I feel grey
It’s just one of those days
Not white or black
Not happy or sad
Just grey

Diamond rain drops flow
Down the streaming river
Of heartbreak and sorrow
Wondering will this be forever

I am in this space
Where peace and anger roam
A place where I feel wise
But also think too soon
My head keeps on bleeding
In all possible directions
Thinking it will be lost
But in reality still has its connections
My heart feels heavy
Yet rests with ease
Having faith in its creator
Knowing he will please
My body seems to be growing
But time seems to go back
To a place of childlike behavior
With an adult’s act

Getting stuck in the artistic sense
Is very frustrating and draining
You feel like your talent is for rent
Not something you possess
One day it’s all pages filled up
The next day you want to give up
It always seems that the more we feel
Wither it’s happy or sad  
The more we crack our creative shield
Maybe that’s the point of it all
The journey of art
Should pick you up when you fall

Learn to be alone
Learn to be happy
Learn to be satisfied
Learn to be you
Don’t waste your time
Thinking about how and who?

It started in the summer
The day things changed
The unlocking of a heart
To a thing that was unmeant
The rush of tears and ache
Along all the sleepless nights
Wondering what went wrong

I know your out there
Somewhere wondering around
Chatting with your friends
Or maybe sleeping in
I don’t know you yet
Your likes and turn offs
The personality traits you hold on
But I already miss you
I wanna hold you in my arms
Although I have never met you

Hold me
And never let go
I need some warmth
To let my tears flow

Time is flying
People fighting
Till the suns low

Hold me
As the lights dim
Don’t go running
Like they all did

I want to scream at the world
I want to shut all doors
I want to be left alone
I want to break the rules
I want to shatter the glass
I want to yell at my wounds
I want to erase my past

Ground shaking beneath me
Time crumbles in my hand
The speed of light strikes
And slows my list of chance
I know I am young
The path is way ahead
But there is so much to be done
My dreams, career, and life
Depend on me right now
Yet my “living in the moment”
Is long gone somehow
What am is supposed to do?
Should I have fun and live?
Find a person to spend my time with?
Building a plan for when I quit ?

Gave up on romance
Gave up on love
Gave up on everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s stupid
Maybe it’s tough
But I thought that
It would be us
But I still stare at the stars every night
Hoping one day you will knock on my door
Telling me you saw me
And wanted to know more
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

I gave you my time
I gave you my heart
I gave you everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s something
And maybe it’s not
But I thought that
It would be us
Yet I still gaze at the rain drops out of the room
And blush at thought they remind me of you
Holding me closely
Right in your arms
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

And every time I came closer
You were at the ends of the earth
Our lives kept blocking
And I was tired of the search

So I gave up on romance
I gave up on love
But I still stare at the stars every night