidance from you father.
It came when my son was born.
I knew that day I would do anything for him. I became a Father and a dad at the same time.
Unfortunately you are just my father.
A lower case father.
An ignorant man not dad
Never am I like you ever
For I am a Dad

I want to feel
your heartbeat like a song,
that wonder
I thought had gone

To walk along
the sands of time,
to feel your warmth
like summer

To be beside you
like a dream,
knowing each other
as one

what wonders in love
to hear you speak,
like an angel
please wrap your wings
around my being

For now
is
forever

all my life
i've been preparing faces
to meet the faces that
i've met

friends
family
the man who delivers newspapers
at our doorstep each morning

i've laughed at their silly jokes
as they tossed their heads from side to side
in naive stupidity and their sheer ignorance
a pompous lot, the human race i tell you

i've acknowledged their staunch morals
and tried to make them my own
as they scorned at the girl in a skimpy dress
and chewed on mutton bones gluttonously

all my life, i've been trying hard
to blend in
with people who've shown me
that i don't belong with them

and tonight when i shed gallons of tears
i have only my bed and pillow to share
i've learnt that my sadness
is my very own

Ah yes, the magic of human touch,
Trusting to warm my soul's skin
Tis nature of loves connection, as such.

My body accepts, oh if you only knew
Like an honored guest, I grin
Anticipating the pleasures, one of the few.

Skin to skin, our bodies converse.
Uninhabited, my mind wander
Deep inside, my craving thirsts.

Artful hands sculpt with purpose
Lulling layers open, you're quite the artist
Soothing caress melt my body formless

I'm yours, silently, I surrender.
As my flesh cries out for more
Arching waves of splendor

Rewarded my senses sated.
With newfound clarity reborn
Mind, body and spirit replenished.

I thank you for your gift of touch.
Lovingly, I would return the favor,
as such.

Hope is like this amazing thing
A silent wind.
Breathes on my face.
Coming from a place unknown
Sit still and listen as it is blown
Like silent as a bird
Flying by
Sit and listen
Close your eyes
Breeze passes with some answers
Sit and listen and hope

Did you ever feel more for someone then yourself?
Like a something inside but outside your self. Like a power inside when you look outside. Do i make just a sense for myself?
One must feel that other then me.
Like a seed grows a tree.
Like a sun burning through a cloud.
A whisper that is so loud.
A breeze that brings many things.
That breeze on my face brought to me. Flowing smiles from far away.
Crying loss from yesterday.
Blowing breeze i feel on my face.
That breeze passes on to the next.
Do you see it like I do?
Smell that breeze where did it come from??? What passion did it bring?
What memories of all things?
Did you ever feel more for someone then yourself?
Whispers hit my face through the breeze.
I hear them loud and clear.
My breeze will not stay here.
Wind blows to the next and blows to the next ........ forever listening can you hear?