What about me
I've memorised your melodies
I held back emotions
Studied your condition
But what about me
I'm drowning
And your watching
Maybe I was wrong to invest in you
Our love is crashing
This **** is depressing
I'd ask for your love
But what about me.

Loving you was like driving with a blindfold on.
I was reckless.
I wanted you to be my lighthouse
But little did I know your lights were out
They have been for some time now,
Maybe if I try hard enough she'll shine that neon light that first caught my sight
Maybe if I put her demons over mine maybe then she will shine.
Maybe then she'd be mine.
But over time you
You drained my energy
And stole my shine.
You had me looking at my reflection wandering if it were mine.

I want you
Or maybe just a minute of your time
I wonder how your hands feel inside mine
I want to see you laugh
I want to watch you talk
Listen to you sing
Copy your dance
And be captivated by your walk
I want you
And all of your attention
Be mine for the moment
However long our conversation
One hour or ten
Darling put down your phone
And grab my hand
come closer to me
let's embrace our sin
I want you

I pray for peace
For I dont want to keep fighting
My first are brused
My breath is faint
My shoulders cant hold this weight
Depression is taking over
I pray for happiness
For I am starting to forget my smile
I placed my most prized possession in the hands of the unworthy.
I am a seed that never got to grow
So young and dumb how was I supposed to know
You can't expect to be a tree when you surround yourself in bad soil.
You will rot
I pray for independence
For I cant seem to love myself anymore
She took my confidence when she walk out the door.
She left all her luggage
I carry it around with me just incase we cross paths
I pray we never cross paths
For I'm not strong enough to stand on my own
I fear she'll always be my comfort zone
She never really understood the unknown