We always want the expectations
The dreams and wishes we have
We set our path and preparations
To achieve these promises in hand
We try to avoid reality
The unwanted truth
We build a wall for actuality
To achieve our desired youth
“Expectations are perfect”
But what does perfect mean
Is it just getting all your dreams come true
Or is it to get what you see on a screen
Maybe it is just to make it through
“Reality hurts”
But with pain comes strength and wisdom
If we are always sitting pleasant
Getting what we want in our kingdom
Then what’s the point of going to heaven

we might complain about our situation now
" I am so bored I had enough"
" I want to see my friends this is so rough"
" I wish I can go outside and have fun"
" I need to shop for the new stuff"
yet others may smile and bow
" god thank you for keeping me alright"
" thank god I found a place to sleep tonight"
" I am blessed with my family at sight"
" god thank you for the food and clothes you gave in this daylight"

My heart hurts so much
As pain starts to rush
I maybe over exaggerating
Or just hopelessly debating
But I feel cracks expand
When I can’t feel your hand
I feel so very weak
Yet I can’t go to sleep
When I think for countless minutes
Of all the possible struggles and limits
That I will not be with you
That dreams will never come true
I never thought that for a moment
Time could be so worthless
For a person who doesn’t even care
Wither I am sad, happy, or just there
It’s strange that my heart stings
And my head rings
For someone so far of hold
In both body and soul

I am either fire or ice
There is no in between
I am either below zero
Or a flame you can see

You fall in a dark hole sometimes
You start to panic and scream

You think your about to die sometimes
You think that no one is near

But if you just take a moment to think
A moment to relax and breath

You will notice the hole will start to shrink
As diamonds and gold fill up under your feet

Once upon a time in a century
The idea of passion and love was history
It never occurred to a young mind
That there is a lover that hides
And although many signs were written
The heart was not smitten
Yet as the time went by
And the moon glowed in the sky
The mind started to wake up
And the heart started to open up
As the eyes looked in the stars above
The heart started to whisper “ could it be love?”

If a fish can’t fly in the sky
And a bird can’t swim in the sea
Then how can I expect to be something
That is simply just not me

Sliding down the edge of the moon
Touching the glowing river of stars
Crystal clear clouds in the mid of June
While dandelions spark and sing on Mars

Stars aligned
Shining bright
Crystal snow
City glow
Slow pace
Beautiful face
Red roses
Looking flawless
Warm covers
Watching lovers
Butterflies tingle
Scents linger
Candles flicker
This can’t get better

Everyone has that one to laugh with
Sit on the stair case and give a small kiss

Everyone has that one to talk to
Dance with and say “ I love you”

Everyone has that one to go around the world
Explore the cities and play with the birds

Everyone has that one to cry to
Open their heart about what they went through

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’s gem

Cause everyone has that one to settle with
Buy a big house and watch their kids

Everyone has that one to goof around
Bantering about the things they found

Everyone has that one to make things right
Drives them crazy and whisper through the night

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’a gem
Wondering if it will even happen
And when?

Magical spirits of the night
Take me to the raising light
Where no human has a sight
And all things glow bright

As darkness strikes the night
And Lanterns light up the sky

An owl flies like a kite
Through the wind cry

Brown and white wings
And sharp crystal eyes

Standing on the tree twigs
As mountains rise

Small feathers fall
As the moon so bright

An owl calls
For shadows in sight

Love is this
Love is that
But in reality
Love is never this
Love is never that
Love can be anything
You think is “this” or “that”

The drops of rain
Covering the streets
The smell of coffee
Warming the air
The slowing of thoughts
Bringing the peace
The sound of the car engine
Lurking in your chair
The shades of dark blue
Settle with ease
The emptiness of noise
Which is so rare
The state of happiness
That I can’t leave

Love is blind
Love is pain
Love is intensely
Both beautiful and strange

Motivation isn’t to do
It is to think about doing
Just like strength isn’t to speak
But it is to be silent

At the age of 5 you were my superhero
A Superman with powerful strength
At the age of 12 you were my idol
A man with the unexpected best
At the age of 16 you were a bother
I considered myself the unheard victim
At the age of 18 you were my friend
You filled me with advice and wisdom
At the age of 20 you were my angel
You put all of my sorrows to an end
At the age of 23 you were my dad
That is not a superhero but a king

Am I the only one who sees the truth in people?
Am I the only one who knows ok is not
or a fake soul is easy to spot
Am I the only one who can accept reality?
Am I the only one who knows what is a true friend
and not just an ignorant who goes with the trend
Am I the only one who knows what is right or wrong?
Am I the only one who values my morals
and listen to the peaceful chorals  
Am I the only one who is truthful?
Am I the only one who is an open book
But yet I am still misunderstood
We keep on asking ourselves if I am the only one
When in reality we are non

East, west, north, south
I will never have a doubt
Our hearts will always be together
Even when buried it will always be forever

The sun sets on a narrow plane
Hugging the clouds covering the seas
A picture that god paints
Making all hearts rest to peace

I miss you
Although I haven’t meet you
I need you
Although I haven’t seen you
I love you
Although I haven’t known you

These days are over
These days are gone
When you made me feel like I was the one
These days are over
These days are done
When one touch made me feel numb
These days are over
These days are torn apart
When your smile stole my heart
These days are over
These days are dark
When your eyes were a piece of art
These days are over
These days are lost
When our footsteps and love crossed
It was wonderful until we paid the cost

You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the pain I felt
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the secrets I held
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the heart I killed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I have seen
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I dreamed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I bleed
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my rage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my cage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my ache
You are not patient
Oh if only you were aware
If only you just listened and cared
You will ask “ how do you bare?”

It’s like a race against time
“Should I quit the fight?”
“Or should I hold tight?”

Silence is not a sign of weakness
Yet it is a subtle art
Words can save your temper
But silence will save your soul

In my head
Right next to the moon
That’s where I keep you

Picture the brightest light
Reflecting the crescent moon
Under the gleaming night
Hearing the sweet calm tunes
Holding the stars very tight
And making the haze swoon

When your soul awakes
Your chest expands
Your breath slows down
And your hands relax

When your soul awakes
You feel a river flow
Inside your body
It starts to grow

When your soul awakes
You see things so bright
Even the faddist colors
In the darkest night

When your soul awakes
You drown in relief  
As the wind blows
Your heart beats

I took my first step, letting you down with what I did
pushed you far and then I watched you fall

But you took the key, never setting my heart free
You just stood up and left with it all

I know it’s too late
I know there is not a chance

I know it’s not faith
But you just don’t understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

“Just take a sip, from the poison that you did”
Never felt so pathetically small

sent so many letters, hoping things will get better
Thought you would finally answer my call

I know it’s not much
I know there is not a chance

But I still have that rush
And you don’t seem to understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Even after all this time I know we both can
I still think of you I still feel you hand

Even though we’re far apart a thousand miles
I still care for you I still see your smile

Cause I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

I notice people connect with simple poems
Like the simplest of feelings expressed in poems

Not the complicated vocabulary type of poems
Or the overly tragic/happy poems

Just the simplest words written in poems
Are the most memorable type of poems

Day and night
Disappear out of sight
Brown, white, black, and other
Spots, stripes, and plain cover
Run around the house
“Oh! I saw a mouse”
Eyes wide and focused
Trying it’s best not to get noticed
As it’s curious fur brushes the air
And it’s naughty whiskers flare
“It’s time to go to sleep”
“Don’t touch me you freak!”
“Stroke my head and repeat”
“Give me something better to eat”
Indeed they are prestigious creatures

we will live till the end
we will never understand what is meant
some people don't have the chance to live
and for this time is a gift
every second you spent
wither it is something you sent
or something you wish to prevent
at the end
we sit there wondering where time went

If you ever break my heart
I will forgive you
If you ever lie to me
I will forgive you
If you betray me
I will forgive you
If you broke my spine
Or ever made me cry
I will forgive you
If you ever leave me
I will forgive you
If you ever steal from me
I will forgive you
If you ever took my work
Or acted like a ****
I will forgive you
If you ever mock me
I will forgive you
If you ever hurt me
I will forgive you
If you didn’t keep a promise
Or disturbed my calmness
I will forgive you
I will forgive you
Because at the end of the day
God will judge you

I want what they have
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what they have
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what they have

And as they all looked back at me and exhaled
I want what she has
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what she has
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what she has

And at that I slowly rested my eyes and said
Maybe I don’t want what they have
Maybe I don’t feel so bad
The part of what makes me glad
Is right where I stand
And not having what they have

I am not sad
I am not sad about the lies you told me
I am not sad about the ways you fooled me
I am not sad about the fact you left me
I am disappointed
I am disappointed at the memories we made
I am disappointed at the time I have waste
I am disappointed at the person you became

Sun goes down
Stars shine bright
Galaxies spread
Through the night

Hold my hand
Bring me close
Music starts
Playing the notes

As we dance
Under the moon
Floating in space
Gently in June

Clouds and hues
Cover our feet
Hearts listen
To the beat

Calmness builds up
Eyes are close
Glowing ember
Starts to grow

Lost in time
You are the one
Said the three words
That I said to none

they say you are so mean
your heart is cold
if you fell from a tree
you won't break cause your stone
you are the cruelest to ever be
and will always be alone
if only they knew my mean words were reality
and not to make them groan
for I may sound so beastly
but on the inside there is gold

When the clouds turn crystal white
A whisper of silence comes to sight

By a cold wind sneaking through the trees
And a crystal flake kissing the leaves

As the pouring rain turns to a wonder
And the white streets become longer

A view that looks like a dream
It’s true, winter has come indeed

In a silent night
And wind moving in peace
A glimpse of a girl’s shadow
Rises on the streets
With her sparkling wand
And mystical cat
She flies across the town
Wearing her pointy hat
Collecting star dust and plants
Mixing herbs and casting spells
Looking at the crystals
For whom needs help
Interpreting lucid dreams
And Talking to sprits
In her magical breathless sanctuary
Writing her spells like lyrics
She drinks some tea
And then goes to sleep

I got options A,B, and C
But what should I choose?

I still can’t clearly see
Which option is a win or lose

My future is on the line
And I must do what is must

But for the first time
I just feel lost…

Your idea of life
Will be reflected on your journey
No one has an easy path
But some carry on head high
While others cry at the beginning line
So think positively
No negative possibility
Feed your faith
It is not late
For what is meant for you shall come
In the right time, state, and place

I am no philosopher
I have never fallen in love
However if I do have to define it
I would say a mother’s first look at her child
A father’s tired smile
A friend who is your armor
And a lover’s respect towards their partner

One person’s sadness
Is another person’s happiness

One person’s want
Is another person’s need

One person’s reality
Is another person’s dream

This universe has a billion stars
In our lives we see a billion stars
Each of them close together
You wish you would look at them forever
However there is one moon in the sky
All alone as the birds fly
This universe only has one moon
In our lives we see only one moon
I wish I would be the moon in your life

A small romantic gesture
Is all you need

To block out the world
And watch people leave

Listening to the hollow whispers
And that one song that makes you blush

You feel the beating drums in your ears
You feel the sudden rush

You try to look away
But you keep your gaze

As if roses were blooming in their eyes
And you can’t break the pace

A small romantic gesture
They make

Can make you feel
Like you haven’t walked for days

A sweet scent of vanilla and musk
Fills the entire room

You don’t know if this is it
Or is it too soon

Mistakes and wrecks were done before
A heart can only bear much

So how is it still so weak and tender
To a single romantic touch ?

A gazing mind
So lost in time
Shines at night
Drifts off sight
At rays of light

“Knock!knock!” the sound came
The door opened very slowly

“Hi heart how is your pain?”
“Worst..” he replied coldly

The room was pitch black
As the empty hallow filled

“Well don’t be so sad”
“You just need to be held”

There were cracks in the ceiling
And dust that filled the chimney

“I know it’s hard to let go of the feeling”
“But then you will heal quickly ”

The heart started to shake
“But what if there was still hope!”

“Heart, you need to let go for your own sake”
“You need to move on and cope”

A moment of silence went by
I knew heart was doubting

I then sat and let out a sigh
“if it is written for you, it will come for you, even if the mountains were shouting and the world was drowning”

“you think so..” the heart said
As the lights started to begin

“I know so” I nodded my head
And that’s when the heart lived again

The more I look into your eyes
The crazier I get
Realizing I will never
Be the person to fit
All these dreams and fantasies
You have already set
What should I do
Knowing your the person I will never get

I wish I had a heart of stone
No sadness or broken bones

I wish my heart was not foolish
And can dodge every bullet

I wish my heart was crystal clear
No words to hide or disappear

I wish my heart was not beating
And would not keep on bleeding

I wish I had a heart of stone
No constant pain or sore

What should I write next
After endless of hours thinking
And making a long list
I look at my paper sinking
I have already described it all
Every emotion
Every feeling
Every fall
I sit there wondering in my thought
Realizing the dark space in my head
There are words that I have fought
Words that will never be said
I feel embarrassed almost ashamed
Of writing these sentences on paper
I know I am no where to be blamed
For the heart circus maker
I am scared of being judged
By a sprit
By a friend
Or a person I loved
Yet I still want to let this burden out
You can say I want to be free of it
And **** every single doubt
But I surrender and at the end I quit
God please give me the patience
You don’t give someone something he can’t take
Everyday is full of emptiness and hesitation
Holding myself together so I don’t break
At the end of the day I know the words are true
I
Love
You